2015
So, you know that my therapist has been coaxing me to identify and release
Fear-based anger and undeserved feelings of guilt, repressed over my lifetime
Have you wondered why that's so hard for me to do?
In order for my brain to repress fear and anger from conscious awareness
My defense system must work at denying this fact:
Specific fears and furies, which have been
Gagged, tied and subconsciously buried alive behind my defensive wall
Have been kicking to express the truth of their existence ... every day
Throughout each stage of my life
I find it of interest to note that your defense system and mine are
Empowered to build walls that prove impenetrable without
The guidance of astute, professional help
Within post after post you've watched my processor labor to
Give birth to strings of insight in hopes of identifying
The specific mind set that caused
A good little girl to condemn her guilt-ridden self
Unworthy of receiving love unless her character proved flawless
In light of the fact that you have watched me labor, intensively, to
Gain insight into my need to free a frightened child from feeling
So guilt-ridden as to deem her imperfections unlovable, I wonder if
You can identify the specific insight that
My processor is currently laboring to release?
(If today's riddle puzzles your processor, may I respectfully suggest releasing your
Deep sea diver to delve more deeply into the first two lines of today's post ...)
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