Making decisions that satisfy my needs feels much scarier than
Following the dictates of society and my loved ones—
Why?
Freedom of thought bucks up against the herding instinct …
A while back my therapist offered this prophecy:
As you learn to think for yourself and actually take care of your needs
You can't help but separate certain parts of yourself
From those whom you'd put first
Ah! I replied: You don't know me!
I'll carve a new path and take them with me
My therapist laughed, and so did I
Now I get what he meant
Perhaps, in addition to releasing my mind from
A self demeaning belief system—
This current bout of separation anxiety
Is also due to reality focusing in on this deeper truth:
Some of my loved ones have chosen to walk
A path of self discovery, parallelling the one
I've been carving out for myself, while others have not, and
Now that my conscious mind can no longer deny
The existence of two groups—which had once felt indivisible
My heart grieves with sadness over ... loss of hope ... Over what?
Hope of opening every mind to the wonders of
Working at embracing painful gains in self awareness, which precede
Mind expansion, culminating in change for the better, all around
In short, my leadership skills do not umbrella
Both groups, as had been true in the past …
So if loss of hope proves partially responsible for separation anxiety and
If it's not like me to end a post on a negative note then
With which positive thought shall I leave you to ponder, today?
How about five for the price of one:
*Once my sense of positive focus has had time to re-energize
My frustration will lessen, at which time
The innate intelligence of my brain
Will direct the rest of my mind toward
Encouraging discussions, which inspire change for the better in
Any mind that freely chooses to hold hands with mine
Encouraging discussions, which inspire change for the better in
Any mind that freely chooses to hold hands with mine
*Having re-evaluated my position in our extended family
I have no reason to give up on
The validity of my leadership skills
Suggesting that when
Placed in the hot seat, my self esteem has no reason to melt down
*I have sound reason to respect my strength of mind and warm heart
*I feel lovable and worthwhile!
Wishing you a five star day—
Your friend and mine,
Annie
Placed in the hot seat, my self esteem has no reason to melt down
*I have sound reason to respect my strength of mind and warm heart
*I feel lovable and worthwhile!
Whew! Now—doesn't that feel better?
Yes indeedy, it sure does!Wishing you a five star day—
Your friend and mine,
Annie
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