Penned and posted today, Friday, November 17, 2017
Initially, I didn’t feel pensive
I just felt sad, and it dawned on me that
Emotional complexity, associated with death, did not arise
Generally, when my emotions feel clouded with complexity
I tend to fear something scary is about to emerge from
Subconscious memory, which makes me feel apprehensive
Upon receiving word of Jamie’s death
Sadness arose but apprehension did not, making me think:
Something inside has changed for the better, but what?
Once insight highlighted that which had changed in
My patterned reaction to death, I stopped pondering in
A questioning manner in favor of contemplating deeper truth
Though my intention on Wednesday was to pen
A detailed description of my brain’s intuitive ability to
Transform emotional opacity into transparency on Thursday
Fate dictated my need to press pause on that plan after
I’d moved in such a way as to have tweaked my back
And knowing that pain creates inner tension, which
Wraps my mental connection to clarity within
Frustration’s foggy state of mind, any attempt to
Dive into that fog and emerge with clarity intact would
Have proved nothing short of ineffective, so choosing to
Embrace common sense, I placed my original plan aside in
Favor of resting body and mind, knowing that total relaxation
Lessens inner tension and as such, proves to be
A natural pain reliever, and after rescheduling
Thursday's and Friday's appointments, my think tank readily
Reached for a heating pad before coasting into
A rest station where I've been relaxing until late afternoon when
Intuitive thought coached me to pen this positively focused
Train of thought, suggestive of the fact that I am experiencing
Less pain, today than had been true Thursday, and on that
Optimistic note, I’ll bid you good day till intuition nods, again
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