Thursday, May 22, 2014

1026 TWINKLE TWINKLE—REVISITED 20

So ... you've most likely surmised that
We met with the radiation oncologist, on Monday
As Will starts a two month course of treatment, five days a week
I'll not leave home until his treatment is complete


As luck would have it
My addiction to hope injects my spirit with courage, and as
Will's doctors inspire us with the utmost of confidence
My smile has been brightening, naturally, every day

On the other hand
Cancer is scary stuff
So though my smile tends to brighten, naturally
At times I feel more vulnerable than I can believe

Deja vu, which is French
Means "already seen"
As in the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that
An event, currently being experienced, has been experienced in the past

At those highly vulnerable times
When déjà vu controls my mind
I seek out Will's reassurance
Which proves forthcoming

Or I spend time with a trusted friend
Or I write in hopes of inspiring insight to rally courage to
Tolerate whatever has re-ignited yesteryear's fear until
My next session of EMDR extinguishes another hot spot

While fortifying my sense of courage by way of 
Combining the healing nature of love with EMDR
I'll remain on this mission to free my subconscious of hot spots
Until the small child, shivering fearfully within, feels worthy of love

If you wonder what would make
A deeply loved child fear that she's unlovable
The answer to that riddle will appear
As this story moves forward and the next two unfold



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