By way of EMDR, I've come to discern the difference between knowing I am safe on a cognative level vs. feeling unsafe deep inside my mind.
Anxiety is a signal from the central nervous system that 'something' is amiss. As anxiety is an instinctive reaction, it's wise to identify that which is undermining your sense of personal safety. If I cannot identify the reason for my anxiety or if my reaction continues to heighten then that leads me to question whether a 'forgotten' memory, locked behind my defensive wall, may be stirring deep within the subconscious portion of my mind. And in truth, that blocked memory is threatening my sense of safety to a heightened degree, unnecessarily, today. Each time that's true, no one is giving me a hard time but me ...
For example:Let's say anxiety arises when a certain person or a specific group of people come into view. If I can't pinpoint what it is about their presence that makes me feel threatened then I may be harboring a subconscious mental block concerning an earlier time in my life when my self esteem suffered such a staggering blow that, left in its unidentified state, this unhealed injury is still so raw as to arise from behind my defensive wall, festering anew, again and again ...
During sessions of left/brain, right/brain eye movement desensitization reprocessing my therapist leads me to minimize anxiety by guiding my conscious mind to uncloak unidentified insecurities, which arise, today.
Once an insecurity has been exposed to my conscious mind, my therapist makes further use of EMDR by coaching me to rewire (reprocess, restructure) my emotional reaction, so that the presence of this person or group of people no longer trigger inferior (subservient) feelings of insecurity within me. Each time another subconscious insecurity dissipates, I can actually feel my self esteem strengthen as a healthier whole.
Once I come to understand that which triggered subconscious anxiety to rise, situations that feel similar to the one that had traumatized a portion of my mind when I was too young to comprehend how swiftly life swings from simple and sunny to stormy and complex are disarmed.
In short, EMDR facilitates my path toward self discovery in this way:
During sessions of EMDR, scary secrets, buried within my subconscious during childhood, osmose through my defensive wall, piece by piece. Once puzzling secrets, which I kept from myself, are exposed to my conscious mind, I can see where an event, which had proved too complex for the simplistic mind of a child to comprehend, had been misperceived in such a way as to have caused me to unknowingly heap layers of undeserved guilt upon my own head. Each time I release a scary secret, thus relieving my subconscious of another piece of
baggage, my conscious sense of self awareness brightens, my spirit lightens, and another half baked strength shores up :)
If you'd like to know how subconscious secrets are coaxed to osmose into my conscious mind, thus expanding my sense of clarity into bigger pictures more than ever before ... Please stay tuned :)
Anxiety is a signal from the central nervous system that 'something' is amiss. As anxiety is an instinctive reaction, it's wise to identify that which is undermining your sense of personal safety. If I cannot identify the reason for my anxiety or if my reaction continues to heighten then that leads me to question whether a 'forgotten' memory, locked behind my defensive wall, may be stirring deep within the subconscious portion of my mind. And in truth, that blocked memory is threatening my sense of safety to a heightened degree, unnecessarily, today. Each time that's true, no one is giving me a hard time but me ...
For example:Let's say anxiety arises when a certain person or a specific group of people come into view. If I can't pinpoint what it is about their presence that makes me feel threatened then I may be harboring a subconscious mental block concerning an earlier time in my life when my self esteem suffered such a staggering blow that, left in its unidentified state, this unhealed injury is still so raw as to arise from behind my defensive wall, festering anew, again and again ...
During sessions of left/brain, right/brain eye movement desensitization reprocessing my therapist leads me to minimize anxiety by guiding my conscious mind to uncloak unidentified insecurities, which arise, today.
Once an insecurity has been exposed to my conscious mind, my therapist makes further use of EMDR by coaching me to rewire (reprocess, restructure) my emotional reaction, so that the presence of this person or group of people no longer trigger inferior (subservient) feelings of insecurity within me. Each time another subconscious insecurity dissipates, I can actually feel my self esteem strengthen as a healthier whole.
Once I come to understand that which triggered subconscious anxiety to rise, situations that feel similar to the one that had traumatized a portion of my mind when I was too young to comprehend how swiftly life swings from simple and sunny to stormy and complex are disarmed.
In short, EMDR facilitates my path toward self discovery in this way:
During sessions of EMDR, scary secrets, buried within my subconscious during childhood, osmose through my defensive wall, piece by piece. Once puzzling secrets, which I kept from myself, are exposed to my conscious mind, I can see where an event, which had proved too complex for the simplistic mind of a child to comprehend, had been misperceived in such a way as to have caused me to unknowingly heap layers of undeserved guilt upon my own head. Each time I release a scary secret, thus relieving my subconscious of another piece of
baggage, my conscious sense of self awareness brightens, my spirit lightens, and another half baked strength shores up :)
If you'd like to know how subconscious secrets are coaxed to osmose into my conscious mind, thus expanding my sense of clarity into bigger pictures more than ever before ... Please stay tuned :)
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