2015
Do you remember a short time back, when
A series of posts had been written but withheld, because
The unexpected emergence of certain subconscious fears
Felt so raw as to deem my vulnerability too naked to
Publish for public consumption?
Well, I wonder if those fears have had sufficient time to
Feel less raw (limbic) than had been true when
Intuition counseled me to protect my true self from your scrutiny
If my conscious mind has
Processed through the abstract nature of
Emotional reactiveness, which
Had dizzied my sense of inner balance, then
My absorption of deeper truth, concerning
This newly identified fear, may offer me
The readiness necessary to reveal this fear, which
Upon emerging from behind
My defense system's self protective wall of denial
Came as a surprise
You see, I had need to gain a sense of
Clarity, concerning authenticity
Before my sense of logic could muster the courage to
Absorb deeper truth into personal traits, which
My defense system had refused to reveal to me
And not until my conscious mind
Had fully accepted the fact that
My subconscious has harbored
Yet another trait, which proves less than desirable
Could I face being scrutinized by you
Now that my brain, working as a rebalanced whole
Has soothed the rawness of
My emotional reaction to this fear that has revealed itself to me
I feel ready to publish the post (written in
Intuitive stream-of-consciousness mode), which
Exposes the raw authenticity of that fear ...
And as it's time to ready myself to meet
My high school friend, Debbi, for lunch
I'll publish this post in hopes that
The post, exposing raw emotion
Will appear on your screen and mine, tomorrow ...
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