Several thoughts to consider before my dream unfolds on your screen:
First of all, a few insights, which may prove of interest to your quest into self awareness, were added to yesterday's post, so, in keeping with 'two steps forward one step back', prudence points to this fact: Thoroughness suggests that while training our brains to function optimally rather than succumbing to primal fear when danger draws near, it makes sense to back track for a moment to reflect over insights added as an afterthought, and here's why that's true: Those sparks of insight may ignite today's string of insights, which, hopefully, will emerge as I write. So if continuity, concerning personal growth, is our mutual goal then reflection proves wise before moving forward.
Originally, I was encouraged by countless people in my classes to write a book filled with stories, concerning raising my children with love and self disciple, guided by positive focus.
Then I was encouraged by a therapist to write a book filled with stories, concerning insights, attitudes and decisions that saved our family from dissolving into tears in the aftermath of divorce court.
Ultimately, I was encouraged to meld both book writing goals into this blog, which explores the healing nature of questing ever more deeply into one's personal history in search of insight into self awareness based in deeper truth.
Amazing, isn't it, how reflecting over the past opens our minds to options, which had once aroused fear of adventuring into territory as yet unexplored.
Today, You and I will adventure into a surrealistic dream that summarizes my lengthy quest to recapture my lost sense of clarity, which had succumbed to primal fear for two reasons: The first reason points to a raw state of trauma, which raised its terrified little head about two years after my father's death. The second reason points to social brainwashing, which began when I was so young as to have been filmed, riding the little red trike that I'd loved, at a time in my life when my head full of tousled dark curls proved imaginative and playful but innocent of knowledge, concerning lasting
wounds to self esteem.
wounds to self esteem.
Here's an insight, concerning wisdom, that just popped out of my mind:
Wisdom does not depend upon clarity as I'd previously thought
Wisdom depends upon embracing a life's path where
A daunting sense of confusion signals intuition to quest
For factual knowledge while intelligence works to
Piece together this collection of puzzle pieces until
For factual knowledge while intelligence works to
Piece together this collection of puzzle pieces until
Insight into a set of conflicting beliefs has been
Identified and reorganized by way of
Identified and reorganized by way of
Intuition coupling with intelligence to
Compile two lists: one being a list of factual details
Separate from a list of fabrications made by
The frightened side of my mind that imagines
Separate from a list of fabrications made by
The frightened side of my mind that imagines
Negative consequences associated with thoughts of failure
Having separated details that prove factual from
Details, fabricated by fearsome fantasies of
Failure, based in negatively focused assumptions
My intelligence, coupled with factual knowledge
Grows ever more capable of spotlighting insight into
Bigger pictures which had once been missed due to
Failure, based in negatively focused assumptions
My intelligence, coupled with factual knowledge
Grows ever more capable of spotlighting insight into
Bigger pictures which had once been missed due to
Blind confusion born of darkly fearful beliefs
In light of having gained confidence in
The true nature of my character traits
The true nature of my character traits
I no longer fear engaging in any debate that
Tries to smear my reputation by
Taking my actions and thoughts
Tries to smear my reputation by
Taking my actions and thoughts
Out of context in the same way that
Politics conduct mean minded smear campaigns on TV
Politics conduct mean minded smear campaigns on TV
Upon doing the necessary work to heal
The wounded portions of my self esteem
That self demeaning fear of failure, lumbering around
In my subconscious, lost its power to
'Put me down' and now that
My conscious mind knows my strength of character
My subconscious is no longer
Riddled with self doubt, based in
Unidentified fear of undeserved guilt
And if you ask how this work was achieved
I'd reply: Recent sessions of EMDR offered me reason to reflect
Ever more deeply into my past in hopes of shedding
Additional layers of self protective denial, thus exposing
Subconscious fears of misbegotten beliefs more clearly
Than ever before, and as deeply painful, misbegotten beliefs
Filtered into my conscious mind, my intellect gained
A sense of readiness to clarify the factual truth of
My character, once and for all ... suggesting that
All I'd needed do to be true to
My courageous nature was to retrain my think tank to
The wounded portions of my self esteem
That self demeaning fear of failure, lumbering around
In my subconscious, lost its power to
'Put me down' and now that
My conscious mind knows my strength of character
My subconscious is no longer
Riddled with self doubt, based in
Unidentified fear of undeserved guilt
And if you ask how this work was achieved
I'd reply: Recent sessions of EMDR offered me reason to reflect
Ever more deeply into my past in hopes of shedding
Additional layers of self protective denial, thus exposing
Subconscious fears of misbegotten beliefs more clearly
Than ever before, and as deeply painful, misbegotten beliefs
Filtered into my conscious mind, my intellect gained
A sense of readiness to clarify the factual truth of
My character, once and for all ... suggesting that
All I'd needed do to be true to
My courageous nature was to retrain my think tank to
Imprint positively focused statements of fact
More deeply into my re-organized brain than
Had been possible when my soul had felt troubled by
A great deal of confusion, which had eclipsed
My intelligent hold onto clarity …
More deeply into my re-organized brain than
Had been possible when my soul had felt troubled by
A great deal of confusion, which had eclipsed
My intelligent hold onto clarity …
As to the crazy dream, which showcases
My mind undergoing transformative stages of chrysalis
Well, it proved not crazy, at all, once my
Intelligence, knowledge and line of control
Slowed down the pace of life's merry-go-round at least
Enough to offer my power of intuition
Clear/ance to serve as the bridge, which
Connects my subconscious beliefs
Enough to offer my power of intuition
Clear/ance to serve as the bridge, which
Connects my subconscious beliefs
And my conscious sense of knowledge, whereby
My brain, acting as a whole, felt capable of expressing
The holistic nature of healing, associated
With self discovery, which precedes personal growth, and
The fact that I understood the complexities
Inherent in this dreamscape attests to this fact:
The deep thinking person I prove to be, today
Has worked to develop the personal strengths
Necessary to heal the most severely wounded portions
Of my self esteem
PS
Hold the presses! says the ever observant Lois to Clark ...
Yesterday, my self-effacing attitude suggested my having made a field goal on Saturday, however, at that time, which proved to be halftime, I'd not yet reflected over the second half of that game of Family Win-Win. Now that I've reflected over that which took place on Sunday, I can offer you this bird's eye view: As Sunday played out, both sides of my extended family managed to tie the score in positive ways, so—if you had been offered a play by play review of the weekend as a whole, I believe you'd have reason to agree that love at its purist, coupled with a growing sense of self awareness, intelligence and knowledge proves to be such a hard working team as to make it impossible for defensive, fear-based opposition to beat us from working to achieve even greater levels of success as the future unfolds! 😍
At least, that's my hope. And each time my well-developed sense of positively focused hope holds hands with a realistic goal, I find that with patience, sad losses have had just cause to transform into expressions of gladness, all around.
As reporting the most poignant portions of my dream with attention to detail requires deep thought on my part, I'll tackle that intuitive feat of memory a bit later in the day, because, right now, my brain is signaling its need for down time to rest up so that each of today's insights has time to imprint so deeply into my think tank as to spark a string of insights, which will reveal themselves to both of us when the zanier portions of my dream appear on our screens. So, though truly sorry to create disappointment, I doubt that you'll see the healing nature of my dreamscape until the sun comes out, tomorrow ...
As for now, tis time to nourish mind, body and spirit with protein before soothing my sciatic pain within swirling pulsations of heat, which are sure to provide me with temporary gains of relief until time works it's magic of reducing my discomfort to a level that will offer me the freedom to drive … So it's off to the kitchen and then into the hot tub for ... your friend (and mine)
Annie
My brain, acting as a whole, felt capable of expressing
The holistic nature of healing, associated
With self discovery, which precedes personal growth, and
The fact that I understood the complexities
Inherent in this dreamscape attests to this fact:
The deep thinking person I prove to be, today
Has worked to develop the personal strengths
Necessary to heal the most severely wounded portions
Of my self esteem
PS
Hold the presses! says the ever observant Lois to Clark ...
Yesterday, my self-effacing attitude suggested my having made a field goal on Saturday, however, at that time, which proved to be halftime, I'd not yet reflected over the second half of that game of Family Win-Win. Now that I've reflected over that which took place on Sunday, I can offer you this bird's eye view: As Sunday played out, both sides of my extended family managed to tie the score in positive ways, so—if you had been offered a play by play review of the weekend as a whole, I believe you'd have reason to agree that love at its purist, coupled with a growing sense of self awareness, intelligence and knowledge proves to be such a hard working team as to make it impossible for defensive, fear-based opposition to beat us from working to achieve even greater levels of success as the future unfolds! 😍
At least, that's my hope. And each time my well-developed sense of positively focused hope holds hands with a realistic goal, I find that with patience, sad losses have had just cause to transform into expressions of gladness, all around.
As reporting the most poignant portions of my dream with attention to detail requires deep thought on my part, I'll tackle that intuitive feat of memory a bit later in the day, because, right now, my brain is signaling its need for down time to rest up so that each of today's insights has time to imprint so deeply into my think tank as to spark a string of insights, which will reveal themselves to both of us when the zanier portions of my dream appear on our screens. So, though truly sorry to create disappointment, I doubt that you'll see the healing nature of my dreamscape until the sun comes out, tomorrow ...
As for now, tis time to nourish mind, body and spirit with protein before soothing my sciatic pain within swirling pulsations of heat, which are sure to provide me with temporary gains of relief until time works it's magic of reducing my discomfort to a level that will offer me the freedom to drive … So it's off to the kitchen and then into the hot tub for ... your friend (and mine)
Annie
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