So, here's what I surmise ...
Three groups of readers choose to observe wheels turning within my mind:
One group 'reads me', because you find my family saga intriguing while another group 'reads me', because you, like me, have come to 'see' the importance of gaining insight into the natural state of complexity that resides inside the human brain, which (being your spirit's primary mode of transportation toward better or worse), hopefully, inspires you to forge a path toward reaching whatever goals your personal needs long to achieve), and since your conscious mind finds the inner workings of this complex machine (which needs a tune up, from time to time) to be deeply intriguing, you'd rather consider my intuitive approach to imparting knowledge than slogging through a scientific, yawn inducing text, and finally, we come to the third group, who find my story and my need to seek and impart knowledge personally absorbing. As for me, I see my story as offering us a bird's eye view that maps out the the bigger picture of the path, which I've consciously chosen to carve out for myself in hopes of expanding mindsets, secreted within my subconscious, so as to grow to be the open-minded person I choose to be today.
Actually, in the absence of knowledge (researched over my lifetime and absorbed more deeply, recently, than had been possible during my younger years, when my professional and family life kept my brain hopping, here and there, from one sunrise to the next), my saga would have offered a very different tale for this reason: Many of my decisions, which have switched tracks from a place of complacent subservience (rooted in repressed, unprocessed insecurities) toward today's self-assertive stance (rooted in the decisive strengths of my consciously considered, personal convictions) would have remained based in self demeaning attitudes, unconsciously absorbed during childhood, and that difference as made all the difference in the stories that I've yet to pen ... and if you ask how I know that assertion to be based in deeper truth, I'd reply: Before I'd thought to deepen my understanding of the classic functions of my brain, my think tank had blindly absorbed many more parent tapes than I'd consciously known. And many of those parent tapes had need to be rewound and reconsidered before my adult thought processor felt free to develop the listening skills necessary to hear my intuitive voice coaching my tunnel visioned comfort zone to grow ever more naturally receptive to resolving inner conflicts by identifying thought patterns, based in positively focused insights, which had opposed subconscious insecurities that I'd harbored unconsciously. And having absorbed insight into my need to consciously remind myself to loosen tightly wound coils of defensive resistance, wrapped around my thought processor's natural ability to expand, consider and absorb fresh ideas, I've grown ever more able to refocus my thought processor's naysayer toward considering a positively focused point of view, and as my sense of readiness to grow ever more receptive to expanding my mindsets inspires my think tank to absorb deeper truths, concerning the sum of my traits, guess what sits more quietly in a time out chair than had ever been possible, before? My defensive reactions, which had painfully rebelled against listening receptively to constructive criticism until my think tank gained insight into the primary reason why two heads, forging parellel paths toward each one's personal growth (where change for the better welcomes our arrival though not necessarily simultaneously) can be better than one. And the reason that no individual walks in my footsteps is because, insight into deeper truth suggests that no one's life experiences are exact replicas of another's.
Nothing riled my mother's defensive reaction more quickly than hearing my father say
You're acting just like Mrs. T! (my mother's mother), suggestive of this deeper truth:
No matter how pointedly we work to differentiate our thought patterns from those of our parents, defensive denial blinds us, one and all, to subconscious hot spots, concerning negatively charged traits, rooted in parental tapes, absorbed, unconsciously, during childhood ... and as long as our defensive reactions refuse to lift the veil on need to specify and tame self defeating traits, our brain's natural capacity for mind expansion (necessary to shift negatively focused attitudes toward change for the better) will remain in a tightly coiled, explosive state behind our walls of denial, keeping conscious need for personal growth secreted within the tunnel-visioned framework of our self deceptive (self defeating) point of view ...
As long as subconscious misperceptions fear darkness, ahead ... darkness will consume our spirits ... and that is why, at times when my mind feels mired within inner conflict, my decision maker, which has been consciously groomed to direct my natural tendency to react defensively to sit in time out, frees my thought processor to patiently, courageously, positively and meticulously seek the light at the end of each tunnel ...
Ever heard of the book: MY MOTHER, MYSELF?
Brilliant title, right?
Needless to say, we each absorb traits (positive and negative) from both parents, and all too often, it's the power struggling trait that blindly disrupts our brain's natural ability to listen with an open mind to perceptive thoughts that oppose our own ... (And having absorbed the importance of that deeper truth, I've gained insight into quieting my dad's and grandmother's hot tempered tapes from piping up inside my head so as to make certain that explosive defensive reactions have been tamed behind my Line of Control before I open my brainstorming mouth (Note, I chose the word 'tamed' rather than 'restrained'. Why? Because 'tamed' indicates a hot spot that has been named, understood, resolved and calmed whereas 'restrained' indicates a growling hot spot, still in need of muzzling or it bites. Bites whom? Sometimes me. Sometimes you.
In another post, the intuitive communication's instructor, who calls my brain, home sweet home, will describe the ways that certain power struggles, which prove quite subtle in nature, are known to run interference with the clarity of our brain's solution seeking, decision-maker. As for right now, today's train of thought has served up more than enough food for thought to digest, n'est ce pas?
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