I got too cocky for my own good, and being short on time
I chose to lift a pair of heavy objects, simultaneously—not
Once but twice (which proved two times too many!) I mean
Most people would not think either object was heavy, but
Knowing how little it takes to elevate the pain level of
This nerve, which I injured more than thirty years back
I’ve learned from past experiences to remember that
The pain would increase in direct proportion to my stubbornness to
Complete a task in record time—thank goodness, this time
My connection to self incriminating anxiety did not have
A chance to increase the level of pain exponentially, because
My learning curve (recently heightened) triggered
My newly reprogrammed brain to plug itself into
My homework assignment on the spot, so that upon
Fully oxygenating my body, adrenaline production
(Provoked by a sudden spike in anxiety) would automatically
Slow down, and as this self soothing technique calmed
My defense system, my adrenal glands were no longer
Stimulated to pump out and dump an over production of
Adrenalin ever more furiously into my blood stream, freeing
My thought processor from feeling overwhelmed so as to
Readily switch tracks toward making sound use of
My homework assignment, which, in turn, naturally and proactively
Enabled me to regain and maintain a self disciplined sense of
Self control over my autonomic bodily functions, based in
My having consciously relaxed my emotional reaction, which
Left on its own, would have continued to pump out
An over-production of Adrenalin, which is known
To overwhelm the brain’s natural connection to intelligent
Thought processing, and had my emotional reaction remained
Out of balance, a potential build up of inner tension would have
Exacerbated my elevated level of muscular tension, which
Would have served to further threaten the fear center of
My brain to stimulate my fight/freeze/flight reaction to
Contract the muscles surrounding the injured nerve ever more
Tightly, resulting in causing the tolerable level of my pain to
Spike as high as runaway anxiety would have exacerbated
My train of thought to focus even more intently upon
Muscular impingement creating a choke hold around
My injured sciatic nerve, thus blocking my intuitive voice from
Freely guiding my think tank to consciously direct my train of
Thought toward heeding the insight driven
Homework assignment that instructs my processor to remember that
Everything’s connected, which is why my conscious decision to
Take a much needed time out on the spot serves to heighten
My connection toward concentrating upon self awareness, which
Consciously instructs my think tank to take a time out on the spot to
Think smart so as to encourage my lungs to consciously
Inhale oxygen so deeply as to exhale as much negative energy as
My fear of pain intensifying would have stimulated
The fear factor within my brain to experience the reeling nature of
The vicious cycle, which, in the past, has spun my thought processor
Straight into a self destructive state of Catch 22 that, eventually
Hindsight would have shown to be of my own making—
Whew! Thank goodness, my mind eagerly absorbs information
Offered up during sessions of EMDR therapy, which train my
Innate intelligence to focus upon becoming ever
More savvy concerning how best to reprogram natural emotional
Reactions in such a healthy manner as to advance
My original Line of Self Control (conceived when my three sons
Were small) toward growing ever more self aware so as to relax
My brain's processor to think smart on the spot by consciously and
Proactively calming (rather than suppressing) natural episodes of
Anxiety as I age—hey! Guess what just happened?
Penning today’s insight driven, intuitive train of thought resulted in
An Aha! Moment flashing through my mind!
Suddenly I've come to see why my intuitive voice has not yet
Readied my conscious mind to lead us into the promised land where
A detailed description of my homework assignment awaits our
Arrival—you see, in addition to heightening your present level of
Patience while we remain gainfully tuned into advancing
Our step by step approach toward fulfilling the worthwhile goal of
Gaining control over the highly complex nature of
Negatively focused, self fulfilling prophecies (which prove to be
Our processors' natural reaction to runaway anxiety)
My well-practiced intuitive powers had the foresight to hold off on
Releasing a detailed explanation of this particular
Homework assignment until today, which being Yom Kippur finds
My think tank floating freely toward trains of thought that dive
Much deeper into my soul than those associated with detailing
The assignment that inspires my natural emotional reactiveness to
Achieve each next upward rung on the ladder of self empowered
Mobility whenever my current level of self disciplined self awareness
Feels need to muster the courage to ascend (rather than remaining
Unconsciously stuck) yet another step closer to fully embracing
My soul's heartfelt need to create a heightened sense of wholeness by
Blending my mind, body and spiritual reactions together, and
What could be a more fitting train of thought to consider as
I ready my mind to walk into today’s Yom Kippur service focusing
Proactively (rather than guiltily) upon atoning for transgressions against
Others as well as atoning for perfectionistic tendencies that direct
Me toward punishing myself for being as naturally imperfect as is true of
Every human being, born to forge an existential path toward
Identifying and resolving eruptions of yesteryear's angst, which have need to
Be laid to rest so as to embrace both sides of human nature by
Consciously seeking to deepen my mindful connection to insight in
Hopes of knowing when to free myself of undeserved guilt (so as to
Personally enrich my existential sense of joy) and when to calm
A naturally contentious reaction so as to think smart on my feet
And as the creative center of my brain continues to strengthen
Today's precious sense of internal emotional balance, I, feeling
Blessed to have taken another step forward toward enjoying the rest of
My life more thoroughly than proved possible before my
Homework assignment served to heighten my processor's absorption of
Self awareness so immeasurably as to ready my think tank to embrace
Ever deepening reflections that empower the conscious portion of
My mind to know myself to have been a very good, though
Imperfect person, who loves imperfect people in such a good natured
Well-rounded, self respecting, conscientious manner as to include
Myself (less judgmentally) in that group, and here's why today’sNewly expanded concept of need to absorb a well balanced understanding
Of ‘Self love' enhances my connection to feeling a heartfelt sense of repentance:
Each time my sense of wholeness feels free to release self demeaning anxiety
My renewed sense of joy rejoices, through and through—and so
To one and all (who do or do not freely subscribe to my religious affiliation)
I wish you a happy, healthy and thus ever more self aware (less subconsciously
Insecure) New Year, ahead, so as to partake in life's joys to your heart's content—
If you ask which words, during our Yom Kippur service
Speak most personally to my soul, I'd offer up these for
Your consideration:
There are none on earth so righteous that they never sin—
Forgive the sin of cynicism, which leads to
Mistrusting the reality of unselfish love
I forgive those who have wronged me, deliberately or
Inadvertently, whether by word or deed
May no one ever be punished on my account
Get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit—
Let the time begin when all people are joined in
heart and spirit and the bonds of communion last forever
Wishful thinking, you say?
(Keeping both sides of human nature in mind)
Hopeful thinking, I reply
Because without hope of more of us consciously participating in
Creating positively focused changes for the better
The future sees us no place better than where we are today
Ohhmm ...
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