Awoke with mind flooded with confusion
Dark dreams caused me to awaken feeling
Too tired to reflect upon twenty questions with enough clarity to
Write the next part of my story, today
Why?
At first I didn't know why my mind felt too tired to write …
Then this insight hit concerning my recovery from
Recent months of personal crises:
The fact that Will's life experienced physical danger
Released a mysterious demon from
Deep within my subconscious …
This demon recreated a sense of the terror, which
Had terrified me, long ago
After having made my way through that emotional tornedo anew
I thought myself strengthened in significant ways until
Last night, when vulnerability arose and
My mind tossed and turned in my dreams
So, I guess my first thought was not my best thought …
It was just my first thought
Today's thought suggests that
In the aftermath of my emotional tornedo
I had need to consider this insight:
My thought processor had skipped over certain steps which
Prove necessary before …
Time can determine which of my half baked strengths
Had been smashed to bits by
Swirling blasts of confusion gone wild inside my mind
So—though I'd initially thought to have gone
Straight from wrecked to strength
Here is where my first thought had been incomplete:
After internal storms reek wreckage, here and there …
It's wise to sweep up rubble and retrieve undamaged treasure
Before rebuilding a new foundation of personal strengths can begin
Why? Because …
Just as with a city, a person's identity is not rebuilt in a day …
I have no clue where this train of though is going …
It simply poured naturally out of my mind upon awakening, today …
Dark dreams caused me to awaken feeling
Too tired to reflect upon twenty questions with enough clarity to
Write the next part of my story, today
Why?
At first I didn't know why my mind felt too tired to write …
Then this insight hit concerning my recovery from
Recent months of personal crises:
The fact that Will's life experienced physical danger
Released a mysterious demon from
Deep within my subconscious …
This demon recreated a sense of the terror, which
Had terrified me, long ago
After having made my way through that emotional tornedo anew
I thought myself strengthened in significant ways until
Last night, when vulnerability arose and
My mind tossed and turned in my dreams
So, I guess my first thought was not my best thought …
It was just my first thought
Today's thought suggests that
In the aftermath of my emotional tornedo
I had need to consider this insight:
My thought processor had skipped over certain steps which
Prove necessary before …
Time can determine which of my half baked strengths
Had been smashed to bits by
Swirling blasts of confusion gone wild inside my mind
And thus do these half baked strengths prove in need of
Restructuring, today, differently than before
(Again, these past few months have been deeply challenging)So—though I'd initially thought to have gone
Straight from wrecked to strength
Here is where my first thought had been incomplete:
After internal storms reek wreckage, here and there …
It's wise to sweep up rubble and retrieve undamaged treasure
Before rebuilding a new foundation of personal strengths can begin
Why? Because …
Just as with a city, a person's identity is not rebuilt in a day …
I have no clue where this train of though is going …
It simply poured naturally out of my mind upon awakening, today …
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