Sunday, August 30, 2015

1399 INTRO TO MY INEXPERIENCED ADVENTURES INTO PARENTING Part 32

2015
Common sense suggests that
Emotional complexity is not supposed to be
Simple to understand, which is why it's necessary to
Brainstorm toward clarity before
Explanations make sense, all around

If making sense of emotional complexity proves
Challenging for adults
Imagine the intricate thought processing that
Proves necessary while an adult attempts to create
A semblance of clarity for a child, who
Has yet to comprehend that
Just as with everything of importance ...
Two sides of love exist ...
One creating joyful connection, the other loss and sadness, which
Is why adopting a positively focused attitude, concerning
Reconnection is everything
An example of simplifying emotional complexity for
A child took place, this morning ...
You see, Will and I have spent the last fourteen days in
Paradise with all our kids, and their kids, too ... Which
Explains why less of my time, over these past idyllic two weeks
Was spent writing to you while more time was spent
Enjoying that which I've worked to achieve (by way of
Keeping positive focus intact no matter what hurtle created
A detour, separating me from attaining)
My primary goal in life, and if you asked me to name that goal, I'd reply:

My primary goal is to make better use of my think tank, daily, by honing my brainstorming power of concentration until such time as heartfelt insight into deeper truth (existent within my DNA), emerges, and each time insight into deeper truth enlightens my conscious awareness, a sense of inherent wisdom, passed down through the ages, dawns on me intuitively, simplifing emotional complexity so naturally as to cause a narrow mind set to expand enough to embrace choices, which undeserved guilt had once deemed 'bad', when, in truth, these choices, misperceived as bad during childhood, allow my growing sense of emotional maturity to feel free to nurture personal needs without feeling selfish.  And though identifying and eliminating self imposed guilt had once felt impossible, my brain's innate potential to brainstorm has had sufficient practice at replacing fear of selfishness with an expansive sense of self awareness, which offers each of us endless opportunities to embrace our existential right of self empowerment, as never before.

Each time I trust my processor to work, as though all on its own, to deepen its understanding of emotional complexity in depth, I find my brain capable of communicating with such simplicity as to have won the trust of children as young as four and five years old, whose innocence depends upon adults, who have learned how to balance passion to satisfy personal need with self control.  In fact, here's an example of my having simplified emotional complexity by way of engaging in a 'heart-to-heart' with a four and five year old, whose sadness at my leaving, this morning, spoke of depths of love so profound as to have caused two pairs of great big brown puppy dog eyes to well with emotion while lumps of love, backing up in their throats, rendered them speechless ...

Setting the scene:
Two weeks ago, Will and I chose to pack so much stuff into our car (think George Carlin) that my husband was sure the doors and trunk would bounce open every time he hit the brakes, though by the time I'd finished organizing, that was not the case, and having stuffed our stuff into every nook and cranny until our sophisticated, four door sedan resembled a shinny black sausage, we squeezed into our bucket seats and backed out of our garage, aiming to leave the desert behind at its seltering worst.  Then, today, having packed ourselves into the front bucket seats of our faithful sausage on wheels, again, Will and I can be seen driving home after having enjoyed an idyllic stay in paradise with Barry, Marie, Tony, Ray, and Steven, Celina, Ravi, and David on the coast.

If nothing in life is perfect then why did these two weeks of family togetherness feel idyllic to me?  Because, from beginning to end, one primary goal remained uppermost in my mind, and my personal sense of joy has had reason to soar with fulfillment as I perceived that specific goal moving through its positively focused process of being achieved on a day to day basis, straight through to its heartfelt culmination, today, as everyone chimed in to rejoicefully proclaim these past two weeks to have provided each one with the best family vacation ... Ever!

If you ask how the idyllic aspect of these past fourteen days unfolded, one by one, culminating in the necessity to simplify emotional complexity while hugging two precious tykes, whose long faces and puppy dog eyes expressed how deeply their hearts longed not to say good bye ...
I'd reply ...

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