Perhaps maintaining my appreciation of life proves more realistic
That’s not to say that days filled with enjoyment will no longer be mine
The truth of the matter suggests that even during the most enjoyable interactions, an idealistic attitude will offer an optimist’s positively focused state of mind reason to experience disappointment from time to time
And as my sense of realism continues to deepen, I must admit (to myself) that my experiences, over these past three years (though filled with an abundance of love) have been so far from ideal as to clarify my need to accept how often I’ve ‘stuffed’ the extent of my suffering through many rounds of chemo (requiring hospitalizations and transfusions), followed by surgeries so serious (as to have seen me in intensive care units—no visitors because of COVID) in hopes of irradiating any trace of leiomyosarcoma before metastatic disease developed.
And now that metastatic disease has developed and tumor number three has been surgically removed from my body, here is the question at hand: What course of treatment seems best when considering extending my longevity while preserving my quality of life once another scan introduces tumor number four to my highly knowledgeable medical team …
Tonight, we plan to enjoy Andi’s birthday dinner on the patio of a favorite restaurant, where fans will hopefully, cool the air, being that the temp will still hover in the 90’s once the sun goes down
Andi is clearly seen as being tallest amongst my girlfriends in the photos above
My spirit began to smile as soon as my enjoyment of toasting to Andi’s birthday, tonight, with an ice cold glass of sangria in hand came to mind
🙋🏻♀️Annie
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