Sooo, when we last saw Annie , she was a seventeen-year old high school senior, whose sunny disposition was entertaining three fishermen in a boat, one of whom was her first boyfriend, Will.
Will is nineteen and a college sophomore when he first lays eyes on Annie. By the end of their first date, a blind date, Will declares himself as smitten as Joseph had been at twelve. Just to be clear, Will does not admit his feelings to Annie. He admits feeling smitten to his father, who can not offer any advice, because he'd succumbed to a lengthy illness, meaning that Will is declaring his feelings for Annie at the foot of his beloved father's grave. Dad, this is the girl I'm going to marry.
As Annie is self described as a preteen wallflower, vital changes must have taken place within a space of five years. Or perhaps, due to her unfortunate experiences during a crucial state of development, Annie has developed a habit of releasing memories, distorted by insecurities in need of exploring. In retrospect, Annie needs to have her head examined, but that will not happen until stories unfold down the road. With that knowledge in hand, it may be best to shift our time machine into reverse, so we can get a bird's eye view of the surprising nature of Annie's seamless transition from deeply confounded, wall flowered preteen to high school freshman, soon to be swept up into a social circle that will exceed her wildest dreams. Makes you wonder why it's true, at times, that we cannot sense when or why reversal of fortune is in the air. Take Annie for example: We'll watch her walk through life, assuming that unexpected changes, flying in on the wings of the fickle finger of fate, will just as swiftly fly out. And thus, behind Annie's sparkle, lies a wobbly sense of safety, which remains focused upon the 'probability' that her state of well being is sure to vaporize in such a way that the future will lay out before her as lonely as she'd been as a t'ween. This points to the fact that Annie is afraid to blink lest the other shoe drop. And thus is hyper-vigilance born.
Since Annie has no clue as to why such a miraculous reversal of fortune is hers to enjoy, sudden popularity offers this insecure fourteen year old no insight into why one as ungainly and thus unworthy of positively focused attention as she believes herself to be is about to be saved by the bell. This teen will matriculate through four years of high school feeling swept into a circle too popular to have ever noticed her.
Since Annie's sense of self is distorted, she simply can't see herself as others see her. And as she moves forward through life, she'll always feel so grateful, perplexed and careful as not to rock boats. Annie feels as though she'd won some kind of lottery, which has highly improved her life, by holding up a winning ticket that belonged to someone else. With no understanding of what attracts others to her, Annie remains concerned that this magic spell may break if she so much as blinks. Thus does the acquired trait of hyper-vigilance become habitual. As Annie's budding leadership skills had succumbed during crucial years in terms of preteen development—she never takes this golden egg, which has astoundingly dropped into her lap, for granted. Actually, that's true to this day. I mean, what drops in, unexpectedly, can drop out just as quickly, right?
Since our time machine has just pulled into the parking lot adjacent to Annie's high school, let's spend a moment reviewing those 7th and 8th grade experiences, which had caused Annie's self assessment to get stuck in the dark, as though glued to the bottom of a paper bag, in which she'll unknowingly lug excess baggage, wherever she goes. What you've witnessed by way of this post is a person's mind dividing in half. Though Annie's baggage weighs one half of her spirit down, the brightness of her ever ready smile conveys her delight at having been miraculously saved from an utterly confounded state of loneliness, which will haunt her well being until she engages in post traumatic therapy, known as EMDR ... (Eye Movement Desensitization Reconditioning) Or in my words: The rewiring of the thought processor's negatively focused impressions.
Uh, on second thought, let's review Annie's 12th and 13th years when next we meet. In this way our minds may linger on that last paragraph, which pinpoints classic insights into why a popular, high achieving mind may wander through a hazy maze, pretty much forever, if self awareness does not deepen, somewhere down the road ...
Will is nineteen and a college sophomore when he first lays eyes on Annie. By the end of their first date, a blind date, Will declares himself as smitten as Joseph had been at twelve. Just to be clear, Will does not admit his feelings to Annie. He admits feeling smitten to his father, who can not offer any advice, because he'd succumbed to a lengthy illness, meaning that Will is declaring his feelings for Annie at the foot of his beloved father's grave. Dad, this is the girl I'm going to marry.
As Annie is self described as a preteen wallflower, vital changes must have taken place within a space of five years. Or perhaps, due to her unfortunate experiences during a crucial state of development, Annie has developed a habit of releasing memories, distorted by insecurities in need of exploring. In retrospect, Annie needs to have her head examined, but that will not happen until stories unfold down the road. With that knowledge in hand, it may be best to shift our time machine into reverse, so we can get a bird's eye view of the surprising nature of Annie's seamless transition from deeply confounded, wall flowered preteen to high school freshman, soon to be swept up into a social circle that will exceed her wildest dreams. Makes you wonder why it's true, at times, that we cannot sense when or why reversal of fortune is in the air. Take Annie for example: We'll watch her walk through life, assuming that unexpected changes, flying in on the wings of the fickle finger of fate, will just as swiftly fly out. And thus, behind Annie's sparkle, lies a wobbly sense of safety, which remains focused upon the 'probability' that her state of well being is sure to vaporize in such a way that the future will lay out before her as lonely as she'd been as a t'ween. This points to the fact that Annie is afraid to blink lest the other shoe drop. And thus is hyper-vigilance born.
Since Annie has no clue as to why such a miraculous reversal of fortune is hers to enjoy, sudden popularity offers this insecure fourteen year old no insight into why one as ungainly and thus unworthy of positively focused attention as she believes herself to be is about to be saved by the bell. This teen will matriculate through four years of high school feeling swept into a circle too popular to have ever noticed her.
Since Annie's sense of self is distorted, she simply can't see herself as others see her. And as she moves forward through life, she'll always feel so grateful, perplexed and careful as not to rock boats. Annie feels as though she'd won some kind of lottery, which has highly improved her life, by holding up a winning ticket that belonged to someone else. With no understanding of what attracts others to her, Annie remains concerned that this magic spell may break if she so much as blinks. Thus does the acquired trait of hyper-vigilance become habitual. As Annie's budding leadership skills had succumbed during crucial years in terms of preteen development—she never takes this golden egg, which has astoundingly dropped into her lap, for granted. Actually, that's true to this day. I mean, what drops in, unexpectedly, can drop out just as quickly, right?
Since our time machine has just pulled into the parking lot adjacent to Annie's high school, let's spend a moment reviewing those 7th and 8th grade experiences, which had caused Annie's self assessment to get stuck in the dark, as though glued to the bottom of a paper bag, in which she'll unknowingly lug excess baggage, wherever she goes. What you've witnessed by way of this post is a person's mind dividing in half. Though Annie's baggage weighs one half of her spirit down, the brightness of her ever ready smile conveys her delight at having been miraculously saved from an utterly confounded state of loneliness, which will haunt her well being until she engages in post traumatic therapy, known as EMDR ... (Eye Movement Desensitization Reconditioning) Or in my words: The rewiring of the thought processor's negatively focused impressions.
Uh, on second thought, let's review Annie's 12th and 13th years when next we meet. In this way our minds may linger on that last paragraph, which pinpoints classic insights into why a popular, high achieving mind may wander through a hazy maze, pretty much forever, if self awareness does not deepen, somewhere down the road ...
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