Not just any insights ...
Important insights slipped intuitively into post 1467-O
How important are these additional insights?
Well, somehow, having absorbed these insight-driven perceptions
I actually felt anxiety transform into a growth spurt, which
Empowered my connection to self respect to strengthen
Why? Because intuitive trains of thought
Guided my conscious awareness toward realizing
(Do you realize that the root word of realize is 'real'?
As in: Which of your perceptions are real, as in based
In reality vs which of your perceptions are based in
Whatever your instinctive need for safety wants you to
Believe is real) my need to absorb the validity of
Insights as profound as these: Guilt ridden emotional reactions
Which have remained subconsciously repressed ever since
Childhood, develop into subliminal hot spots, which
When poked by an event, today, re-awaken
The sleeping giant who took up residence inside my mind when
The mind of a small child could conceive of any reason why
Her grandpa and sister disappeared unless an angry monster ate them
Unlike Ravi's keeping monster, who, upon awakening, eats big bugs
My sleeping giant, once stirred, stomps angrily on my spirit before
I can stop myself from feeling as though yesteryear's terrifying sense of
Danger closing me is, once again, about to swallow
My fragile connection to personal S afety, whole, and
Having deflated my spirit, this monster proceeds to bully
My peace of mind into submitting to periodic so ikes of anxiety
That pierce my conscious awareness with such painful shards of
Yesteryear's undeserved guilt as to devour my brain's connection to
Logic before the knowledgeable adult, whom
I've consciencously grown to be, can comprehend
What has hit her from behind with such force as to
Blindside my neo cortex, rendering my accumulated
Wealth of knowledge unconscious, thus leaving me feeling
Powerless to stand up in defense of my honor until
The healthy portion of my brain stops reeling so as to
Send out an SOS ASAP for professional reinforcements, whose
Educational training, concerning the self healing ability of
The human brain, which feels threatened by recurrent bouts of
PTSD, proves as skillful at guiding my mind to have faith in
The study of neuroscience as is true of a cancer patient, whose
Neurosurgeon's steadfast hand must know where best to
Guide the scalpel each time a life threatening carcinoma in
Remission attacks the healthy tissue of that patient's brain, again
And since the sleeping giant, which resides inside my head
Is not nourished by big bugs, this beast, in need of taming
Has been known to gnaw at my peace of mind until
My stomped upon, deflated spirit has had time to recoup its
Self respecting stance, and thus does today's imaginative
Description of recurrent, surprise attacks of PTSD offer
Your comprehension (and mine) a vivid picture, concerning
The importance of recruiting a knowledgeable support system that
Understands the undermining nature of the civil war, which
Erupts inside my brain each time a power struggle for mental control
Ensues between the injured (subconsciously insecure) portion of
My brain and the healthy (self assured) solution seeker, whom
I perceive myself to be until an unidentified, subliminal hot spot, which
Had branded me worthless during childhood, burns straight through
My brain's connection to logical thought, penetrating my
Defense system's wall of denial, behind which I can feel
My my deflated spirit's tormented, silent cry for help as though
Life had broken my heart anew, as in: Oh no! Not again!
As the prolonged nature of civil war is known to result in
Battle fatigue the negatively focused (wounded) portion of
My think tank has been known to usurp control over
Healthy territory, from time to time, which explains why
My intuitive powers, joining forces with my intelligence, have
Need to grow practiced at escaping from the possibility of
Feeling overwhelmed and imprisoned by yesteryear's re-emergent
Subconscious fears by making sound use of my
Wealth of knowledge at the first glimpse of the giant stirring up
Trouble inside my head, most especially after a hot spot has been
Poked, catalyzing my brain to saturate with searing sensations of
Yesteryear's pain burning straight through my processor's
Connection to logical thought, baring my survival instinct's need to
Save me from danger by limiting my sense of choice to
Fight, flee or freeze, which suggests why, at those times
Tis wise to know which ghost buster to call, suggesting, once again, that
Two heads, in the heat of battle, can be better than one, and
If you wish to ask me to describe the state of my spirit (which
Serves to re-energize my battle-weary processor), right now, I'd reply
Let's give my spirit voice to speak for itself:
Though I do not yet feel light hearted, my severed connection
To self respect has had time to repair, and with my sense of
Self respect on the rise, my brain revitalizes so naturally as to
Inspire my processor to absorb strings of insight, which inspire
My sense of wholeness to rebalance subconscious vulnerabilities with
Inner strengths ever more quickly than had been possible during
Past eruptions of PTSD, and to add to my good fortune
David (whose spinal pain has catalyzed his need to
Strengthen his spirit to tame his own personal Goliath) flies in
Tomorrow to satisfy his heartfelt desire to enjoy time with
Ravi's bright, sweet natured mind whenever possible, and
Thus do I believe a sparkling display of light heartedness will
Naturally re-ignite the full strength of my spirit once
Our family gathers to celebrate The Fourth of July, which
Remarkably suggests that Independence Day is, yet again, just
Around the corner—and if ever there was a time for reflection
Renewal, and recommitment to switching tracks
From self destructive tweets toward governmental
Intervention growing mindful of our nation's need for
Law makers to catalyze an intuitive growth spurt, focusing
Our senate and house of representatives to join ranks and openly
Challenge the leader of the free world to grow up and direct
His three year old tantrums toward replacing his dunce cap with
The presidential hat that the populous of the United States demands
Our commander and chief to place squarely on his head untless
Like the glass slipper, which the mean spirited step sister could not
Squeeze her foot into, our current president's footprint proves
So unfit to serve anyone's best interests other than that of
The financial empire created by Emperor Trump's greedy need to
Elevate his insecure ego from drowning in the swirling dark side of
His unbalanced brain, and thus has today's train of thought, empowered by
My intuition, released my frustration to ask: Where might be
The author of the fairytale ending, which requires the knight in
Shining armor to saddle up his or her mighty steed and gallop with
Haste through the convoluted roundabouts of D.C., straight up
The staircase, leading into the White House in order to unseat and
Defeat the unbalanced despot before the fully exposed underbelly of
Our nation's internal civil war explodes into the unspeakable carnage of
Shooters, feeling free to indulge in extinguishing the eternal flame of
The torch, held high by the lady in the harbor that welcomes the poor and
Weary to seek refuge upon our shores, from sea to polluted sea ...
If fairy tales were true, a super hero would appear—and by golly, the timing
Is right, because it's a known fact that superheros and summer movies collide
In addition to that fanciful perception, it's also a known fact that
We can only live one day at a time, which is why my spirit must charge
My brain to enjoy every minute of today's good fortune by consciously
Absorbing an ever deepening awareness of the loving respect with which
My positively focused attitudes and mutually respectful behaviors have
Conscientiously chosen to embrace a host of supportive friends and family, and
If you ask about my just desserts in regards to all of the mental exercising
I freely choose to do? Well, here's what my think tank feels inclined to say:
I take pride in the fact that the healthy portion of my brain has grown to lull
My Giant, which goes by the moniker of PTSD, to sleep peacefully, repeatedly
And I believe my spirit will continue to strengthen the self confident
Stance that's necessary if my brain is to continue to tame that bully at times when
Anything stimulates the sleeping giant to so much as snore, and
Next, if you ask me to offer up one of the insights that has served to fuel
My mental fatigue to re-energize, over these past several days, here's
The one my intuitive power has chosen to select:
In the aftermath of every growth spurt (each of which expands
The healthy portion of my brain), my conscious awareness musters
The patience and courage to tolerate yesteryear's eruption of
Emotional pain in order to enhance my self awareness of my need to gain and
Maintain a greater sense of self control over my connection to self respect so that
The next time Goliath feels stimulated to stir yesteryear's self bullying attitude
The dark side of my mind can do little more than to heel to
The healthy alpha spirit, which my intuitive intelligence plans to
Place in charge of my entire brain during future sessions of EMDR. and
Being that I've grown to be a staunch believer in the wisdom of employing
Astute, simplistic plans of action in order to challenge my self defeating
Patterns to change for the better, today's train of thought has led my
Conscious mind to clarify the plan, which has been shaping up within
My head, this week—BTW—
I've not forgotten to write about The Cooperation Game; however
I'm a firm believer in first things first, and since my first priority is to
Make sound use of intuitive thought as it continues to pour forth so freely
(naturally) as to guide my intelligence to remain focused on the self healing
Abilities of my brain in hopes of maintaining a growing sense of control over
Painful bouts of PTSD, perhaps you, like me, have gained a deeper sense of
Understanding why my choice to liberate my spirit from lugging forward
Yesteryear's residual fear, anger and pain, which presents as spikes of anxiety, has
Directed my current train of thought to decide that switch tracks at
This moment in time would prove counter productive, and that brings us to
What to do with the portion of my brain, which delights in revealing success
Stories, which naturally elevate my heartfelt sense of self respect, and having
Clarified that, let's free the storyteller to momentarily make sound use of her voice:
I am one of many voices who vie for control over Annie's processor
And though mustering the humility to curb my greediness is far from
Easy, the fact that Annie's self healer and I enjoy
A mutually respectful relationship suggests why both of us have decided
To act in Annie's best interest (as is true of the component parts of
Any brain, which makes sound use of intuitive creativity in hopes of
Functioning, most often, as a well balanced whole), and since
Today's post covers much more than I'd had a conscious clue of revealing
To myself about myself, today, let's muster the patience necessary to
Live and enjoy (or tolerate) whatever life offers up until tomorrow, which
Is only a day away, and on that note, I'm sensing a rest station welcoming
My active mind to relax while my spirit, sensing reason for its inner smile
To widen, acknowledges another growth spurt gathering steam
Why? Because my spirit knows it has encouraged my brain
To feel safe even though my anxious reaction is still somewhat
Active, suggesting that my brain's ability to calm and intelligently
Repair its sense of balance between emotion and logic is continually
Gaining strength over subconscious vulnerabilities, based in PTSD, which
Had too easily caused my spirit to succumb to sneak attacks perpetrated by
Latent uprisings of childhood's unidentified insecurities, and
And that, my friends, is real/ly a change for the better, indeed
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