A string of insights (relating back to a mind blowing
Emotional experience during childhood), which awaits
A stream of intuitive thought upon which to emerge from
Subconscious storage, and if that experience exposed
Your vulnerability to an adult authority figure, whose
Reactions served to demean your self worth then
You can understand why Mother Nature programmed
Your defense system to block a detailed account of
Your most fearsome reaction behind a wall of denial until
You've developed heightened levels of self disciplined
Emotional maturity necessary to inspire your conscious mind to
Make sound use of a specific set of inner strengths, namely:
Humility, courage, patience and resilience, all of which
Must intertwine before your intuitive powers can
Develop the capability to probe ever more deeply into
Your memory in hopes of releasing a detailed account of
The main root of your darkest subconscious fear, which
Having been based in childhood trauma, catalyzed
Your little corner of the world to swirl so suddenly into
A stormy, windswept, sense of personal despair as to have
Cast your budding sense of self onto a deeply puzzling
Maze-like path where a portion of your thought processor has
Unwittingly remained stuck, clinging for dear life, to
Dccisions, based more in yesteryear's fear of
Impassioned emotion than you consciously know, and
That's why decisions, seemingly based solely in logic, will
Continue to be more heavily influenced by
A defensive attitude, concerning fear for your personal safety as
Long as subconscious emotionally insecure reactions, manifesting as
Anxiety, remain separated from the emotionally matured, conscious portion of
Your brain, and thus has today's stream of intuitive thought awakened
My conscious mind to this fact that's true for people, worldwide:
Your mindset (and mine) will remain blind to insight attempting to
Clue your intelligence into the main root of your darkest fear, which
Your defense system will continue to deny until humility, courage
Patience and resilience open your eyes and ears to today's string of
Insights attempting to speak directly to you for this reason:
As long as your eyes and ears remain closed to pinpointing
The subconscious attitude, which proves in need of personal growth
It's likely that your many strengths will be compromised by
Unidentified vulnerabilities each time your little voice of
Subconscious fear directs your eyes and ears to focus solely upon
The same narrow path that has felt compatible with your sense of
Safety until, lo and behold, fate will offer your brain another
Utterly unexpected intensely emotional experience that packs such
A magnetically electrifying wallop as to rock your inner world off
Its axis, shocking your intelligent connection to logic to the core, compelling
Your subconscious intelligence to release your power of intuition to
Guide the conscious portion of your mind toward acknowledging
Your innermost need to re-examine the confounding nature of
Your conflicting adult strengths and vulnerabilities as though through
A microscopic lens, and though your surface demeanor may
Seem serene as you tread back through the 'logically-minded' path, which
Your decision-making process has chosen to cling to, over
Most of your life, your brain, like that of every person who has ever
Experienced life on earth, harbors a panic button, which
Instinctively signals subconscious alarm (anxiety) by alerting
Your adrenal glands to release adrenaline, which shuts down
The Neo cortex in favor of focusing all of your mental energy upon
Inner need to fight, flee or freeze whenever any portion of
A wholly unexpected experience feels remotely similar to
The emotional undertow of that deeply repressed (unidentified)
Childhood trauma, which, erupting with the force of
A volcanic explosion, catalyzes the sudden implosion of
Your adult connection to self worth for as long as
The painfully anxious, hauntingly daunting eruption of
Raw, unhealed, emotional turbulence (that has been
Secretly submerged within pockets of your subconscious ever
Since childhood) remains unnamed, suggesting this
Next string of insights: Though Mother Nature saw fit to protect
Your spirit from drowning in despair by burying the depth of your fear of
Re-experiencing any emotional uprising that might feel remotely similar to
That day when an innocent child with malice toward none had been
Deemed guilty of committing so heinous a crime as to have caused
The deeply confounded mind of this small child to feel so
Completely rejected by anger emoting from a beloved, all-powerful
Authority figure as to have unknowingly shattered
This child's tenuous connection to personal safety, most especially when
His budding sense of self worth had reason to feel tossed back and forth
Amongst hot winded gusts of emotional unpredictability, where
Feeling utterly alone and bereft of mature adult guidance, the self image of
A sincerely good, little boy (or girl) becomes disproportionately, though
Imperceptibly, out of sync with reality, and feeling more guilty of
Wrong doing than was actually true, this child's inexperienced think tank
Developed such a distrust of impassioned emotion as to have caused
His decision-making process to lean so heavily toward logic as to have
Blocked his ears from heeding his voice of intuition beseeching
His conscious intelligence to peer ever more deeply within his
Psyche in hopes of catching sight of insights in a jar that would
Shine the spot light of conscious connection upon a realistically
Rebalanced sense of self awareness, which, upon tapping into with
A greater degree of consistency, concerning the quick release of
Intuitive trains of thought, would automatically expunge
The heavy weight of undeserved guilt, which his subconscious has
Unknowingly harbored, unnecessarily, throughout each stage of his life
And not until the main root of childhood's heavy burden of
Undeserved guilt has been readily identified, fully exposed and released will
This person's spirit feel liberated from existing within this lonesome state of
Perpetual limbo to rejoice over having freed his (her) conscious mindset to
Grow toward absorbing bite-sized morsels of wisdom so as to declare oneself
So light-hearted as to frolic, feeling younger than Springtime, at long last!
On the other hand, if, having read this post, you still have
No conscious clue of reason to identify personally with
Each string of insights that my intuitive powers has just described then
Perhaps you'd appreciate an example of a thought process, which had
Seemed logically based in positive focus until
Today's stream of intuitive consciousness compelled my intelligence to
Muster the humility, courage, patience and resilience necessary to
Peel away at yet another layer of my defensive wall of denial in order to
Expose a subconscious fear, which, hiding behind yesteryear's
Black cloud of self doubt, had kept yet another aspect of my self worth
Stuck within an unidentified, lonely state of insecurity until ... this morning:
Though I've always looked forward to planning parties for others with
A natural sense of pleasure, parties planned in celebration of my life caused
Every atom of my being to quiver slightly with discomfort, and
I've had no clue of what makes me feel undeserving until
An intuitive train of thought probed through another layer of
My wall of denial, exposing yet another pocket of undeserved guilt, which
Had remained tucked out of sight within subconscious storage until
I awakened this morning feeling compelled to pen this stream of consciousness after
Will and I enjoyed our celebration of Mother's Day at
Celina and Steven's new home, yesterday, and having released that last thought
Suddenly, I feel intuitive need to stop writing in favor of absorbing
Today's string of insights more deeply into my conscious think tank ...
Hmmm ...
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