2014
Enjoyed our evening with dear friends, last night
Dinner and movie: The Drop ... Worth seeing
Mind not feeling rested, fully spirited, as of yet ...
Brain still feeling tired while
A deeply imprinted mindset
Adopted at the age of four, which had
Caused me to self defeat, repeatedly
Takes intuitive steps, on its own toward
Transitioning into a healthy mindset,
Based in insight, resulting in clarity
Though it may feel as though clarity hits, all at once
In truth, a host of insights must be
Caught, like fireflies in a jar, before
A mind shift, changing from dark to light, feels complete
Ever since another layer of my defensive wall
Came down during therapy on Thursday
My brain has been busy healing itself from
Injury, incurred traumatically, when I was too young to
Understand the limits of that which has been
Beyond my control concerning
Family dynamics, all along
So though I stopped by, today, to offer you a smile
I'm planning to spend the greater part of today
Watching football
Making a Costco run
And relaxing with a good book while
Embracing the fact that both sides of my mind are
Working together, percolating toward creating
A mental outlook leading toward
Change for the better as the human brain tends to do when
Our defense systems are not running interference
With insight into logical thought, imprinting
So deeply as to culminate in personal growth
Though it's true that
During this crucial stage of metamorphosis
It's natural for me to feel as vulnerable as
The caterpillar sans cocoon
Here is why I feel more peaceful than anxious:
Experience suggests that this stage of transition
Equates with strength in the making, and thus, given time
This new and improved attitude
Which is shaping up as I write, will
Imprint itself so deeply into my mind
As to free my spirit to fly free of reactivity to
Toxicity, which had pulled me down in the past
As for now, please imagine me smiling quietly
While wishing you a five star day
Your friend,
Annie
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