In recent years
I've experienced reason to re-evaluate my traits:
Whereas traits which serve me well empower my mind to
Achieve certain goals, traits based in subconscious fear
Narrow my scope, limiting my choices, as well
I've also come to see that mindset-expansion depends upon
Personal growth, concerning self awareness, for this reason:
Each time my train of thought musters the courage that proves
Necessary to tunnel through another layer of denial, I can see how
Quickly an eruptive hot spot of yesteryear's unhealed pain (buried during
Childhood) re-ignites such blinding sensations of fear of
What tomorrow may bring as to have caused my defense system to erect
Yet another layer of denial, thickening my defensive wall, which
Blocks my conscious mind from rebalancing my view of today's reality
Then, in order to minimize my fearful reactions, my defense system would
Convince my conscious mind to believe untruths, which offered
Me a false (temporary) sense of inner peace—except for one thing—
Deep inside, behind my wall of denial, my soulful quest for
Clarity, concerning today's reality, persists ...
As long as untruths, absorbed subconsciously behind my wall of
Denial, during childhood (relating back to my lack of self worth) kept
My mind engaged in a Lucy-like maze, I'd nursed this belief:
By empowering myself with talking and listening skills
I was capable of inspiring others to dismantle their defensive walls
And in this way would I be instrumental in enticing my loved ones
To embrace their need of clarity, concerning reality, just like me! Ha!
As if we can dismantle defensive walls that we don't know exist!
Denial, during childhood (relating back to my lack of self worth) kept
My mind engaged in a Lucy-like maze, I'd nursed this belief:
By empowering myself with talking and listening skills
I was capable of inspiring others to dismantle their defensive walls
And in this way would I be instrumental in enticing my loved ones
To embrace their need of clarity, concerning reality, just like me! Ha!
As if we can dismantle defensive walls that we don't know exist!
In recent years, I've had reason to gain insight into
'The myth of movement', which suggests that
I'd fooled myself into believing that my extended family had been
Striding in a positively focused direction toward resolving
Long standing conflicts when nothing was further from 'the truth', and
Over time, I came to recognize the folly of my belief that
I could inspire all of my loved ones to work, together, toward
Creating change for the better with the same
Self motivation as proved true of me, and you can believe me when
I say that, initially, my hopeful heart felt crushed when clarity
Suggested that my defense system had been fooling me just as
The defense system of every human brain fools one and all
In short, I'd believed to have known where all of us were heading until
Clarity, concerning reality, proved that none of our brains
Had found its way out of its own paper bag, including mine!
'The myth of movement', which suggests that
I'd fooled myself into believing that my extended family had been
Striding in a positively focused direction toward resolving
Long standing conflicts when nothing was further from 'the truth', and
Over time, I came to recognize the folly of my belief that
I could inspire all of my loved ones to work, together, toward
Creating change for the better with the same
Self motivation as proved true of me, and you can believe me when
I say that, initially, my hopeful heart felt crushed when clarity
Suggested that my defense system had been fooling me just as
The defense system of every human brain fools one and all
In short, I'd believed to have known where all of us were heading until
Clarity, concerning reality, proved that none of our brains
Had found its way out of its own paper bag, including mine!
Frequently, insight guides me to lift the bag of denial off of
My head in hopes of opening my eyes to my need to
Look inside until emotional baggage, buried alive during
Childhood, stares back at me more clearly than ever before
My head in hopes of opening my eyes to my need to
Look inside until emotional baggage, buried alive during
Childhood, stares back at me more clearly than ever before
For example here is one blind spot that's finally cleared, today:
I am empowered to impart insights but only to those
I am empowered to impart insights but only to those
Whose minds consciously choose to muster the courage to
Hear me out after both of us place frustration and fear
In a time out chair, so we can create such a safe emotional arena as
To encourage our ears to open to new ideas that inspire
Narrow mindsets (based in yesteryear's personal experiences) to
Expand to consider unmet needs, all around
Hear me out after both of us place frustration and fear
In a time out chair, so we can create such a safe emotional arena as
To encourage our ears to open to new ideas that inspire
Narrow mindsets (based in yesteryear's personal experiences) to
Expand to consider unmet needs, all around
Apparently, certain truths prove so potent as to feel
Too hot to handle, causing many of us to close our eyes, ears and
Minds to reconsidering the narrowness of each one's personal perspective
Too hot to handle, causing many of us to close our eyes, ears and
Minds to reconsidering the narrowness of each one's personal perspective
Which may, upon deeper consideration, be based in misperceptions
Concerning self worth ... In other words, each time I watch people, who
Have no conscious clue that they've just dived behind
Their walls of denial, protecting their egos from suffering
The humiliation of defeat, I say to myself: Here is a person who
Has not yet gained insight into identifying those times when
His/her ego sneaks out, and if you remain blind to those times when
Your ego has usurped control over your mind then your smarts get so
Tied up in knots as to feel unable to regain control by placing your ego
In a time out chair, freeing your conscious mind to embrace humility, which
Saves us from eating crow as the future unfolds
Concerning self worth ... In other words, each time I watch people, who
Have no conscious clue that they've just dived behind
Their walls of denial, protecting their egos from suffering
The humiliation of defeat, I say to myself: Here is a person who
Has not yet gained insight into identifying those times when
His/her ego sneaks out, and if you remain blind to those times when
Your ego has usurped control over your mind then your smarts get so
Tied up in knots as to feel unable to regain control by placing your ego
In a time out chair, freeing your conscious mind to embrace humility, which
Saves us from eating crow as the future unfolds
I've come to see that our egos do not fear strengths in others, which
We've developed within ourselves—our egos fear
Strengths in others that cause us to sense subconscious
Vulnerabilities that we do not want to acknowledge as our own
And here is why denial of personal vulnerabilities exacerbates
Conflicts in need of resolving: As long as our many-layered
Wall of denial blocks our conscious minds from clearly identifying
Our unmet needs, our spirits will not feel free to embrace
An expansive sense of inner peace, born of our capacity to offer and
Receive love so naturally as to create an emotional environment
In which others, sensing reason to feel safe, feel peaceful, as well …
As fearing the inner strengths of others proves true of people, who
Have not yet gained insight into their need to muster the courage to
Work at dismantling their walls of denial, I keep this hope in
The forefront of my mind: Each time I adopt a patient
'Wait and see' attitude while working peaceably to expand
My sense of clarity, my sixth sense is more likely to envision
A time when fate (coupled with an expansive sense of choice)
Offers each of us a sense of inner peace that calms anxiety, all around
And perhaps, as boiling points relax we'll find ourselves in a melting pot, at last
As my sense of clarity continues to deepen, I can see how
My expansive perspective of life and love may heighten the fears of
Those whose sense of safety has yet to grow as self confident as is
True of my own, and with that insight in mind, I've stopped knocking
My head against the defensive walls of those I love for this reason:
My expansive perspective of life and love may heighten the fears of
Those whose sense of safety has yet to grow as self confident as is
True of my own, and with that insight in mind, I've stopped knocking
My head against the defensive walls of those I love for this reason:
In truth, it's work enough to identify and take down layers of my own :)
In short, if airing my view of reality threatens
The tenuous nature of another person's inner peace
Then that person's anxiety will call upon defensiveness to double up and
If deaf ears tune out whatever I feel the need to say, thus heightening
Frustration on both sides, then insights, such as these, posted today
Inspire me to change my expectations and behaviors in favor of
Employing positive focus and patience in hopes of minimizing
My sense of disappointed frustration, today, knowing that if
My sense of inner peace is naturally conveyed, I can heighten the sense of
Emotional safety by cutting the tension in the room in half
I enjoy the contest of debating with open minds, however
Since my spirit has worn out, several times, while debating with
Closed mindsets, I'll not expend energy, wastefully, by
Speaking my mind to deaf ears, repeatedly
Instead of inviting frustration to heighten, on all sides
I'm looking forward to 'telling' stories, each of which will
Highlight effective channels of thought, wherein patience and
Positive focus led my failures toward eventually
Reaping the rewards of success—beyond my wildest hopes
In short, if airing my view of reality threatens
The tenuous nature of another person's inner peace
Then that person's anxiety will call upon defensiveness to double up and
If deaf ears tune out whatever I feel the need to say, thus heightening
Frustration on both sides, then insights, such as these, posted today
Inspire me to change my expectations and behaviors in favor of
Employing positive focus and patience in hopes of minimizing
My sense of disappointed frustration, today, knowing that if
My sense of inner peace is naturally conveyed, I can heighten the sense of
Emotional safety by cutting the tension in the room in half
I enjoy the contest of debating with open minds, however
Since my spirit has worn out, several times, while debating with
Closed mindsets, I'll not expend energy, wastefully, by
Speaking my mind to deaf ears, repeatedly
Instead of inviting frustration to heighten, on all sides
I'm looking forward to 'telling' stories, each of which will
Highlight effective channels of thought, wherein patience and
Positive focus led my failures toward eventually
Reaping the rewards of success—beyond my wildest hopes
Each time I ponder upon deeper truths while circling Walden Pond
Whenever denial blocks me from recognizing my deepest needs
My spirit wears out, dimming my chances to create change for
The better until a flash of insight suggests that what really needs
Changing is my attitude, because—attitude is everything ...
My spirit wears out, dimming my chances to create change for
The better until a flash of insight suggests that what really needs
Changing is my attitude, because—attitude is everything ...
Each time I've thought to question which attitude was
In need of mind expansion, I've identified a subconscious fear that
Had caused today's problem or conflict to feel (seem) worse than
Clarity, concerning reality, had suggested as being true …
In need of mind expansion, I've identified a subconscious fear that
Had caused today's problem or conflict to feel (seem) worse than
Clarity, concerning reality, had suggested as being true …
Each time I offer my mind a restful break from inner conflict
Confusion, frustration and stress, my spirit revitalizes, and
I come to question youthful lessons, which deeper truth suggests
Make less sense than I'd been taught to believe, and once
This questioning side of my mind had opened to function with
Clarity intact, I reconnect with instinctive need, numbed at my core
I come to question youthful lessons, which deeper truth suggests
Make less sense than I'd been taught to believe, and once
This questioning side of my mind had opened to function with
Clarity intact, I reconnect with instinctive need, numbed at my core
Seen in this light, mental and spiritual exhaustion has a silver lining:
Exhaustion offered me the insight to develop the good sense
Exhaustion offered me the insight to develop the good sense
To retire from friendships which had proved so close-minded and
Painfully judgmental at times when my state of confusion had
Been in need of open minded, compassionate guidance
Painfully judgmental at times when my state of confusion had
Been in need of open minded, compassionate guidance
In short, I've quietly but not passively shoo'd away narrow-minded
Attitudes, hovering in wait for my strengths to exhaust ...
Attitudes, hovering in wait for my strengths to exhaust ...
Quoth the raven—Nevermore!
If you ask:
Annie, what do you do when others introduce painful truths to you?
Here is my reply:
I fortify myself to listen with an open ear for this reason:
If I hope to deepen my connection to my need to live life to the fullest then
It's time to review my blind acceptance of beliefs in need of expansion
And here is why this path leads toward healing:
As life grows complex, old paradigms are often in serious need of review …
Once upon a time, a fearless leader could not shake a sore throat
Two of the most renown physicians of the day were consulted
Both were advocates of blood letting ...
Which had been thought to rid the body of evil humors
Which travel through the blood stream
However, when the cure kills the patient
Tis past time to seek out a new train of thought
Unfortunately, new trains of thought came too late
To cure our fearless leader's sore throat
And thus did two fine physicians
Draw blood until their patient
Succumbed to a paradigm in dire need of change
And as a result, George Washington bled to death
Suggesting that the stories I plan to relate are true :)
Day by day
If you ask:
Annie, what do you do when others introduce painful truths to you?
Here is my reply:
I fortify myself to listen with an open ear for this reason:
If I hope to deepen my connection to my need to live life to the fullest then
It's time to review my blind acceptance of beliefs in need of expansion
And here is why this path leads toward healing:
As life grows complex, old paradigms are often in serious need of review …
Once upon a time, a fearless leader could not shake a sore throat
Two of the most renown physicians of the day were consulted
Both were advocates of blood letting ...
Which had been thought to rid the body of evil humors
Which travel through the blood stream
However, when the cure kills the patient
Tis past time to seek out a new train of thought
Unfortunately, new trains of thought came too late
To cure our fearless leader's sore throat
And thus did two fine physicians
Draw blood until their patient
Succumbed to a paradigm in dire need of change
And as a result, George Washington bled to death
Suggesting that the stories I plan to relate are true :)
Day by day
Post by post
One train of thought leads to another
In the same way that one insight leads to the next
And as one change leads to many more
One train of thought leads to another
In the same way that one insight leads to the next
And as one change leads to many more
My think tank carves out a path whereby
I re-evaluate the validity of yesterday's thoughts …
And if asked what keeps me focused upon
Consciously choosing to advance forward on this path, I'd reply:
Each time one of my subconscious vulnerabilities is identified
Another half baked strength slides back into the oven, offering
My awareness a new opportunity to create a thought-processing soufflé
Consciously choosing to advance forward on this path, I'd reply:
Each time one of my subconscious vulnerabilities is identified
Another half baked strength slides back into the oven, offering
My awareness a new opportunity to create a thought-processing soufflé
Which will not collapse if fate tosses another dark surprise my way
Today
My inner strengths
My inner strengths
Prove to be no flash in the pan
Today
Insight deepens and transforms
My definition (paradigm) of friendship
My definition (paradigm) of friendship
Today
I appreciate the length and breadth of my wing span
I appreciate the length and breadth of my wing span
For this reason:
Though twas not so long ago that I saw myself as
A small wounded bird flying courageously above fear, today
My spirit reconnects, naturally, with healthy instincts at my core, and
As my self perception continues to improve I develop
New attitudes concerning how best to take good care of my needs while
Loving and respecting family, friends, colleagues and strangers, as well
And here's why I believe this path will continue to map out a plan for
My future that proves sound of mind, body and spirit:
Today, I remind myself to take time to smell every rose I've worked so
Though twas not so long ago that I saw myself as
A small wounded bird flying courageously above fear, today
My spirit reconnects, naturally, with healthy instincts at my core, and
As my self perception continues to improve I develop
New attitudes concerning how best to take good care of my needs while
Loving and respecting family, friends, colleagues and strangers, as well
And here's why I believe this path will continue to map out a plan for
My future that proves sound of mind, body and spirit:
Today, I remind myself to take time to smell every rose I've worked so
Diligently to plant instead of knocking myself out, day after day, in hopes of
Meeting the needs of others, as had been my habit before my mind and spirit
Wore themselves down to the bone so literally as to suggest that my appetite for
Food and life diminished so severely as to force me to question decisions, which
Were proving disadvantageous, considering the declining state of my health
Today
I believe old dogs can learn new tricks, because I am far from young; however
Once courage to look deep inside was mine, defensive walls came tumbling down
Today
Meeting the needs of others, as had been my habit before my mind and spirit
Wore themselves down to the bone so literally as to suggest that my appetite for
Food and life diminished so severely as to force me to question decisions, which
Were proving disadvantageous, considering the declining state of my health
Today
I believe old dogs can learn new tricks, because I am far from young; however
Once courage to look deep inside was mine, defensive walls came tumbling down
Today
Chatty Cathy continues to work optimistically, though not tirelessly ... by embracing
Quiet, patient and tranquil attitudes when problem-solving proves necessary
Quiet, patient and tranquil attitudes when problem-solving proves necessary
Today
I hope my posts quietly inspire folks around the world identify layers of denial
In hopes of choosing to face up to reality's deeper truths, buried inside
Today
I hope to encourage others to recognize when fear of our own vulnerabilities
Makes us look down in the mouth at those whose opinions differ from our own
I hope my posts quietly inspire folks around the world identify layers of denial
In hopes of choosing to face up to reality's deeper truths, buried inside
Today
I hope to encourage others to recognize when fear of our own vulnerabilities
Makes us look down in the mouth at those whose opinions differ from our own
Today
I'd like you to consider what happens to one who remains blind to this attitude:
You're either with me or against me!
Today
I can clearly see that this unfortunate person has no clue that divisive
Attitudes invite birds of prey to chase the blue bird of happiness away
As you shall see, in story after story
I'll choose to work, side by side, with minds open to carving out
Two way streets, so that as defensive walls come down on both sides
New foundations of friendship are fortified by mutually respecting views
As you watch me choose to redirect my path
I'll choose to work, side by side, with minds open to carving out
Two way streets, so that as defensive walls come down on both sides
New foundations of friendship are fortified by mutually respecting views
As you watch me choose to redirect my path
In hopes of leaving Denialand in the past
You'll see my mind review a wealth of knowledge
In order to approach the future with clarity and hope, intact
You'll see my mind review a wealth of knowledge
In order to approach the future with clarity and hope, intact
If you agree with any part of today's train of thought
I hope you'll muster the patience
To ride side kick through each philosophical post
That pops out of my mind ...
Though many will seem to repeat the same refrain, because—
Deeper truth suggests that lasting change takes tons of hard work!
Deeper truth suggests that lasting change takes tons of hard work!
When an insight reappears in post after post
My subconscious is sending a signal to warn me
That inner conflict is once again, compromising my strengths
And if you choose to muster the patience to watch
My brain work to absorb Deeper Truths more wholly than
Ever before then you, too, may come to identify with this
Personal choice: We can absorb deeper truths
Or we can stay stuck in the tunnel that runs around
The same tired track, which takes us no closer to
Arriving at destinations where we've been longing to go
My subconscious is sending a signal to warn me
That inner conflict is once again, compromising my strengths
And if you choose to muster the patience to watch
My brain work to absorb Deeper Truths more wholly than
Ever before then you, too, may come to identify with this
Personal choice: We can absorb deeper truths
Or we can stay stuck in the tunnel that runs around
The same tired track, which takes us no closer to
Arriving at destinations where we've been longing to go
Though leopards do not change their spots
I am not a leopard ... I am a 'people-person' with
A thought processor that has been trained to
Dive deep enough inside my mind to track
Solution-seeking insights, concerning
Deeper truths, such as this one:
A thought processor that has been trained to
Dive deep enough inside my mind to track
Solution-seeking insights, concerning
Deeper truths, such as this one:
It's never too late to take your mind by the hand and
Coax it to approach a fork in the road where
A bright new, positively focused paradigm awaits to
Help your strength of spirit to dismantle defensive walls, thus
Freeing your sense of self to enjoy inner peace straight into your core
As every day is the first day of the rest of our lives
Help your strength of spirit to dismantle defensive walls, thus
Freeing your sense of self to enjoy inner peace straight into your core
As every day is the first day of the rest of our lives
I hope that, person by person, we may each feel enticed to
Remove our own paper bags from covering our smarts by
Conscious choice, so that, together, we may walk upon
A mindfully expansive path, which
Remove our own paper bags from covering our smarts by
Conscious choice, so that, together, we may walk upon
A mindfully expansive path, which
Leaves the dark, dizzying maze of Denialand behind ...
And having said all of that
I'll leave you with two questions to
Ponder more deeply, today, than ever before:
Ponder more deeply, today, than ever before:
Can you see my spirit smiling, peaceably, from within my core?
Do you feel the warmth of my hand reaching out, sincerely, for yours?
PS
As my stories unfold ...
Slow as that progress may prove to be
You'll see why my family sees me as Lucy
Slow as that progress may prove to be
You'll see why my family sees me as Lucy
In fact, one of my holiday gifts from my adult offspring was
An I Love Lucy Doll—a fitting addition to my doll collection, for sure!
Perhaps, one day, I'll open a gift box and delight to find—Snow White
And Eve!
If you wonder why I'd love to add those dolls to my collection ...
Well—we'll just have to wait patiently for stories, concerning
Snow White and Eve, to pop out on our screens
As for now, I'll feed your hunger for answers by offering one hint—
Perhaps you'd like to share an apple with your friend,
And Eve!
If you wonder why I'd love to add those dolls to my collection ...
Well—we'll just have to wait patiently for stories, concerning
Snow White and Eve, to pop out on our screens
As for now, I'll feed your hunger for answers by offering one hint—
Perhaps you'd like to share an apple with your friend,
Annie/Lucy/SnowWhite/Eve …
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