Though feeling peaceful, today, I’m also in limbo. We have no clue as to whether this protocol of oral chemo has been attacking cancer cells traveling through my blood stream (last month’s tumor marker test was not good), and we’ve no clue as to how radiation treatments will affect the tumor in my neck. My PET scan is scheduled for Dec. 12th. That’s a month from now. Please—no new tumors.
Please! Please! Please!
Going to Mayo, every day, keeps cancer on my mind.
How does that allow for my spirit feeling peaceful?
A mindful sense of mental compartmentalization.
The peaceful portion of my mind exists separately from the mental compartment where my connection to reality accepts the ultimate meaning of stage four cancer..
So hopefully, you can see why common sense suggests my enjoyment of life, day to day, rather than wasting time considering that which lies too far ahead to determine what to actually fear.
I've also found that being a positively focused, kindhearted gentle person hosts a peaceful soul.
🙋🏻♀️😊🌈🍀
Once radiation treatments are complete, we plan to drive to CA, again, where so much time is spent enjoying loved ones that, other than fatigue, I tend to ‘forget’ about serious health issues, sometimes for days! And upon our return from CA, mid Dec., my sister, brother-in-law and nephew (Matt’s family) plan to arrive on the first day of Chanukah offering our family yet another heartfelt celebration of love as their presence will presently be a great present for all of us to enjoy, for sure!. 
Matt, Melissa, Josh (7) and Jordan (4)
🙋🏻♀️🥰🌈🍀🌟🇺🇸Annie
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