1967
Though the rawness of Jack's desire to enjoy
A wild thing of his own leaves us speechless
I wouldn't be surprised if husband and wife exchange words
After bidding Will and his pet leopard, good night, or
Perhaps not, since I've no clue what goes on
Behind our neighbors' closed door just as they've
No way to know what takes place when
Will and I are, together ... alone
At any rate, having little conscious awareness of my
Instinctive participation in the game of Chase and Switch
My intelligence does not realize that I've been chasing Will
Ever since we broke up, five years ago (right after
My high school graduation) ...
And though we got back together, six weeks
Later, after a chance meeting, down town
(More about that break up and patch up, when that story feels
Ripe for the pickin's) reconnection does not mean that
Both people offer love to each other as openly and completely as
That which had become my habit during childhood after
My beloved grandpa and baby sister 'disappeared', unexpectedly
And mysteriously, forever, just a few weeks apart—
And though at three, I'd no conscious clue of
How fleeting life can be, reflection suggests that
From that grievous time on
I'd harbored this subconscious belief:
If I love you, you'll receive only the best of me
Regardless of how little you offer in return, because
It's my way to ensure that I'll not take time spent
With a precious person for granted, and as I'd
Experienced fate snatching loved ones away
Without offering me a chance to say 'I love you, goodbye'
You'll have no reason to doubt the depth of my love unless
Your defense system builds a wall that shuts me out ...
And to this very day, that's the way
I freely (intuitively) choose to live my life—offering
Only the best of myself, indicative of this fact:
Once you've won my love
Your heart can feel assured that my heart expands to
Hold one and all, suggesting why, presently
There's no reason to fear game playing, at least not
On my end of the rope ...
BTW: Do you recall a post, which, written
Early on in my blogging history
Had clearly stated that one missing detail is
Empowered to transform a story into that which it was not?
Well, if we back track to the beginning of this intro to parenting
(Which got sidetracked when stream of consciousness chose to
Describe The Leopard Lady and The Big Snow of '67)
You may remember my writing that Jack encountered
The Leopard Lady on the landing between
Their front doors, which were situated close enough to share in
A furtive kiss, thus leading the imaginative reader to
Believe that no matter how responsible this pair of
Good souls proved to be, a foreshadowing of
Adultery was forthcoming, when, in truth
Two couples had peopled that scene rather than
Two people ... And the fact that that detail had not
Been revealed, early on, may have served to
Derail your thought process, which, upon
Leaping ahead, might have freed your imagination to create
A fantasy of your own making, which is common to
Human nature, as a whole, suggesting the
Importance of this insight into experiencing
A life well lived: If we hope to live life fully engaged
It's important to pay mind to being consciously attuned to
Each moment as it unfolds while simultaneously
Acquainting ourselves with the host of
Contradictive forces that vie for dominance
Within our own brains or else you can be assured of
Not knowing yourself as well as you'd thought ...
And not until you've gained insight into
Recognizing your contradictive traits with
A greater semblance of clarity will
You be able to accept the contradictive traits of others, which
In addition to irritating you to no end ...
Actually mirror your own ...
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