Today, while rereading yesterday's post
Insight into inner conflict grabbed hold of my mind
I'll do my best to recreate exactly how that happened
First of all, imagine me rereading the beginning of yesterday's post:
Generally, life and mystery go hand in hand
Let's take this mystery for example:
As my posts are read around the world
I often wonder what my thoughts look like
In a language other than English
Today, while engaged in the process of writing
I spied an icon for 'language' on my screen
Hmmm—I thought—I never noticed that icon before
As curiosity tapped the icon, many language choices appeared
Randomly, I tapped Filipino and waited to see what would happen
What happened, next, left me feeling surprised and confused
(Okay—here comes the insight …)
For some reason, I looked more closely
At the word 'confused' and realized that—like love and anxietyr—
Confusion is a feeling that emerges intuitively, on its own
That insight led me to muse over this fact:
While some of what we feel emerges instinctively
Other feelings are aroused from that which we learn, suggesting
'Brain training' proved necessary
For instance, self restraint is a feeling that's aroused once
The think tank has been trained to make decisions based in
Social rules of conduct, which must be consciously learned as in:
Don't be a cry baby. Turn off those (natural) tears!
In this way, our brains are trained to feel bad
When that which we feel for real is deemed socially unacceptable
Rules of conduct create socially conditioned reactions, which
Once acquired, feel as natural as emotions, which had been innatelyhard wired, and thus does deeper truth suggest that
Social grooming precedes emotions, which feel self- depreciating.
When natural feelings, are suppressed, over long
That which we are not allowed to feel filters from
The conscious portion of the mind into the subconscious, where
Repressed emotion, which has grown numb, is stored; however
Numb does not mean gone,
Like—when your leg falls asleep, it doesn't fall off, right?
Like—when you awaken from surgery, and the anesthetic wears off
You can't deny the truth of your physical pain—so you request a drug—
Well Mother Nature has a drug for emotional pain known as Denial
You get it, right?
Any emotion that triggers too much distress will numb up, over time
Reality suggests that emotion, stored within the subconscious
Exists in a numbed state of being, which can't be felt, and so
if you ask: How is distressed emotion imprisoned until it is freed?
I'd reply: Numbed emotion is imprisoned in a dreamstate within
Your subconscious and mine, suggesting that
Natural emotion, too long repressed
Is tightly packed into 'baggage' that
Accompanies us wherever we go, which is why I
Liken repressed emotion to a little song bird, whose
Voice longs to fly free of the cage, which proves
Too confining for its spirit to soar, joyfully, suggesting that
Repressed emotion clips the human spirit's natural wingspan
I often consider my therapist my teacher in that
During our time, together, I absorb so much valuable information
For example:
People choose one of three ways to reduce emotional distress:
Alcohol, medication, and Mother Nature's drug, more commonly
Called: Denial
As I had reason to become addicted to denial during childhood
You'll watch me go through
Each time you watch me cleanse a layer of denial from my mind
Emotion, long repressed, is re-awakened, freed and felt every bit as
Consciously as when my distress had originally
Proved too deep and raw to withstand in lieu of numbing relief
If you wonder how insights expressed above will lead
Today's train of thought toward the reason why I believe
Repressed emotion catalyzes inner conflict, we are about to
Delve into the fact that the human brain is made up of two halves:
The intuitive half, where innate emotion naturally resides
And the think tank, where rules of conduct are acquired and stored
During times of inner conflict intuitive emotion
(That which emerges naturally) duels with acquired emotion
Otherwise known as widely accepted, learned behaviors, which
Run interference with meeting our personal (existential) needs
As you can see
Inner conflict results when one half of your brain duels with the other
Causing feelings of distress to weigh heavy on your spirit until
A sense of balance between two equal forces
Has been achieved, suggesting that the human brain is in need of
Developing training techniques that result in consciously teaching
impassioned emotion to hold hands with a self discipled sense of logic
In this way, passion, while being actively restrained
Can be consciously felt and logically expressed rather than
Subconsciously numbed for as long as it remains repressed
-Once this self disciplined sense of logic processes freely through your mind
Both sides of your brain function well as a whole
On the other hand, inner conflict results when
Intuition, wrestling with social decorum
Creates a conundrum of confusion that remains unresolved
As we come to recognize the necessity of training our brains to
Express (rather than repress) innate needs in
A healthy, self disciplined manner, that's when
We prove soulfully true to ourselves at our core
And if anyone feels the need to argue with reasoning that
Proves as intuitively and logically as sound as
Today's train of thought seems to me, then
I'd love nothing more than to open my mind and
Listen to that which you may feel the need to say
And with that said
I hope you can feel me wishing you a five star day :)
PS
If you ask where trains of thought, such as these come from
I'd reply: I've asked myself that same question, so many times that
Eventually, intuition suggested that
I seriously consider this probability:
While raising my sons, my think tank chose to do
A ton of reading, concerning emotion and behavior, and
That which I learned made such good sense that
I made the conscious choice to balance
Logic with creativity whenever problem solving proved necessary
And by and by, much to my spirit's sense of joy
Solution seeking success was mine (and theirs), repeatedly
With time, creative trains of logical thought began to tap into
My powers of intuition, spontaneously, unwittingly
As you may recall, intuitive (instinctive) trains of thought do not
Deny the existence of emotion aching for freedom of expression
And as that insight proves true at all ages for each and every soul
Eventually, I came to realize that my powers of intuition
Had become so well practiced as to see inner conflict as offering me Opportunities to re-examine mindsets, concerning
Rules of conduct in need of review
If you ask which emotion calls forth intuitive thought
I'd reply: Feelings of confusion
If you ask why that's true, I'd say:
Confusion sparks my instinctive need for clarity
My need for clarity inspires me to
Soak my head in Walden Pond, where
I swim around until
Insight into self trust is mine, time after time :)
Insight into inner conflict grabbed hold of my mind
I'll do my best to recreate exactly how that happened
First of all, imagine me rereading the beginning of yesterday's post:
Generally, life and mystery go hand in hand
Let's take this mystery for example:
As my posts are read around the world
I often wonder what my thoughts look like
In a language other than English
Today, while engaged in the process of writing
I spied an icon for 'language' on my screen
Hmmm—I thought—I never noticed that icon before
As curiosity tapped the icon, many language choices appeared
Randomly, I tapped Filipino and waited to see what would happen
What happened, next, left me feeling surprised and confused
(Okay—here comes the insight …)
For some reason, I looked more closely
At the word 'confused' and realized that—like love and anxietyr—
Confusion is a feeling that emerges intuitively, on its own
That insight led me to muse over this fact:
While some of what we feel emerges instinctively
Other feelings are aroused from that which we learn, suggesting
'Brain training' proved necessary
For instance, self restraint is a feeling that's aroused once
The think tank has been trained to make decisions based in
Social rules of conduct, which must be consciously learned as in:
Don't be a cry baby. Turn off those (natural) tears!
In this way, our brains are trained to feel bad
When that which we feel for real is deemed socially unacceptable
Rules of conduct create socially conditioned reactions, which
Once acquired, feel as natural as emotions, which had been innatelyhard wired, and thus does deeper truth suggest that
Social grooming precedes emotions, which feel self- depreciating.
When natural feelings, are suppressed, over long
That which we are not allowed to feel filters from
The conscious portion of the mind into the subconscious, where
Repressed emotion, which has grown numb, is stored; however
Numb does not mean gone,
Like—when your leg falls asleep, it doesn't fall off, right?
Like—when you awaken from surgery, and the anesthetic wears off
You can't deny the truth of your physical pain—so you request a drug—
Well Mother Nature has a drug for emotional pain known as Denial
You get it, right?
Any emotion that triggers too much distress will numb up, over time
Reality suggests that emotion, stored within the subconscious
Exists in a numbed state of being, which can't be felt, and so
if you ask: How is distressed emotion imprisoned until it is freed?
I'd reply: Numbed emotion is imprisoned in a dreamstate within
Your subconscious and mine, suggesting that
Natural emotion, too long repressed
Is tightly packed into 'baggage' that
Accompanies us wherever we go, which is why I
Liken repressed emotion to a little song bird, whose
Voice longs to fly free of the cage, which proves
Too confining for its spirit to soar, joyfully, suggesting that
Repressed emotion clips the human spirit's natural wingspan
I often consider my therapist my teacher in that
During our time, together, I absorb so much valuable information
For example:
People choose one of three ways to reduce emotional distress:
Alcohol, medication, and Mother Nature's drug, more commonly
Called: Denial
As I had reason to become addicted to denial during childhood
You'll watch me go through
Painful bouts of withdrawal each time
I work to shed another layer of my self protective wall
I work to shed another layer of my self protective wall
Each time you watch me cleanse a layer of denial from my mind
Emotion, long repressed, is re-awakened, freed and felt every bit as
Consciously as when my distress had originally
Proved too deep and raw to withstand in lieu of numbing relief
If you wonder how insights expressed above will lead
Today's train of thought toward the reason why I believe
Repressed emotion catalyzes inner conflict, we are about to
Delve into the fact that the human brain is made up of two halves:
The intuitive half, where innate emotion naturally resides
And the think tank, where rules of conduct are acquired and stored
During times of inner conflict intuitive emotion
(That which emerges naturally) duels with acquired emotion
Otherwise known as widely accepted, learned behaviors, which
Run interference with meeting our personal (existential) needs
As you can see
Inner conflict results when one half of your brain duels with the other
Causing feelings of distress to weigh heavy on your spirit until
A sense of balance between two equal forces
Has been achieved, suggesting that the human brain is in need of
Developing training techniques that result in consciously teaching
impassioned emotion to hold hands with a self discipled sense of logic
In this way, passion, while being actively restrained
Can be consciously felt and logically expressed rather than
Subconsciously numbed for as long as it remains repressed
-Once this self disciplined sense of logic processes freely through your mind
Both sides of your brain function well as a whole
On the other hand, inner conflict results when
Intuition, wrestling with social decorum
Creates a conundrum of confusion that remains unresolved
As we come to recognize the necessity of training our brains to
Express (rather than repress) innate needs in
A healthy, self disciplined manner, that's when
We prove soulfully true to ourselves at our core
And if anyone feels the need to argue with reasoning that
Proves as intuitively and logically as sound as
Today's train of thought seems to me, then
I'd love nothing more than to open my mind and
Listen to that which you may feel the need to say
And with that said
I hope you can feel me wishing you a five star day :)
PS
If you ask where trains of thought, such as these come from
I'd reply: I've asked myself that same question, so many times that
Eventually, intuition suggested that
I seriously consider this probability:
While raising my sons, my think tank chose to do
A ton of reading, concerning emotion and behavior, and
That which I learned made such good sense that
I made the conscious choice to balance
Logic with creativity whenever problem solving proved necessary
And by and by, much to my spirit's sense of joy
Solution seeking success was mine (and theirs), repeatedly
With time, creative trains of logical thought began to tap into
My powers of intuition, spontaneously, unwittingly
As you may recall, intuitive (instinctive) trains of thought do not
Deny the existence of emotion aching for freedom of expression
And as that insight proves true at all ages for each and every soul
Eventually, I came to realize that my powers of intuition
Had become so well practiced as to see inner conflict as offering me Opportunities to re-examine mindsets, concerning
Rules of conduct in need of review
If you ask which emotion calls forth intuitive thought
I'd reply: Feelings of confusion
If you ask why that's true, I'd say:
Confusion sparks my instinctive need for clarity
My need for clarity inspires me to
Soak my head in Walden Pond, where
I swim around until
Insight into self trust is mine, time after time :)
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