Today, my cousin, Betty, who is wrestling with pancreatic cancer over these past eight months, texted of her impatience with her illness. As she says I’m her hero, here’s what I texted in return:
Dearest Betty, I sincerely hope that, over time, you’ll find the patience for this trial that we must face. No matter how sick I’ve felt, I continuously renew the conscious decision to master my impatience (anger and fear) so as to feel peaceful about my fate, because I want to spend my days and nights with a person who remains warm, caring and friendly, not just with others but deep within my heart with my very sick self. Though it takes some doing to adopt this attitude, ‘awakening’ to a sense of inner peacefulness, each day, is worth the effort to change our natural attitudes for the better. Absorption of peacefulness frees our body’s reduced production energy to aid in our need to recover from having been ravaged by chemo.
I am three years into this hell and you for months. Also frustration, fear and anger are natural reactions. Adopting a sense of human peacefulness is like asking the Dali llama to inhabit our spirits so as to relax our souls into acceptance of Medical miracles as well as medical limitations.
Whenever I encourage you, I’m also offering a pep talk to myself. As to Allen stepping up—how fortunate we are to be loved by busbands, sons and daughters who have grown to Menchhood.
I love you and your whole wonderful family!!!
❤️ Annie
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