4 A REPETITIVE DREAM SPEAKS OF PERSONAL GROWTH WHILE I SLEEP

May 11, 2019
Today, upon awakening
Will said I’d yelled louder than ever in the dark of night

Intuition replied:  Last night’s dream tapped into
A long repressed belief that my personal world feels like such
A dangerous place as to have aroused feelings of—guess what?

Protective readiness—not to defend myself but rather—to muster
The courage necessary to write the rest of the story about a young girl in
An alley who, having been grabbed up,  felt like prey, yet again

And here’s what the content of my dream conveys to me—
Two experiences, which feel alike, often prove highly dissimilar, and
In last night’s dream, I’d felt responsible for the welfare of four tots

Who are they?  I believe the quartet appearing my dream is symbolic of
Holding myself subconsciously accountable for overseeing
The safekeeping of my precious trio of grandchildren, Tony, Ray and Ravi

Goodness knows that I’ve experienced sound reason to feel ever more
Self aware of my role as their protector from evil than had been true of loving
Adults, who’d fathomed no clue of harm befalling a sweet little girl, like me

By day, I feel compelled to work toward unlocking doors inside my head while
By night, I’ve repeatedly dreamt of being alone, feeling too terror struck to lock
The front door of my childhood home while a pedophile, outside, turns the knob

I’ve identified the fourth child in last night’s dream as having been ME at
An early stage of my life;  however, the message emanating from within
The repetitive nature of the dream about the pedophile turning the knob has changed

With intuitive readiness guiding today’s courage to approach that door, I’ve been
Unconsciously motivating myself to close in on revealing the full spectrum of
Yesteryear’s emotional reactions, which had been defensively repressed until—now

Though feeling deeply agitated throughout last night’s dream when I couldn’t
Lock the dark specter of evil out of our safe haven, I didn’t scream for HELP
I screamed, assertively—GET AWAY FROM MY DOOR!

See what I mean about two situations seeming similar when they’re not?
Will heard me cry out, assuming my nightmare had indicated terror until
I clarified my dream as expressing today’s courage overcoming yesteryear’s fear

Whew!  Thank you to every therapist who has answered my endless questions
Concerning the complex inner workings of a brain, which, like a Timex, takes
A licking and goes on ticking without clear-eyed positivity running down