END FIRST KISS Part 31 : A WOUNDED FLOCK (137)

I
Do not
See myself
As wounded


That
Is
A
Good thing


Yet
I seek out
The
Wounded


Why?
I sense that
They are
Available


And
I sense that
They are
Safe


Why?
I sense
No
Rejection


So
Like a fire fly
I lead myself to
Flit here and There


And though
I do not know
This
For a fact


I
Can
Sense
That ...


This wounded bird
Can not help
Other wounded birds fly—
At least not at twelve

So
I hover around

One nice but dispirited soul

Or another

For

A very

Short

While

Until

Boredom

Demands

A need to expand my wings

And thankfully
During
The rest of
Jr. High


Denial
Will
Blind 
Me


From
Feeling
Too low
To fly high


In this way
Denial
Will serve me well
For quite a while


And
Here
Is why
That's true:


Though
My heart
Is
Wounded


And
My
Mind
Confounded


My
Spirit
Is
Strong


And
The strength
Of my spirit
Senses ...


That
Somewhere
Deep inside
My core


I embody
Less weakness
More strength
As time moves on


And
Due to
This spark of
Inner strength


I
May feel
Lonely ...
However


Feeling lonely
Is not the same
As feeling
All alone

And as that difference ...

Between feeing lonely

And being alone

Makes all the difference ...

The strength of my spirit
Sparks

My mind

To serve me well


In short
I can feel lonely

And loved all at once

Most especially
At
Those
Times

When

Peer pressure

Blindly
Puts me down

And
As time moves forward
Which
Time always does


Low and behold

I'll think

To seek out

The new kids on the block ...


And

As

You

Shall See


My sense of loneliness

Is about
To take a hike

Until high school


And
Thank goodness
For
That!
:-)