SPOTLIGHTING PERSONAL NEED TO LIGHTEN MY MENTAL LOAD

So if the results of my four hour neurological exam were excellent
And if, paraphrasing the doctor:  Your performance throughout
The entire battery of tests provided evidence of superiority in
Every aspect of brain function (except for one)
And if Ravi spent the weekend with her
Mommy, Daddy and Nani then this morning’s intuitive
Train of thought makes me ask—
Why have I not felt able to write for more than
A few minutes at a time, over these past few days? And—
Here comes the insight-driven answer to that highly relevant question:
Tension headaches continue to manifest, daily, for hours at a time
And I wonder if their persistence may be directly related to
The one brain function that the doctor pointed out is in need of
Personal adjustment (suggesting that taking
Necessary steps toward change for the better must be within
The realm of my mental control—Right?)
So just as my well practiced power of intuitive thought has
Identified so many fears that my defense system had
Denied as true of my repressed negatively focused emotionality in
The past, it’s highly possible that my current bout of pressurized
Mental resistance to writing is based in this probability:
My brain, working as a healthy whole, feels need to
Consolidate its concentration solely upon
Spotlighting insights concerning whatever is causing
My peace of mind to labor against a deepening degree of
Mental tension that proves so embedded in the past as to
Require an upsurge of courageous self confidence to
Filter the presence of another fear from subconscious storage into
Today’s conscious sense of self awareness, knowing that
The truth will set me free of yet another inner conflict, which
Will remain impenetrably unidentifiable until a humbled sense of
Readiness to openly confront yet another deeper truth about
Myself is mine, and as I am beginning to believe that revealing
This inner conflict to my conscious self will offer tension headaches
Sound reason to subside, common sense suggests that
My intuitive powers may have inspired my processor to upload
This specific train of thought so as to impregnate
My conscious mind with this perception:
Today’s string of insights, joining forces with
My host of inner strengths, serves as the life raft upon which
My brain, functioning as a well balanced whole, can float
Forward through internal rapids toward the peaceful shoreline that
Awaits to welcome me, directly ahead, and with this up note in
Hand that’s all the diving I’ll aim to do for today—
Aha!  It's beginning to dawn on me that, once again
I have been actively undergoing a mental growth spurt toward
Expanding a narrow point of view, yet to be consciously named, and
With today's string of insights clearly in view, it’s no wonder that
The fertile womb inside my head has been experiencing
The pain that always accompanies the blessed miracle of rebirth ...