Friday, December 28, 2018

6–IF MAKING NO WAVES NO LONGER FLOATS MY BOAT THEN WHAT DOES? Part 2

Though I’d had no clue that
Wednesday’s train of thought was not complete when
It was published, that insight came clear to me
While rereading that post, this morning, and
felt compelled to add insights, which had filtered into
The conscious portion of my mind so naturally as to have
Delivered another knockout punch to the undeserved guilt that
Has rained on a good little girl’s parade throughout my entire life
And with thoughts of considering those insights for yourself
I hope you, too, will freely choose to scroll back so as to
Mull over the self-empowering message that my subconscious
Felt ready to release to me, thus offering my conscious
Connection to clarity sound reason to mindfully deepen
My absorption of innocence from ‘Sin’, yet again, and as
Every additional insight proves to be a stepping stone toward
Illuminating yet another Classic Truth, freeing the frightened
Child within me from declaring herself guilty of
Wrongdoing, undeservedly, the positively focused side of
My spirit feels inspired to embrace my soul’s sense of
Inner peace more thoroughly than had felt possible before, and
Thus is it my pleasure to offer you the gift of additional insights in
Hopes of inspiring the conscious portion of your mind to feel
A growing sense of connection deepening ever more
Naturally with soul searching trains of thought that will, one day
Speak to your readiness to filter classic strings of insight (which
May be percolating within your subconscious, right now) through
Your defense system’s wall of denial so as to liberate your sense of
Wholeness to declare the frightened child who dwells within you
(And who had long ago condemned himself/herself to feeling
Guilty of sinning against the dictates of over reactive
God-like parents) innocent of feeling burdened to
Pay retribution, forever, thus pardoning your spirit from
Shouldering the subconscious burden of undeserved guilt, every
Day, for the rest of your life—Whew!

In short, every post I feel compelled to pen offers
My clarity of mind sound reason to authorize my self assertive
Voice to ‘speak’ my deeper truths (long secreted from myself)
Aloud as happened, this morning, when a new string of insights
Felt free to blend in naturally with those, which had filtered
Through my defense system’s wall of denial, last Wednesday
And since those additional insights spotlighted the fact that
My forgiveness of others (whose misjudgments had transgressed
Against my best character traits) would continue to taste bitter until
I’d absorbed sound reason to thoroughly forgive the innocence of
The impressionable child, who, residing in
My subconscious memory, had mistakenly condemned me to
Serve a life sentence at hard (mental) labor as though to
Pay penance for feeling akin to the pedophile, unnecessarily, and
As each next string of insights feels ready to emerge from
Subconscious captivity, my conscious awareness will feel
Sound reason to take yet another leap of faith toward releasing
Repressed fear or anger, concerning emotional abandonment so as
To deepen my heartfelt capacity to offer love of self as
Unconditionally as I have been challenging myself to offer that
Rare gift to my loved ones, all of whom prove as imperfect as is
True of me—so when asked what floats my boat, today, I reply:
Whereas yesteryear, my fear of expressing anger aloud saw me making
No waves that might capsize my boat, recently, I’ve begun to voice
Whatever makes me feel fearful or angry, openly, clearly and with
Sensitivity for the vulnerabilities of others, and by expressing
Whatever I feel (so as to be true to myself) I also feel free to offer
My love pure and simple, free of mixed messages, which
Having been based in defensive complexity, had served to
Mix everyone’s processors up, inclusive of mine, and thus
To free my mind and the minds of my loved ones of
‘Mixed Messaged Madness’ is a rare gift to offer, indeed—
Ohmm  ...

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