As post 1419 danced through my mind while the rest of me
Slept peacefully through the night, my intuitive powers chose to
Further enhance that post upon awakening, this morning.
Why? Because insights added, concerning personal growth spurts
Inspired my spirit to revitalize even more than before, and thus
Do I continue to marvel at the magic of the mind
Why? Because the feats of the interrelated functions of the mind
Fascinate me as much as the feats of a master magician. For example:
Once upon a time, one portion of a little girl's mind
(Her defense system to be exact) magically waved a wand, blocking
Her conscious awareness from remembering experiences too
Complicated and horrific for a child to comprehend, and thus were
Those experiences transported from conscious memory into subconscious
Storage until such time as her intuition surmised that the adult, whom
The child had chosen to grow up to be, had developed the emotional
Intelligence to set forth on a personal odyssey to exhume secrets that
She'd feared to remember during childhood but had need to absorb as
An adult if she truly wanted to know both sides of herself in depth, and so
With the wave of its wand, the woman's magical power of intuition awakened
Her sense of readiness to enlist her host of inner strengths (which had
Developed throughout each stage of her life) to open one door in her
Wall of denial after another, and since her think tank had naturally
Flooded with anxiety before each new string of insights popped out of her
Subconscious, her intuitive powers directed the sum of her smarts to
Muster the courage to cocoon her brain within an emotionally safe
Place, where her thought processor would tunnel through each next
Emotionally painful bout of latent anxiety that emerged whenever
All of the woman's mental energy felt compelled to hunker down to
Work at disassembling another layer of her wall of denial, and
Resultant of laboring until the spotlight of insight showcased every
Aspect of the woman's false front, this long-ranged, thinning out process
Finally met with success, suggesting that the woman had grown
Ever more consciously attentive to her intuitive voice for sound reason
And having placed her faith in her power of intuition, the exhausted portion of
Her hard working thought processor continued to swim through
Repressed layers of anxiety toward additional insights, which, upon surfacing
Proved to enrich the woman's self image to feel lighter and brighter than had been
Possible before each next intuitive dive into her subconscious storehouse of
Memories revealed yet another suitcase, stuffed with such weighty
Emotional baggage, which upon unloading, had freed her spirit to
Soar a bit higher than had been possible ever since family tragedy had
Stimulated the magic of her mind to cast a spell over her three year old mind, and
Since this woman proves to be me, I, in the aftermath of each successful dive, would
Come up for air holding aloft another fear to which my conscious awareness had been
Blind, and as every fear, exposed in plain sight, proved inter-related, I'd contemplate
The value of stringing together each series of inter-related insights, concerning
My need to reveal, feel and acknowledge subconscious pain as my own before
Each next step of my long ranged quest to know myself in depth could relax and
Replenish the mental energy, which, having been utterly spent, signaled
My power of intuition to offer my think tank time to rest quietly while
Each next set of insights that instill change for the better, concerning
My darkened self image, were absorbed, and once weeks of resting peacefully
Had passed, I'd feel my intuitive voice, signaling my sense of attentiveness to
Ready my think tank to muster the courage to repeat that hard working tunneling
Cycle, again and again, which is why the air I inhale, today feels as magically
Refreshed and fragrant (and free of latent self demeaning, undeserved guilt
Stagnating in its unprocessed, subconscious state) as had been true before
The complex nature of family tragedy had catapulted a lovable little girl's
Self image to feel flung into a black hole so deep and dark as to have
Wounded her heart and scarred her anxious mind to harbor subconsciously
Repressed, unprocessed misperceptions of herself as being such a bad and
Selfish child, who, having fallen short of perfection, had unwittingly
Misjudged herself unworthy of receiving love for seven decades, and
Since you've watched me work, tenaciously, to reverse that
Negatively focused cycle in hopes of healing several aspects of
My wounded self image from the inside out, you can imagine
The depths of joy, concerning the successful nature of my intuitive quest to
Piece together the most puzzling, deeply troubling aspects of
The true bigger picture of each decade of my life in hopes of creating
Lasting mental changes for the better, based in personal growth spurts, each
Of which rings as true and clear as a bell, proclaiming that intuitive
Streams of consciousness have strung together a matched set of insights, which
Have swept every last crumb of mixed-messaged, subconscious guilt
Clearly out of every nook and cranny of my whole-some, soulful
Mind, once and for all! And now that the magical components of
My brain no longer feel the disconcerting nature of inner conflict, born of
Wrestling with secrets that I'd kept from myself, the divisive sense of
Latent anxiety, which has been disempowered from dividing
My mind against itself, has been resolved, and that is why
The greater portion of my mind has sound reason to feel more relaxed and
At peace with the woman whom I prove to be straight down to my core
And with that positively focused thought in mind, I believe that
Any subconscious secrets, yet to be exhumed, concerning abuse, will
One day, be exposed to my conscious awareness with less fear than
I'd felt in the past for this reason: The inner strengths of the intuitive woman
Whom I've grown to be, will instill my conscious mind with
Common sense, concerning my innocence, suggesting that my
Present sense of inner peace may feel distressed but not shattered once my
Intuitive need to tunnel toward freeing myself from harboring
A subconscious secret as haunting as that one proves to be stimulates
My think tank to tunnel, subconsciously, successfully, again And with
Sound reason for having embraced my sense of existential goodness as
Being worthy of self respect as well as seeing myself worthy of
Receiving love, my host of hard won personal strengths and I will end
Today's stream of intuitive thought with an unmasked, high spirited
High Ho, Silver—Hip-hip-hurray!
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