1379 ENSURING THAT DEFENSIVE REACTIVITY DOES NOT SACK MY SOLUTIONSEEKING QUARTERBACK

If you ask me to describe this current paradigm shift, I'd reply:
A thought pattern that has guided my life is in transition, and
During this stage of transition, I can actually feel my energy shiftin away from
The tunnel visioned scope of negatively focused irritation toward
Expanding my perspective to reconsider possibilities, which had felt
Impossible for my mind to fathom, before conscious awareness
Concerning need for change took hold of my mind

On the other hand, crystal clear clarity is not yet mine, so

I still can't 'see' whether my intuitive voice is inclined to coach
My decision maker to change direction while continuing
To run with the ball or pass it, or bench myself until I can clearly
Name the mental irritant, which has yet to emerge from within my depths

As common sense has taught my decision maker to bench itself when
A paradox remains unclear, I'll consciously coach my defense system to
Take a time out, thus freeing my thought processor to relax instead of feeling
Anxiously prodded from deep within to swing back and forth amongst
Choices until frustration tackles my smarts so many times as to
Deplete my think tank of every last drop of positively focused energy
And by consciously benching my defense system's frustration along with
My decision maker, I can offer my smarts down time to refuel, which
Somehow signals my intuitive powers to kick into play, brainstorming through
Insights while the rest of me sleeps peaceably through the night until
One morning, I awaken to find that crystal clear clarity has somehow
Emerged from within the depths of my mind, and once intuition has
Coached my revitalized smarts to return to the playing field
My brain, functioning as a rebalanced whole, can feel assured that
My recently relaxed defensive stance will not swing back and forth so

Dizzily as to mistakenly sack my quarterback, repeatedly

And thus, rather than allowing repressed frustration to seep through
Cracks in my wall of denial, alerting my conscious awareness of
Subconscious need for change for the better, I'll choose to
Consciously spin a cocoon around my solution-seeking process, thus
Imagining a peaceful place inside my brain where my caterpillar-state-of-mind
Feels free to take an extended time out from the frustrating aspects of
Inner conflict until my intuition, powering up within, kicks insight into
Solution seeking mode, freeing the butterfly's sense of readiness to
Expand her wingspan to fly so free of inner conflict as to relieve
Internal irritation, which has, actually, been incubating in
A repressed state, over long, and once my expanded wing span
Offers my solution seeker a bird's eye view of the bigger picture, which
Had escaped my think tank's conscious cognition until today's
Emergence of intuitive thought inspired my stream of consciousness
Cough up this transparent description of the disorienting tricks that
Inner conflict, which persists overlong, foists upon a person's smarts ...
And guess what just occurred to me?
Suddenly, I clearly 'see' why my intuitive need for inner peace
Has been coaching my think tank to bench my story teller until
Common sense came into play to remind my defense system to
Sit, patiently, in time out until this negatively charged current of
Mental irritation (indicative of a repressed internal conflict), stops
Running interference with my think tank's natural ability to function as
A well balanced whole (which, when calmed, is known to consult with
Insights, absorbed within memory), until my intuitive voice offers
My conscious mind a well rested crystal clear sense of clarity, concerning
A workable solution to resolving an inner conflict (that's still in need of
Naming), which my tunnel visioned view had 'seen' as irresolvable until
This very moment when my ability to self soothe expanded my view finder

To see a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel, flickering on and off, at long last ...