487 WHERE LIES THE KEY TO A SECRET WITHIN ONESELF?

Is it growing apparent
That I write about Denialand
In hopes of securing a key to locked doors within my subconscious
Where secrets, that I keep from myself—
Which had been too painful to confront as a child—
Continue to whisper of their ghostlike presence, today?

If asked how I know this to be true, I'd reply:
I've developed a degree of self awareness necessary to sense
Those times when my conscious mind
Is poking at my memory bank
In hopes that a secret door will unlock and free
Portions of peace of mind, lost, long ago ...

As that, my friends is The Truth ...
My posts suggest a classic need
For each of us to recognize this duet of facts:
Varying degrees of self awareness lead toward or away from self trust
And
Experience offer reasons why we trust one friendship rather than another
As both statements speak Truth, plain and simple
I wonder if thee can identify
When and with whom thee proves to be
An insecure, back stabbing 'friend'?
A kind and thoughtful friend?
A truly sensitive friend?

Whereas an insecure friend
May need to level the playing field
By 'putting you down'
A thoughtful friend attempts to do good deeds in general
And then there's the sensitive friend, who knows you so attentively
As to identify the changing nature of your  needs

Today, when asked to define friendship
I limit my answer
To doors numbsered two and three
For this reason:
Any 'friend' who harbors an insecure need to put me down
Is a frenemy
And to my way of thinking
A frenemy is no friend at all
As my friends have my back
Back stabbing frenemies need not call

Now that I've spent time diving into Walden Pond
In hopes of befriending myself as a whole
My knowledge of friendship has deepened in many ways.

Though my heartfelt compassion
For the-needy-in-denial proves to live and breathe
My compassion doth not extend
To meet the needs of the needy to the point of
Exhausting my voice or my spirit, today

If you deafen yourself
To how and when you put me down
If you need to blind yourself to my strengths
Then watch me step farther back ...
Than I'd ever thought possible
Until this insight brightened my mind:

Whereas yesteryear, my quest had focused upon
Repairing any friendship, which had cooled
Today my quest focuses upon mustering inner strengths necessary
To identify traits that combine to make each of us whole
And while absorbing insights, which retrain my mind
Guess who has been developing into a more sensitive friend?