1373 47H's INSIGHT INTO OPPOSING VALUES INTERTWINING, PEACEABLY, SEEMS TO BE PLAYING GAMES WITH MY CONSCIOUS MIND

When soulful connection with a loved one proves to be
One of my heartfelt desires you'll not see me give up on
Brainstorming until a relaxed sense of readiness to enjoy
Change for the better has been achieved on both sides
And since that has been my M.O., pretty much forever
You may feel inclined to ask:
If you can't control change in anyone but yourself then
How can brainstorming on your own create change for the better?
And thinking your question merits an intelligent answer
I'd respond:  Though I'm still addicted to hope while
Working to achieve any heartfelt desire, I no longer
Lose sight of my spirit's good health, suggesting
That while seeking meaningful connection with another
You'll not see me lose sight of my brain's inner strengths for
This reason:  Upon reflecting over several past experiences, which
Saw me stretching so far to hold a loved one's hand as to accomplish
Nothing other than coming up empty handed after
Falling flat on my face, hindsight has offered my sense of
Clarity 200/20 vision, concerning that which has
Changed for the better at my end:  Retrospectively
I've gained insight into the necessity to muster the patience to
Work toward change for the better with others while
Simultaneously focusing my sights on this bigger picture—
I have grown aware of my existential need to enjoy life in such
An emotionally well balanced manner as to seek to connect (or
Reconnect) with a person who has won my devotion without
Losing sight of my sense of self respect in the process ...
You see, love is known to fly in unbidden while insight into
Deeper truth suggests that respect must be earned

If you wonder how today's intuitive train of thought
Will lead us toward answering the riddle left
Unresolved, concerning opposing values that
Need to intertwine if our minds are to
Unburden themselves of inner conflict, thus freeing
Our spirits (which bear the heavy weight of
Undeserved guilt) to soar while both feet
Are planted on solid ground then please continue to
Muster the patience (as must I) to see
What my power of intuition has up its sleeve, because
As of right now, I have only an inkling of where
My mind (which has a mind of its own) is heading ...
And thus do I thank goodness for the fact that my faith in
Intuitive powers, which prove well practiced, offers
My newfound sense of wholeness sound reason to feel
Confounded and peaceful, all at once ...
In fact, I'm beginning to wonder if the mysterious nature of
Today's train of thought is my brain's creative way of inspiring
My think tank to ready itself to switch tracks from months of
Philosophizing toward gaining insight into resolving
Life's most classic riddles by way of storytelling ... Hmmm ...