Finally!
Upon awaking, today, feeling more restless than restive
My power of intuition wriggled its head out of its cocoon to say
Annie, listen up! My absence has been a message in and of itself
Your spirit can’t jumpstart its lost sense of energy until
Your brain stops sending messages of longing for
Change that’s not yours to control no matter how
Positively focused your self empowered trains of thought prove to be
Aha—I mused—with a hopeful sigh of release
Perhaps this most current onset of malaise has been
The next step regarding my growing aware of the depths of
My resistance, concerning retiring The Fixer, which
Having comprised the greater portion of my self worth, continues to
Wrestle against the intuitive arousal of this deeper truth:
Over a lifetime, The Fixer’s prime time rises, peaks and sets ...
And perhaps a lasting sense of inner peace, which tends to come and go
Will be my just reward once my think tank feels so relaxed with
What I have accomplished as to wholly reconcile with reality, concerning
My choice to freely pass the baton of prime time to my sons, each of whom
Proves capable of accepting it with the strong hearted mindfulness of spirit that
Deeper truth suggests has been my long range goal to pass forward, and
With today's string of insights spotlighting my growing acceptance of
My existential placement (as well as theirs) on our family’s timeline
Today's post offers up that which my intuitive voice feels inclined to
Express for now—except for one more awareness, which
Leads me to believe that only the head of my intuition has managed to
Wriggle forth from its cocoon, hinting that this string of insights serves as
The appertif to whet my whistle for more, and as
My intelligence feels slightly inebriated as thoughts soaked in
Mental clarity serve to ignite the first spark of positively focused energy that
My spirit has felt over the past seven days, my conscious awareness, which
Has been dragging ever since Thanksgiving when my intuitive voice
Felt need to spin its cocoon so as to concentrate my mental energies upon
Submerging so deep as to emerge with deeper truth, concerning this
Current growth spurt spurring metamorphosis another step forward, has
Just reminded my sense of wholeness that every meaningful change in
Character development is a step-by-step process, and ...
Aha!
Here it comes—the insight that My Fixer's reluctance to
Leave center stage has blocked my conscious mind from
Peaceably embracing as my deeper truth until
Inner conflict—so strong as to refuse intuitive clarity center stage for
Months—chose to step into the wings, clearing the way for
My relaxed sense of existential wholeness to confront
The existence of a closed mindset, which had subconsciously offered
My fear of human vulnerability a way to feel safe since the age of three:
My life's work as Pied Piper, leading three Mouseketeers toward
Donning the mantle of full-fledged adulthood, has been
Standing clearly before me, and not only can my life's work
Stand on its own but my mental intelligence and
Emotional intelligence can rest assured that
Each of my three sons has offered proof countless times
Over mamy years of having grown fully capable of captaining
Their ships through whatever storms life casts in their paths, and
Here's the most peaceable insight of those with which intuition has
Relaxed The Fixer's stubborn need to control center stage until, today:
If and when storm clouds gather, these three musketeers will not
Feel need to wrestle with fate all alone—and—neither will I as I age
And as fearing facing storms all alone has been true of me since
The vulnerable age of three, today's intuitive string of insights
Offers my rested mind reason to feel thankful that whatever else
I choose to accomplish at this stage of my life is—gravy!
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