Negative thinking patterns:
I'll never figure this out
So I might as well quit
I think to know you
And then you disappoint me
Positive thinking patterns
This problem proves more complex than I'd thought
With help, I may grow to understand that which confounds me, today
When a person's perception or decision disappoints me
I remind myself of the mental complexities that make each person's perception unique
Horoscopic musings:
You set yourself up against worthy opposition.
This motivates you to do your best thinking
You have a talent for thinking things through.
What's well conceived and well expressed will be well received
Don't wait for permission to move forward; claim what you want
Persistence will win but only when coupled with problem-solving skills.
Even then, success will require tinkering
You can't change other people
You can plant seeds that may inspire them to change themselves
The tiniest thing can make you happy when the prize is well earned.
Use this principle to your advantage by supplying
A small but meaningful prize for a person you value
The idealistic approach to life that makes you 'you' will kick back in, leading you to re-embrace the sincere belief that any situation can be transformed for the better when insight empowers your mind to love inclusively rather than exclusively
(So—NGU)
2015
Though my need to honor my sense of privacy with the same respect that I offer to others remains strong, I sincerely hope that the unpublished post, penned, over this last week, will show up on your screen, soon.
It's not as if a detailed account of memories, which haunt my peace of mind, is revealed in that post. In fact, I've not yet gained insight into the reason why my mind feels resistant to re-reading my thoughts, which, as of yet, I have not. And surely, I'll not publish my thoughts before my mind feels free to review that which intuition directed me to write.
I find it of interest to note that while recovering from cataract surgery, my sight and insight feel more fuzzy than is usually true of me. Perhaps when I have reason to feel physically vulnerable, the same holds true for my thought processor, because 'everything's connected'. Anyway, as I move through each slightly disoriented day, I feel more like a stranger to myself than not. It's almost as if my brain has been respectfully requesting patience and less stimulation while this period of mental adjustment and physical absorption of a newly implanted lens moves forward. And in compliance with intuitive need to redirect my energy toward healing, I've been planning exceptionally quiet days—unless Ravi, and the delight with which her presence brightens my zest for life, shows up at my door.
Saw the surgeon, yesterday, and asked:
Is it normal to feel disoriented 10 days after surgery?
His response felt reassuring:
"Not with the mono-focal lens
Definitely with the multi-focal lens, which was your choice."
How long does it take the brain to adjust to this change?
"For some, weeks. For others, months—however
You'll probably feel less disoriented after
The second surgery takes place on Tuesday, but even then
You can expect to feel a bit of mental confusion until your
Brain has had time to adjust to the fact that you'll be seeing
Everything, near and far, differently than before
Each time you put on your glasses for distance or reading
An added sense of mental stress is experienced, because
The new lens, implanted within your right eye
No longer matches your prescriptive lens, so
Each time you wear your glasses
You may feel as dizzied as if you tried to see through
Glasses, belonging to a friend"
Thank goodness, my examination offered proof that
The first surgery met with excellent results—
Upon reading the eye chart with my 'new' eye
I aced the tiny letters on the bottom line, and
After Tuesday's surgery, my surgeon believes
The same will be true of my second eye, as well
On the other hand, surgery is surgery, so while
Placing my faith in my positively focused attitude and
My surgeon's expertise, reality suggests that I'll feel
A bit apprehensive until the sandman
Also known as anesthesiologist, sends me into dreamland
PS
Just returned from our optometrist, who
Popped the right lens out of my glasses
I figured that upon taking this
Proactive step toward change for the better
My brain is apt to line up, more quickly, with
My right eye's new view of reality
And with thoughts of advancing, patiently, toward clarity
This probability just flashed through my mind:
Once my resistance to rereading
Last week's unpublished train of thought has been
Overcome, I'll wonder what mysterious sensitivity to
Negativity heightened my vulnerability enough to stop me from
Publishing that post, because—
I don't remember writing anything that I'd not want you to read ...
And that last thought is in keeping with this fact:
The human brain is such a highly complex machine that he or she, who
Is charged with its optimal operation would be wise to become
Knowledgeably well trained to react with sensitivity when change is afoot
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