Saturday, December 13, 2014

1215 PAUSE HIGH SCHOOL ...FRESHMAN YEAR Part 2

2014
Guess what???
I'm smiling from ear to ear!
I actually found a question in yesterday's comment box!  Hurray!
Here it is:
The insight that your granddaughter's birth renewed some PTSD has me wondering. Did you have the same fears when you had your own children? Did it wear off or did you just adapt around it?

Astute question!
Though I'm itching to answer, immediately, intuition is cautioning me to ask for your patience.  Please feel assured that once readiness ripens, my memory bank will withdraw a reply that's sure to satisfy your curiosity.

In the meantime, here's a question for you:  Are you aware of why I choose to make use of words like:  intuition, thought processor, think tank, conscious awareness, attitude, mindset, defense system,, memory, subconscious fear, complex emotional reactiveness, denial, attitude, logic, reassessment, brainstorming, insight, readjustment, balance and clarity?

I hope you'll take a moment to ponder that question before seeking my answer, below ...

Each time I write about a decision-making process, I work carefully at word choice for this reason:  I believe, that for the most part, we each consider our brain to be an organ, like the pancreas, kidney or liver, which functions, autonomically, on its own, as a whole, but since the opposite proves true, the precise nature of my choice of words indicates the frequency with which separate portions of our brains can be trained to function in an emotionally mature, knowledgable thoughtful, well balanced fashion.  Though we can't change liver function on the spot and though it's difficult modify our heartbeats when anxiety spikes, we can choose to control many operative functions of our brains, which prove as confusing as they are complex.  Though during childhood, we're taught to control, deny, reject, suppress or repress many natural emotional reactions, it's often true that denial, rejection, suppression and repression fool with our sense of clarity, which, over the long haul, can prove quite unhealthy.

Each time I address a particular portion of my brain, I hope you're watching me work to retrain dysfunctional reactions, based in fears, which, having been repressed due childhood trauma, influence my decision-making process, today.  This hough, at first, I believe my decisions are based in logic, eventually,  my intuitive quest into self discovery offers my think tank insight into those times when my defense system has fooled my think tank into believing that I know why I've chosen to do 'this' instead of brainstorming toward clarity where a balanced state of emotion and logic illuminates that which I really want to achieve at my core.  If you ask how I know when subconscious fear is actively bamboozling my thought processor's sense of clarity, I'll reply:  Once a fearful feeling has usurped control over my think tank's sense of clarity, the expansive nature of my choices seem limited for this reason:  Rather than inspiring a well balanced sense of creativity, fear stimulates feelings of anxious confusion, disorganization, frustration, and as I feel stuck, or head-achy, or somewhat dispirited ... I'm not corny, at all!  Why am I not corny?  As long as fear overshadows clarity, my sense of humor darkens, as well.

Bottomline, a think tank that functions in a well balanced manner considers emotion and logic.  A think tank that's functioning in a well balanced manner discerns those times when the defense system is running the show.  Before courage can gain control over a fearful mindset, I take time out to consider which of my trains of thought prove so closed minded as to limit my view of choices to one track.  Once I gain insight into which mindset is in need of  expansive, attentive reassessment, anxiety is no longer a limiting factor, suggesting that a subconscious mindset, based in unidentified fear, is no longer empowered to bamboozle my sense of logic.  Once my sense of logic feels free to brainstorm with creativity, my think tank is no longer stuck in a rut where a muddied sense of clarity pushes heartfelt goals just beyond my reach ...

Each time I choose to write words like intuition, thought processor, think tank, conscious awareness, attitude, confusion, defense system, anxiety, suppression, repression, memory, subconscious fear, insecurity, complex emotional reactiveness, view point, anxiety, denial, logic, emotion, reassessment, brainstorming, insight, readjustment, balance, clarity, epiphany, courage, patience, step-by-step expansion of mindsets, personal choices and self empowerment leading to the pure joy that accompanies each individuated self assertive actualization, it's my hope that as you read, your think tank is actively absorbing an ever deepening awareness of this fact:  Your brain functions are divided into as many, diverse, interconnected compartments as mine, and as you become practiced at identifying, overseeing and managing each 'department', you'll free your think tank to maintain a well balanced sense of control over the interconnected complexities of your brain's functionality in a manner that proves less subconsciously fearful ,  thus far healthier than ever before.  In short, you'll hire yourself as your own well trained, department store manager, who calls upon the entire operation to brainstorm toward creative, positively focused solutions, which prove workable when courageous attitudes, laced with good humor, prove necessary to achieving a joyful sense of long range success.

As an appointment is drawing close
I'll publish today's train of thought, as it stands, right now
And if editing proves necessary  ...
I'll tackle clarity when time permits ☺️

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