Just want to make one thing clear about generosity of spirit, which defines unconditional love:
The human spirit, energized by hope and nothing but hope, can, eventually, run itself, blindly, into the ground, again and again, unless your unmet needs (crashing into undeserved guilt carried forth subconsciously), have reason to signal your intelligence to quest toward personal growth in self awareness, thus providing your personal sense of freedom with clarity, concerning inner strengths that free your mind to expand your comfort zone to embrace choices which, in the absence of insight into deeper truth, had once felt forbidden. And though this quest may feel arduous, the pain of unmet needs crashing through (rather than into) your own defensive wall is well worth the gain of personal strength, which, over time, frees your intelligence to specify which social convention has been pinning your innermost (intuitive) self to the mat, over long. And once intuitive thought feels free to brighten your intelligence by spotlighting insight into deeper truth, your sense of clarity, concerning energy expended while suppressing your unmet needs, expands your comfort zone so naturally as to open your mind to embracing choices, which the narrow confines of societal restriction had bamboozled you to believe were forbidden fruit. And once your intelligence calls upon creativity to devise a plan that clears your mind of emotional complexity, your sense of joy will fuel your spirit to feel so reenergized as to clearly revive your lost sense of youth, no matter your age. And thus do I employ my intelligence to enhance my sense of positive focus in order to strengthen my connection to generosity of spirit most especially at those times when emotional reaactiveness wants to tear off another person's head.
As I've experienced stretching denial so far as to have blindly stumbled into a black hole, twice, I've vowed to focus my intelligence upon my spirit's need to feel fed, no matter how much my heart longs to connect, generously, with someone I love ...
So, here comes the insight that today's train of intuitive thought has been directing my intelligence to clarify, not just for you but for my conscious self, as well:
Loving unconditionally does not suggest that we give so much while asking for so little that the recipient takes our heartfelt spirit of generosity so for granted as to expect more of the same until the source of our energy feels sucked so dry of fuel as to stumble blindly into a bottomless, black hole, where the dark side waits to swallow up whatever little is left of our inner strengths. You see, once an utterly exhausted spirit has been caught within the grip of the dark side, the very last drop of our positive focus falls through a trap door, where it remains locked away from the bright light of clarity until a confounding sense of exhaustion feels rested enough for the resilient nature of intuitive thought to revive, and each time intuition taps into insight, deeper truth reveals an unmet need, which had been repressed behind a wall of denial ...
As the depth of my belief in NGU has led my spirit to stumble, blindly, into the dark side of mental confusion, twice, my intelligence has learned to watch for exhaustion's trap door with a vigilance, born of experience, and with each conscious step I've taken along this path of personal growth, my conscious mind becomes ever more sensitive to identifying those times when generosity is beckoning my spirit to stretch so far as to serve the needs of another while denying the existence of my own.
Now that this holiday season is nearing the new year, I can see why intuitive thought felt compelled to imprint this summary of my most recent growth spurt as deeply into the conscious portion of my mind as possible in hopes of insuring that this next insight has been thoroughly absorbed: My newfound sense of clarity is charged to apprise my conscious mind of those times when my spirit of generosity, which knows no bounds, is, once again, pushing my energy source beyond its ability to replenish itself by attending to (rather than denying) my needs, and to this end have I learned to seek a quiet, private, safe haven, where intuitive thought feels free to brainstorm until creativity contemplates a plan, based in common sense, which simplifies whatever had, at first, felt overwhelmingly complex. And as this mindful approach considers needs all around, inclusive of mine, your friend, Annie, has freed my intelligence of social convention, which misguidedly dictates that good people consider the needs of others by denying their own. And now that I've come to understand why courage must be mustered before we can truly think clearly for ourselves, I feel thankful for believing that intuitive thought would guide me from one string of insights to the next until my conscious mind felt so bright as to know my traits from the inside out, and as knowledge is self empowerment, I've begun to respect my needs without feeling selfish, and now that my sense of generosity falls in line with common sense, guess whose spirit is truly enjoying each day feeling naturally free of every heavy drop of undeserved guilt, at last!
Now that my brain has grown to its present level of emotional maturity, suggesting that the sum of its parts have learned to work as a well-balancd whole, I no longer worry that inner conflict will undermine my spirit's need to thrive by stretching my energy source so far as to stumble into yet another black hole, and in this way does personal growth prove vital to insuring that my youthful vitality does not exhaust, most especially as I age.
Oh BTW ... Today's post does not suggest that, by focusing on self awareness, the depth of my love for others dims, weakens or withers in any way ... All I'm saying is that my sense of intelligence has clearly been empowered by injecting generosity of spirit with self respect, thus insuring that my path does not circle blindly toward the dark side, where my conscious mind feels so confounded as to stumble into that bottomless pit, ever again. In short, I can now hold my intelligence accountable for opening my eyes to those whose minds appear ready to receive the gift of my love and friendship, as wholeheartedly (rather than fearfully) as I am ready to receive theirs. As to others, who prove unready? That's where patience (buoyed by generosity) comes in. Why that change?
Experience has taught me that as we age, the vibrancy of the human spirit depends upon generosity of spirit holding hands with self respect and patience, both of which rely on strong shots of common sense.
When next we meet, I'll describe the holiday surprise, planned to offer three hearts so much unexpected delight as to have caused tears of happiness to spring from their eyes ... and mine ...
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