MY ARK SPRUNG A LEAK

 “Sometimes you had to embrace the fact that not everything was as it seemed, even inside yourself. Accept it. Learn to live with it.”

Excerpt From The Postmistress of Paris by Meg Waite Clayton

The truth of the matter is my Ark must have sprung a leak.

I’m feeling anxious, today.  If truth be told, Monday and Tuesday, as well.

On Sunday (the day that Barry and his family had planned to drive here from CA) we answered a FaceTime call from Barry, early evening, telling us that he’d tested positive for Covid (caught from a child, who’d slept at their house, last Thursday).

Thank goodness, we’d listened to my anxiety, alerting me to make the hard decision to postpone Barry’s plan to enjoy spending time with us while Tony and Ray are on winter break from school.  Seriously, it’s not easy to tell when anxiety is on the mark and when anxiety is just hanging around awaiting disaster for too long a time.👩🏻

So far, Barry, who has been quarantining in his master bedroom (allowing Marie, Tony and Ray to move freely throughout the rest of their house), feels like he has a bad cold.  Hopefully, the fact that our son has been boostered will keep his case of covid on the mild side.

I’m calling upon The Fixer, who can’t fix my family but, hopefully, can plug the leak in my Ark while I re-stoke my mind with positive focus so as to throw today’s negatively focused anxiety over board.  As this endeavor is easier said than done—Wish me luck!

Annie     PS  We just learned that Tony has tested positive for COVID, too.  Marie and Ray, who’d tested negative, yesterday, will be tested, again, on Thursday.

Understandably, eleven years old Tony is angry that COVID is messing with his winter vacation.  If quarantining is hard on adults, just imagine frustration building up with no positive outlet on the part of active youngsters. 

What a mess it is—living during this abnormal time of COVID with no end in sight—as of yet ….

Remember how often I’d written about the importance of mustering (mastering) patience?

Though patience is hard to call forth after having waited two years for this deadly illness to burn itself out, here’s why I’ll work toward elevating my level of patience with quarantining while this highly contagious new variant is warring against the good health of millions:  If my decision (concerning adjusting a positive change within my current mindset) will lessen the level of my anxiety then working toward that end is worth my conscious effort to do whatever it takes to maintain (or regain) my peace of mind.

As for, right now, we ‘ll just have to ‘wait and see’ if today’s insight-driven, positively focused intuitive train of thought serves to plug the leak in my Ark …once again—maintaining control over spikes of anxiety is not an easy task, so while I remain hopeful that none of my loved ones comes down with a case of COVID so serious as to require hospitalization, please wish me luck with mastering the patience to lessen my current level of anxiety while waiting to see what develops—or not👩🏻