1254 WHAT DO YOU THINK? Revisiting Post 178

Written on July 10, 2011:
When I began to write this blog, I'd thought to tell you my story in an orderly fashion—one chapter leading into the next.

Though I knew my values would pop up, I'd no clue that my grasp of my values would deepen and expand, post by post.  I'd no clue that upon sitting down to write the next part of each story, a poem or composition, comprised of philosophical thought, would insist on flowing out of the depths of my mind.

As I write, my subconscious and conscious mind tend to hold hands.

Though I wonder if offering my mind free rein may limit my followers, and though I've no clue as to the quality of the poetry, which flows, surprisingly, as though all on its own, I've decided it's best to express my thoughts naturally.

I'd love to know how you found me
And why you choose to consider
That which I feel compelled to say, day after day
Is it possible that many thoughts, which
Run through my head, run through yours, too?
I wonder how often you sense my smile
Reaching out across the miles
Hoping to hold hands with yours
Perhaps, instead of telling me who you are
You may choose to tell me what you think
As I do with you 
One day you'll understand why
I chose Annie for my pen name
And that thought makes me wonder
Which name you might choose for yourself if
You decide to explore your
Deepest thoughts with me, anonymously
Hoping to hear from you, soon ...
Your friend,
:) Annie 

2015
When this post was written in 2011
I'd not yet grown aware of
The subtle nature of bullying that takes place when
Power struggles ensue amongst adults
However, now that my sense of conscious awareness is
No longer clueless, I plan to make sound use of
My intelligence to break through the subconscious spell by which
A certain person's words and actions
Unseat my sense of inner peace, repeatedly ...
Fortunately, I feel eager to partake in
A session of EMDR therapy, scheduled this afternoon
And if you are new to my blog, may I suggest
Googling 'EMDR' in order to gain insight into
The effective results, which have been
Tested when working to heal
The traumatized portion of the brain, which
Succumbs to subconscious stabs of fear and pain each time
An unprocessed memory stimulates an eruption of PTSD
You see, each time a current situation stimulates
An eruption of PTSD, I don't feel safe, and
When I lose my sense of safety
My mind does not feel centered
Thank goodness for EMDR therapy, which
Helps me to rebalance the wounded portion of my mind that
Suffered emotional trauma during childhood
And with that said, I'll end for today with this hope in mind:
I hope to find your thoughts in the comment box that
Can be found at the end of each post ...