So ... how am I to embrace or at least accept change taking place within my mind that I do not yet comprehend? I place my faith in these facts: Intuition has always led me toward gaining insight into lightening my sense of 'baggage. Insight into self awareness expands my choices. Insight into necessary changes brightens my life's path. Then, in addition to keeping those aspects of my history in mind, I remind myself that insight into unidentified trauma, festering raw within my subconscious, provides only my first step toward healing.
Next, I remind myself that each time my subconscious unlocks a mental block at least enough to allow one more missing puzzle piece to filter into my conscious mind, my sense of self discovery deepens, again. Self discovery enhances self awareness, which suggests the ability to identify vulnerabilities and strengths.
As retrieving lost pieces of each trauma does not suffice for healing injured self esteem, I remind myself that my main purpose for immersing my mind in therapy is to identify those times when an injured area of my self esteem unconsciously infiltrates into my thoughts, causing me to experience insecurity, which invades my sense of safety, thus exacerbating emotional pain ... unnecessarily..
Next, I remind myself that each time my subconscious unlocks a mental block at least enough to allow one more missing puzzle piece to filter into my conscious mind, my sense of self discovery deepens, again. Self discovery enhances self awareness, which suggests the ability to identify vulnerabilities and strengths.
As retrieving lost pieces of each trauma does not suffice for healing injured self esteem, I remind myself that my main purpose for immersing my mind in therapy is to identify those times when an injured area of my self esteem unconsciously infiltrates into my thoughts, causing me to experience insecurity, which invades my sense of safety, thus exacerbating emotional pain ... unnecessarily..
You see, healing injured self esteem requires my brain to reprocess a traumatic experience in a nurturing, knowledgeable environment that feels safe. During sessions of EMDR, my adult intelligence works to reprocess and absorb insight into yesteryear's trauma differently from that which I'd misperceived as a child. Then at the end of each session, it's the adult who carries an ever-deepening sense of personal safety home with me.
Though working to make my way through this mental maze is often exhausting, I'll continue to post my progress to the best of my ability as insights into mindful change continue to emerge, one at a time ...
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