As one thing leads to another, especially
When my brain enters writing mode
I really hope this post is short, today
Why? Because this morning, I awakened with
An eagerness to watch football on TV
And here's why that unexpected change
Can't hep but intrigue me:
Over most of my life, no one would have
Expected a passion for football to
Develop within me ... And that's
Most especially truce of moi!
Once upon a time, I'd awakened with
An eagerness to make certain that
Each of my kids experienced
A pleasant morning before sending all three
Off to school, knowing that feeling safe within
Their emotional environment and
Positive about themselves would
Influence the development of
The same open minded, positively focused
Attitude toward mindful absorption of
Knowledge as had consciously developed within me
(Need I say that if I'd hoped to raise
Positively focused, self disciplined kids
That meant role modeling those
Traits instead of demanding they do as
I say, not as I do ... No yelling or
Hitting or insulting from them, meant
No yelling, hitting or insulting from me
If I wanted my young to use their words (thoughtfully)
And if leadership comes from the top then
My actions had need to match my words, so
Rather than flying off the handle and
Resorting to punitive methods of discipline
I'd think calmly and deep until consequences for
Misbehavior matched whatever life lesson I was looking to
Imprint within each one's mind ( maybe this
Post is beginning to point to
My mind's readiness to return to 1967 and
Resume storytelling, again ... though only the shadow
Knows for sure what tomorrow may bring)
So anyway, while raising my kids, I'd curl up with
Books, concerning positive methods of discipline
Before falling to sleep ... I guess you could say
I've been an open minded and yet
Single minded soul for quite a while, and here's why
That's a very good thing:
Raising kids to grow up to be
Responsible adults, whom you'd choose as
Dear friends proves to be
A long-range goal that takes many years to achieve before
Their wing spans soar so independent of your own as to
Freely demonstrate a personal desire to remain well-rooted in
The values they experienced in their family of origin when
All of you shared a home, where, as children
Each one depended on your intelligent heart to
Provide much more than shelter from
The elements in that it's each parent's responsibility to
Provide love, emotional safety and
Moral guidance for every miracle placed
In our arms for safe keeping for at least
Eighteen challenging years
Once my kids were launched, I awakened
With an eagerness to read well-written novels, concerning
Character development, and when
Each story arc reached the point where
The main character had need to learn from
Suffering a huge loss, I learned from
That character's experience with humility how
Best to direct my own path ...
I guess you could say that my focus made me
A self directed, precautionary sort of gal, and all
Seemed well until two decades ago, when
Much to my astonished dismay
My life upended, no matter how
Self directed, self disciplined, empathetic and
Cautionary each step of my path had been until then when
I awakened to my first deeply confounding
Soul searching time of life, which
That's a very good thing:
Raising kids to grow up to be
Responsible adults, whom you'd choose as
Dear friends proves to be
A long-range goal that takes many years to achieve before
Their wing spans soar so independent of your own as to
Freely demonstrate a personal desire to remain well-rooted in
The values they experienced in their family of origin when
All of you shared a home, where, as children
Each one depended on your intelligent heart to
Provide much more than shelter from
The elements in that it's each parent's responsibility to
Provide love, emotional safety and
Moral guidance for every miracle placed
In our arms for safe keeping for at least
Eighteen challenging years
Once my kids were launched, I awakened
With an eagerness to read well-written novels, concerning
Character development, and when
Each story arc reached the point where
The main character had need to learn from
Suffering a huge loss, I learned from
That character's experience with humility how
Best to direct my own path ...
I guess you could say that my focus made me
A self directed, precautionary sort of gal, and all
Seemed well until two decades ago, when
Much to my astonished dismay
My life upended, no matter how
Self directed, self disciplined, empathetic and
Cautionary each step of my path had been until then when
I awakened to my first deeply confounding
Soul searching time of life, which
Forced me to labor through a deeply disillusioned
State of mind that gave birth to my hunger for clarity, which
Drove me to absorb a library of self help books that led me toward
Questing to know contradictive traits, which
I'd kept hidden from myself behind denial's wall ... Whew!
I guess you could say that here stands
A self respecting woman who
State of mind that gave birth to my hunger for clarity, which
Drove me to absorb a library of self help books that led me toward
Questing to know contradictive traits, which
I'd kept hidden from myself behind denial's wall ... Whew!
I guess you could say that here stands
A self respecting woman who
Has grown to consciously and conscientiously chosen to
Embrace change and constancy (with flexibility, rather than rigidity)
Embrace change and constancy (with flexibility, rather than rigidity)
While directing the rest of the path of my life, because
I'm still always there for my family, because
Their welfare proves paramount to my peace of mind ...
And I'm still intrigued with character development, feeling
Most especially challenged with my own, and having become
A careful planner, concerning the achievement of self respecting
Long-range goals, which prove ever more challenging to accomplish
My present patience level offers me reason to enjoy
Peace of mind at the same time that a conflict remains unresolved
I guess you could say that, somewhere along
My path of self discovery I've developed the integrity to
Accept imperfection as integral to life ...
Not just in others, but more importantly, within myself
And having had sound reason to absorb this
Newly acquired change in my attitude, my need to grow
Ever more consciously aware of the narrowness of
My interpretation of heartfelt values, which had
Limited my freedom to fully enjoy
Certain experiences that had done nothing other than to
Enrich my soul with a higher purpose, transcending
Any to which I'd aspired before, and
Resultant of my having indentified where
My original interpretation of that value had need to
Expand, I succeeded in tweaking the way I'd taken
Good care of my family just enough to more fully
Consider the unmet needs of my soul, as well
And thus, rather than detouring me away from
My chosen path, personal growth has deepened my desire to
Continue to explore every experience that has led me to clarify
Deeper truth than would have been possible had fate not
Gifted me with a wide variety of unexpected experiences
Each of which has inspired me to expand
The open highway of my mind to
Accommodate for more traffic, which
Creates need for additional lanes, so that
Emotional traffic jams do not cause me to
Crash, head on, or blow my horn, prematurely
And if you ask, what does today's post have to do with
Football, I guess I'd say: Step by step
My mind continues to grow open enough to
Expand upon my values so as to embrace
Aspects of life that my mindset had been
Closed to during younger, less experienced years. And
As each new experience offers insight into
My need to expand an attitude that had
Upon reflection, once been narrow minded
Today's summation, concerning the ways in which
Soul searching toward personal growth influences
Mind expansion, is right on the mark when considering
The development of my newfound passion for
Football, which surprises no one's mind as much as mine...
You see, I've come to see football differently than before
I see the finesse necessary to achieve each play
I see conflict interfering with making
First downs toward touch downs
I no longer frown, seeing only muscular men
Running each other harshly into the ground
I guess you could say that my newfound knowledge
Has expanded my attitude toward each game play in
A somehow personalized, impassioned way, which
No one in their right mind would have ever
Thought possible of me!
When it comes to complexity, my soul seems to be
A prime example of one that harbors a human spirit with
The innate ability to embrace changing game plans before
Loss, which feels irreplaceable, proves irretrievable
I'm still always there for my family, because
Their welfare proves paramount to my peace of mind ...
And I'm still intrigued with character development, feeling
Most especially challenged with my own, and having become
A careful planner, concerning the achievement of self respecting
Long-range goals, which prove ever more challenging to accomplish
My present patience level offers me reason to enjoy
Peace of mind at the same time that a conflict remains unresolved
I guess you could say that, somewhere along
My path of self discovery I've developed the integrity to
Accept imperfection as integral to life ...
Not just in others, but more importantly, within myself
And having had sound reason to absorb this
Newly acquired change in my attitude, my need to grow
Ever more consciously aware of the narrowness of
My interpretation of heartfelt values, which had
Limited my freedom to fully enjoy
Certain experiences that had done nothing other than to
Enrich my soul with a higher purpose, transcending
Any to which I'd aspired before, and
Resultant of my having indentified where
My original interpretation of that value had need to
Expand, I succeeded in tweaking the way I'd taken
Good care of my family just enough to more fully
Consider the unmet needs of my soul, as well
And thus, rather than detouring me away from
My chosen path, personal growth has deepened my desire to
Continue to explore every experience that has led me to clarify
Deeper truth than would have been possible had fate not
Gifted me with a wide variety of unexpected experiences
Each of which has inspired me to expand
The open highway of my mind to
Accommodate for more traffic, which
Creates need for additional lanes, so that
Emotional traffic jams do not cause me to
Crash, head on, or blow my horn, prematurely
And if you ask, what does today's post have to do with
Football, I guess I'd say: Step by step
My mind continues to grow open enough to
Expand upon my values so as to embrace
Aspects of life that my mindset had been
Closed to during younger, less experienced years. And
As each new experience offers insight into
My need to expand an attitude that had
Upon reflection, once been narrow minded
Today's summation, concerning the ways in which
Soul searching toward personal growth influences
Mind expansion, is right on the mark when considering
The development of my newfound passion for
Football, which surprises no one's mind as much as mine...
You see, I've come to see football differently than before
I see the finesse necessary to achieve each play
I see conflict interfering with making
First downs toward touch downs
I no longer frown, seeing only muscular men
Running each other harshly into the ground
I guess you could say that my newfound knowledge
Has expanded my attitude toward each game play in
A somehow personalized, impassioned way, which
No one in their right mind would have ever
Thought possible of me!
When it comes to complexity, my soul seems to be
A prime example of one that harbors a human spirit with
The innate ability to embrace changing game plans before
Loss, which feels irreplaceable, proves irretrievable
I guess you could say that each new sense of pleasure that
I freely choose to embrace re-energizes
My high spirited passion for life as immeasurably, today, as
Had been true when I was an innocent child, utterly
Intrigued with every new experience, which
For one, who proves as hopeful as me, has
No need to end in a dark place of disillusionment
I guess you could say that while writing my blog
Directs my focus on flash backs from the past in order to
Improve my chosen path as the future unfolds, I leave
I freely choose to embrace re-energizes
My high spirited passion for life as immeasurably, today, as
Had been true when I was an innocent child, utterly
Intrigued with every new experience, which
For one, who proves as hopeful as me, has
No need to end in a dark place of disillusionment
I guess you could say that while writing my blog
Directs my focus on flash backs from the past in order to
Improve my chosen path as the future unfolds, I leave
No stone unturned and nothing I value behind, and
If you ask: Annie, how is that possible without
Weighing your mind and spirit down? I'd reply
With practice, My conscious mind has
Gained insight into identifying, unpacking
And leaving only my baggage behind, knowing that
It's actually baggage that limits mindsets and
'Shoulds' that weigh the spirit down at those times
When heartfelt goals remain just beyond my reach
And thus do we turn, once again, to the concept of
Mastering balance in all things ...
I guess you could say that when it comes to
Changing game plans, I've come to embrace
Every art form that life has to offer, which includes
Athleticism, in moderation, with the
Weighing your mind and spirit down? I'd reply
With practice, My conscious mind has
Gained insight into identifying, unpacking
And leaving only my baggage behind, knowing that
It's actually baggage that limits mindsets and
'Shoulds' that weigh the spirit down at those times
When heartfelt goals remain just beyond my reach
And thus do we turn, once again, to the concept of
Mastering balance in all things ...
I guess you could say that when it comes to
Changing game plans, I've come to embrace
Every art form that life has to offer, which includes
Athleticism, in moderation, with the
Exception of pure joy, which
I can now swallow whole, inner conflict and all, to
The point that my heart feels so full when
A loved one is sighted that I can barely hold
My dancing feet still! In fact
The smile that beams forth from my entire being
Can not not wrap those I love in a hug ...
Guess you could say I can modulate passion but not love ...
And hopefully, that will remain true of my spirit until
One second after my body exhales its last breath of
Life on earth ... as to what comes after that ...
I guess you could say, that when it comes to
Drawing up that game plan ...
I have no more clue, concerning
Adventuring forth into the great unknown than do you ...
I can now swallow whole, inner conflict and all, to
The point that my heart feels so full when
A loved one is sighted that I can barely hold
My dancing feet still! In fact
The smile that beams forth from my entire being
Can not not wrap those I love in a hug ...
Guess you could say I can modulate passion but not love ...
And hopefully, that will remain true of my spirit until
One second after my body exhales its last breath of
Life on earth ... as to what comes after that ...
I guess you could say, that when it comes to
Drawing up that game plan ...
I have no more clue, concerning
Adventuring forth into the great unknown than do you ...
Except for my feeling that
Whatever awaits us will not be something to fear :)
Whatever awaits us will not be something to fear :)
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