1373 49H's PHOTO ALBUMS DON'T TELL THE WHOLE STORY OF OUR LIVES

Our albums paint an incomplete picture of our lives.
If you ask why that's true, I'd reply:
We don't think to whip out our cameras while
Our loved ones are crying, which leaves me to ask ...
If not in albums then where are grief-stricken memories stored?
Upon asking myself that question, my power of intuitive
Thought sparked insight to pen this response:
Human beings, mourning inconsolable loss
Bank grief-stricken, emotional reactions in one of two places:
Conscious or subconscious memories, suggesting that
Certain attitudes, feelings, thoughts and experiences may be
Voiced openly and freely while other memories, which
Had felt too complex (or unbearable) to comprehend
At an earlier time, may have been repressed in
An unprocessed state behind our defense system's
Wall of denial, and that fact reminds us to reconsider this one:
Our brain's interactive functions prove so complex as to need to be
Organized in an orderly fashion, which separates
Each person's memory bank into three 'files':
The first file stores memories that may be
Consciously withdrawn on the spot
A second file stores memories, which have been
Temporarily suppressed in a state of limbo
A third file stores memories that proved too darkly
Shocking to have processed with clarity, leaving

Our conscious minds with no clue, whatsoever, of

Our personal involvement in experiences
That took place but

Have been subconsciously repressed, and though

I've been consciously aware of housing each of these

Separate files inside my brain ever since I chose to study

Psyche 101, during college, it's only recently that

An intuitive need to know my whole self

in depth

Sparked my intelligence to feel compelled to develop
The courage, patience, and resilient determination necessary to
Dive ever more deeply into the darkest depths of my psyche in
Hopes of identifying insight into unlocking mental blocks, where
I keep secrets from myself, which if fully revealed, would surely
Scare me half out of my wits, and if you ask why my intuitive powers
Would freely encourage my intelligence to focus on exposing secrets
Stored in file #3, which had once, truly, scared my think tank witless
I'd reply:  Over recent years, fate (in Cahoots with my curiosity) has
Offered my strength of spirit reason to empower my conscious awareness
With an ever deepening degree of self confidence, which
Coaxes my sense of wholeness to grow ever less fearful, ever more
Adventurous, thus inspiring my smarts to wholeheartedly embrace
This belief:  At times when brainstorming my way through

Life's conundrums proves inecessary, my brain, which
Houses logic and emotion, has sound reason for taking its time to
Ensure that the sum of its interactive parts are functioning
Effectively, as a well balanced whole, and that's why

A heightened level of patience must be
Mustered whenever

My power of intuition ferls inspired to tunnel

Ever more deeply within my many layered psyche, by night

While by day, my strength of spirit continues to encourage

My conscious mind to muster the courage to

Readily identify with and more thoroughly absorb
Inter-related strings of insights that shine spotlights on

'Forgotten' details, stored in a repressed state within

Subconscious pockets, labeled:
DANGER - ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK
And since EMDR therapy offers me the freedom to

Advance, step by step toward
Knowing myself

In depth at a pace that does not threaten

My sense of

Safety, too much, my conscious mind has developed

The  ability to tolerate heightened degrees of anxiety, thus

Freeing my newly incorporated sense of wholeness to

Continue to collect scary details in a productive

Manner, most especially at those times when threat

Of danger (Real or fearfully imagined) seems to be

Closing in, and if you ask how I know that all of this mental complexity
Is taking place inside my brain, my well practiced power of

Intuition would direct my conscious mind to reply with

This slice of factual knowledge:

It's a fact that, by way of sparking one inter-related

String of insights after another, my brain, working as

A well balanced whole, has successfully pieced together

So many puzzling (yet inter-related) aspects of
The bigger picture of my life as to have enlightened

My conscious awareness of subconscious secrets that

Once revealed, have been disempowered from haunting my

Peace of mind, and so, by keeping in mind

The unlikeliness of any person gaining entry into

Subconscious territory through

Conscious determination, alone

Serves to deepen my faith in the self powering nature of

Intuitive thought, which is innately preprogrammed to

Function best at night while the rest of my brain functions

Are revitalizing  their depleted supply of mental energy by

Sleeping, peaceably),  and so, stoked with these facts
My strength of spirit proves so consistently self empowered by
Positively focused energy as to free my conscious mind of heightened
Levels of anxiety by sitting my control freak in a time out chair, and
Thus has my conscious mind felt inspired to calmly welcome intuitive
Thought to work ever more productively at tunneling so deeply into
My psyche as to penetrate file #3 (where frightful details are stored
Subconsciously) until courage energizes sparks of insight to shine
Spotlights on 'secrets' in need of retrieving and

Piecing together until such time as self defeating patterns of

Thought emerge, and I write this blog, believing that

Eventually, world wide recognition of the
Benefits of

EMDR therapy will continue to expand, offering countless
Individuals, just like me, reason to quest toward exposing
Self defeating patterns, followed by working to create

Brand new, healthy pathways of
Thought that will

Enhance world peace as more of us learn to resolve life's 

Most complex conundrums as each of us develops
The fortitude to tunnel so deeply into our defensive psyches as to

Penetrate file #3 until positively energized, intuitive trains of thought

Generate strings of insight to ignite, shining spotlights

Upon 'forgotten' details which
Upon being coaxed to emerge from subconscious storage

Will eventually filter into conscious awareness, offering

Life's puzzles sound reason to
Come together in

Logical ways that had not been detected by
Our conscious minds for most of our lives, and thus

Hopefully, you can now see why my faith in the inner workings of

My brain has had sound reason to bolster

The strength of my convictions concerning
The effectiveness of intuitive thought working toward resolving
Conundrums while the rest of me feels so peaceably at rest that
My conscious mind feels clearly able to absorb sound reason to
Relax anxious reactions until readiness to release detailed answers to
Life's conundrums (suppressed in limbo or repressed in
Subconscious storage) has sufficient time to ripen, and with thoughts of
Heightened levels of patience

Eventually relaxing the minds of leadership

Throughout the world in
Generations to come

My well-practiced power of intuitive thought is
Coaxing me, right now, to remember to differentiate between
Repressed memories (of experiences that had
Felt too emotionally complex or horrific to bare to
My conscious mind) from suppressed memories that have, mysteriously
But temporarily disappeared from conscious awareness

And now that I've clarified distinctly amongst three

Separate files, banked within my memory

I'll surely feel the first glimmers of insight emerging, before
Too long, offering a detailed answer to any skepticism

Concerning why two values, which seem diametrically opposed

But are actually intertwined, has been playing hide and seek

With my conscious mind.  Luckily ...
My natural tendency to pressure myself toward leaning into impatient
Reactiveness has experienced sound reason to mellow, and as
One positive change for the better leads toward another

Cmmon sense suggests that since I've worked successfully

To develop my innate potential to
Peaceably

Calm my mind, the puzzling nature of this current game of

Hide and seek will only gently tease my brain until
File #2 in my memory bank senses intuitive readiness

To slip the answer to that riddle into file #1, at which time

My conscious mind will be ve rtain to clarify

The common sense, inherent in that insight, for
Your conscious awareness to reconsider, too ...