Thursday, November 28, 2013

850 NGUOUY Part 14 THAT WHICH IMPLODED PROVED TO BE MY ...

That which imploded proved to be my persona!
And once one's self protecting persona is blown ...
Vulnerabilities are most certainly exposed!
As I'm feeling transparent …
I can see what I feel straight into my core
And the more I see into myself the more I come to know myself
So it's no wonder that I just spied Socrates wings clapping with glee …
You see, once vulnerability to an unidentified fear is fully disclosed
Another portion of injured self esteem is empowered to heal for all time …
And what could be more appropriate than giving thanks
For a blessing as profound as that on this day of good fortune when
We celebrate Thanksgiving with family and friends :)

Uh ... hold the phone for just a sec, because
Insight's calling me to task, again ...
Though I'd thought never to have felt
Such depths of fear to compare with that of the past several weeks
Here's why that declaration proves yet another mistaken belief:
If it's true that the depth of my reaction was the mirror image
Of terror I'd experienced as a child
Then this recent bout with fear
Had been born of déjà vu, suggesting that
This particular fear has laid dormant in wait of
Biting into my sense of personal safety with
The same degree of anguish I'd experienced
As an innocent child, who'd not understood that
Both sides of human nature exist within every individual and
Having placed my trust in one who'd betrayed my innocence
Life grew too confounding to comprehend ... So ....
That which had been too frightening to remember, I forgot
And now that this specific fear, which I've not yet named for you
Is transparent to me …
Insight into that sleeping dog, which
Had recently awakened to terrorize me, again
Has been tamed, suggesting that this fear has lost its power
To attack my personal sense of safety, unexpectedly, ever again
And as one insight continues to light up the next, eventually
A string of Aha! moments will illuminate
Each detail of my mental block, which is still opaque
And as each opaque detail of my mental block
Becomes transparent, ultimately, the bigger picture, which
Eludes comprehension, today, will clarify, one step at a time …
For example, the story that's unfolding, right now, aims to
Show you (and me) how, at first glance
The dark side of my mind twisted
My sense of self trust out of shape to the point that
I'd mistakenly thought the sum of my strengths
Had deserted me in my time of greatest need when in truth …
Over time, my inner strengths gained clarity into logic, which
Arose to save the day by offering conclusive evidence, which
Will prove beyond a shadow of self doubt
That my hard won inner strengths remained intact :)
And as soon, my friends, you shall feel free to judge that for yourself
With that said, let's feast on good fortune before the turkey gets cold :)

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