7–IF MAKING NO WAVES NO LONGER FLOATS MY BOAT THEN WHAT DOES? Part 3

During the still of the night, the self assertive portion of
My voice, which still feels kind of anxious by day
Awakened Will, who remembers my shouting
Angrily —I’LL NEVER LET YOU TOUCH ME, AGAIN!

(You see, the frightened little girl, whom I'd once been, is not
The only ghost who has been hiding deep within
My subconscious for far too long, because
The predator, whom she's been fearing for
Sound reason, has been residing in
A hiding space that proves too
Close for comfort to hers!)

As I listened to my husband, who is
Known to be more cynical than not, say:
‘I really think you’re making headway’
I felt my spirit leap to life, igniting
A heartfelt flame that shot
Through my entire being, sparking
My hands to clasp together and
My eyes to sparkle as if in
Fervent thanks of a heartfelt prayer being
Answered from on high, at last—Whew!
I mean, my therapist has been encouraging
The Annie, whom I've grown up to be to
Develop the courageous hindsight necessary to
Piece together puzzling details of my youth so as to
Infuse the lonely little girl with the wholesome
Inner strength of self love, which will
Wholly work in my favor to oust that predator from
Haunting my personal well-being, once and for all!

You see, I don’t need to reach the end of
My journey for hope to re-energize my
Choice to keep my eyes open and my ears peeled
While adventuring forward on my chosen
Path so as not to miss even one small sign of
Encouragement to feel that my life’s
‘Create Your Own Adventure (which I’ve long felt
Compelled to carve out for myself) has been inspired by
My soul, which has longed to welcome my wholly healed self to
Feel completely peaceful and relaxed within my own skin ever since
The fickle finger of fate offered me an on-going series of
Inter-related of traumatic experiences that had
Scared me out of my wits during childhood when
I was seen anxiously scratching my arms raw at
The highly imaginative, deeply impressionable age of three—

As you know, intuition has been suggesting that
I’ve been nearing the angle of peaceful repose, which my soul has been
Subconsciously directing my growing sense of wholeness to
Achieve, little by little, and thus did my absorption of
Will’s affirmative assessment concerning my closing in upon
The valiant achievement of this long range goal
Offer my spirit sound reason re-energize my brain’s
Tenacious determination, which jumped for joy, propelling
My think tank to take another leap of faith based in
Self-validation feeling spurred on by the wings of love
Ohhmm ...