HEALTH UPDATE #11A (posted in a state of incompletion)

Good Morning,
(First of all:  Why the font is blue, my brain has no clue.)
Sooo, I’ve been hospitalized near my home since a week ago, tonight, unable to walk more than three steps with my walker without feeling need to collapse to the ground so as not to black out on the spot.  And that being the case, with the help of my walker to lean on, I’d lower myself to the floor and lie there, sometimes for as long as half an hour until my breathing calmed enough to stand up, and after three steps, down I’d go, again.  As it took three hours for my body to convey me from Will’s car in our garage (following a blood test at The clinic) into our bedroom, we knew all was not well.  The shot I’d received the day after my last chemo infusion had failed to stimulate my bone marrow to produce new blood cells, so my body has been experiencing anemia to a severe degree.

After being admitted at about 3am, a week ago, I received a unit of red blood cells (hemoglobin) followed by another bone marrow stimulating injection that differs from the first, and then, on Valentine’s Day, my platelets plummeted, so in addition to the shot, which I now receive, daily, I was transfused with a unit of platelets, as well.

As this is all due to the depression of my bone marrow (yet another side effect of chemo’s present protocol), my blood counts remained shut down much more rigorously than had been expected, so I’m betting that a third protocol may be in the planning, because the dysfunctional state of my blood cell production must readjust from being so severely depressed as to have physically de-energized my body close to completely.  Once normal production rates rise, I’ll walk on my own and be able to take good care of myself at home.

This weakening has naught to do with personal strengths and everything to do with my body’s need to get my crashing numbers up to snuff; which is why my medical team is working to re-regulate my blood cell production so that the level of each component of each cell will rise, naturally on its own, as had been true before invasive infusions of chemo ran interference with my body’s ability to create change for the better by itself.

Although my appetite also remains depressed, I’m choosing to ingest, digest and absorb protein, veggies, fruit and whole grains at each meal as well as ordering protein shakes, every day. As my numbers rise, Will and David have been motivating my spirit to literally advance from taking three steps forward (aided by my walker while a wheel chair followed me, in which I’d needed to sit down to catch my breath so as not to suddenly sink to the floor) to circling the corridor outside of my room, which was quite a leap, suggesting the fact that having re-energized my body with blood cells in which every component exists in balance with all of the others is necessary to enjoying an independent life.  With each infusion of chemo, my current level of self awareness heightens, most especially when the on-going nature of regaining and maintaining my body’s good health is the subject at hand.

As to the health of my spirit, its well-being continues to be re-energized by personal will, positive attitude and love flowing freely in abundance, back and forth through the air, and thus is my spiritual good health so robust as to be unaffected by the severity of my body’s anemic condition.

As the week progressed, a transfusion of platelets plus two units of hemoglobin proved necessary, and one of my personal goals was to advance over step one and step two until I felt able to utilize my walker to convey me safely to and from the bathroom.  It’s become transparently apparent that well-balanced cells of oxygenated blood are necessary if we are to transport our bodies to where the mind wants to go, and anything that interferes with the natural state of healthy blood flow will hinder us from achieving the most simple short range goal no matter how much we believe in strength of mind and spirit, which is why we hear listen to our bodies, most expressly after infusions of chemo are disrupting natural functions, all of which connect to the on-going or disruptive state of our well being.

My mind is occupied with reading, resting and penning these pep talks to myself as I value calming statements that motivate me to heighten my level of patience.  And having expressed the physical condition, my body and spirit, my mind has grown tired and as my brain is part of my body, and as I’ve gained insight into listening to my body when it asks me to pause for a rest, resting my whole self is what I plan to do as soon as I wish you and your loved ones a happy good humored, relaxing, belated Valentine’s Day.  And now, with hopes that all is well at your end,  let’s hope my bloodwork shows improvement, very soon.
Annie💝🌈🌻🙋🏻‍♀️;