1412P INSIGHT INTO SUMMER FUN IN THE SUN ... AND MORE

2015

More often than not, a heartfelt sense of determination, combined with compassion and patience concerning the human condition, creates change for the better, most especially when long range goals prove challenging to achieve.  For more than a decade, as each of our spirits weathered a series of personal storms, our family supported each other, every step of the way, which is why, presently, our smiles are so visibly delighted to bask in the sun—until who knows what next challenge lays in wait to manifest as each one's future unfolds.

BTW, supporting each other does not mean frustration does not raise its irritated little head—supporting each other means discussing frustrations openly and respectfully by listening to each other's thoughts and reactions, knowing that, with patience and mutual respect intact, we'll brainstorm through whatever disturbs inner peace as life moves forward, one step at a time.  And thus have we come to embrace the concept of tweaking plans that prove unworkable for this one or that one until comfort zones, concerning unexpected change, expand, all around.

During that lengthy span of time when each of us weathered storms that blew our minds, I felt such a strong need to examine the path of my life that writing from a place of intuitive thought overshadowed the voracious reader in me for quite a spell—in fact, the depth of my need to comprehend changes that confounded my sense of clarity seemed to place my mind under a spell—beginning two decades ago—when much to my amazement the most vital aspect of my life came undone even though I'd followed society's prescription for achieving a happy sense of personal success to the letter of unwritten law, and from that time to this, I've chosen to identify those times when intuitive anxiety is signaling my conscious mind to reconsider fears of wrong doing, learned at my mother's knee, in hopes of freeing my whole self to adventure, cautiously, ever more deeply into uncharted territory whenever a sense of adventure beckons me to muster the courage to experience for myself that which I'd been taught to fear, and over these past several years, you've watched me tunnel, determinedly, through my wall of denial in hopes that my quest for insight into deeper truth will continue to inspire my current trains of thought to light up with Aha! moments that free my mind, spirit and body from knuckling under to subconscious anxieties left unresolved in the aftermath of childhood trauma, which had, at that early time in life, scared my undeveloped cognitive skills half to death.

If you ask how all of this affects the ongoing development of harmonic familial relationships, I'd reply:  Offspring observe and feel inspired by each parent's disconnectedness from or connectedness to personal growth...

If the past is finally past and the future remains unknown then the sweetness of today's heartfelt smiles, as seen in photos, reflects a path, where positively focused, open minded attitudes continue to expand our mindsets as each of us grows ever more conscious of appreciating this fact:  Life's blessings are more often earned than bestowed.  In short ... 

Good things come not to those who wait, passively or wail inconsolably but rather to those who work, patiently (and often times, passionately) to achieve long range goals, suggesting that unique individuals, working as team mates, can brainstorm toward accomplishing that which may seem like impossible dreams once defensive reactiveness stops running interference with winning game plays that save the day in the nick of time by achieving one first down at a time ...

On another note, I had a dream, last night

Not a nightmare but not a sweet dream by any stretch of my imagination

As the content of this dream has meaning for

No one but me, I'll cut right to the chase:

Yet again, intuition, speaking from a subconscious dream state
Cautions my conscious mind to remain alert
Because as soon as I get too cocky for my own good

Reality will be sure to knock my hard won sense of balance for a loop ...

And thus does the content of last night's dream suggest that

As grounded as I feel, today, tis wise to remember

The classic nature of life's unpredictably ...

Or, quoting Laugh In's Rosanadana:  It's always something!

This too ...

When I write of embracing myself as a whole

That does not mean to say my less desirable traits

Are given carte blanche to run away with the sun, stars and moon

Leaving darkness behind for everyone else to

Muddle their way through life, blindly, on their own
Please make no mistake ...
Freeing my heart to soar with joy does not
Cast my sense of self discipline to the winds
All I'm saying is this:

Insight into my conscious decision to
Embrace myself as a whole suggests

A personal need to expand my mindset to accept and integrate

Both sides of myself instead of drawing forth

The wet noodle with which to flog myself, as had
Been true in the past, whenever

My decision to meet my needs superseded

Meeting needs of loved ones, whose

Personal interests and desires may have

Differed so much from my own as to have contributed to

My subconscious need to figure out how best to fulfill

Personal interests and desires of my own on my own ... within reason

You see, each time I consciously embrace the sum of
My traits as comprising my whole as

I would with a friend, a sense of compassion for
My unmet needs and subconscious fears feels
Less angst ridden than before, suggesting that
Balance is directly opposed to

Existing in a persistent state of
Victim mode, self righteous mode or on middle ground

A true sense of balance suggests the mindful adoption of

A decision making process that frees my whole self to

Explore and feel the full range of God given human emotions by

Tethering my trains of thought to the concept of I'm ok/you're ok ...

And as this positive change in my attitude

Makes short work of judgmental guilt trips, all around

I hope to partake in re-strengthening

Deeply valued relationships, knowing that

One change leads to another, so hopefully, with patience intact

That which goes around may come home to roost before too long
You know the refrain:
If the bird was ever yours

It will freely fly full circle through your window—
As long as the window to your soul remains open and welcoming ...

PS

I awoke and began to read before

Intuitive thought inspired me to
Switch screens from iBooks to Blog ... Ahhh

Imagine a deeply peaceful sigh breaking into

A cheek splitting grin as I slip out of bed, eager

To greet the first day of the rest of

My rebalanced, yet unpredictable life ...

As to the wet noodle...

All this diving for insight into clarity

Has made me hungry, so

I ate it