773 BIG RED ... CHICK MAGNET ... ON THE SAME PAGE—UNTIL ... Part 14

I don't remember what narrowed the men's choice down to Honda
I don't remember what it was about the Civic that excited our sons
I do remember the sticker appealing to my sons' father
I do remember standing before the Civic and declaring—No way!
I do remember four heads spinning toward me in surprised dismay
I do remember understanding why my need for safety
Injected strength into my choice to staunchly stand my ground
Guess you might say that my need to create
A protective sense of physical safety around my family
Took precedence over all other needs for this reason:
I do remember awakening in intensive care after our accident

However, I'd no clue that while standing my ground
In the showroom, back then
A huge portion of my well developed need
To insulate the well being of my family within a sense of safety
Was actually rooted in a time when
I was three and all sense of family safety exploded

Thus catalyzing subconscious fear to unwittingly
Assume control over much of my mind after

I—along with the rest of my family—
Had felt traumatized by
The unexpected, utterly confounding, tragic loss of
My sweet, little sister Janet's innocent, young life—
Story posted somewhere near the beginning of my blog:
TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
Up above the world so high
Like an angel in the sky ...

Part one of TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR
Was published on August 6th 2011
Post #220