CANCER COVID HATE CRIMES AND HAPPILY EVER AFTER

 So, you know how we’re told to ‘sleep on it’ when conflict resolution remains too foggy to unclog, overlong?  Well upon awakening this morning, I experienced the insight-driven dawning of three primary reasons, which, having combined into a bogged down trifecta, caused my current bout with mental strain to feel so complex as to have overwhelmed my processor, though, individually, none of these unresolved concerns has remained unnamed—

CANCER—threatening my life and that of my friends

COVID—new strains quick to sabotage vaccines

HATE CRIMES—unleashed to kill families at will

How does an intelligent, fast-thinking, solution-seeking mind, connected to an excessively empathetic heart, overcome feeling utterly overwhelmed when serious illness and several life saving surgeries in less than two years time have saddled my days with energy shortages that literally dizzy my mind?

I’d say that my subconscious Fixer, which has been shouldering weights as heavy as each of the three mentioned above, has offered my deeply stressed mind and saddened spirit sound reason to seek a safe haven to hideout from grieving too deeply over life’s harsh realities—wouldn’t yours?  And thus do we come to see how a processor, so severely taxed as to have been operating on overload for several years, craves to spend hours, every day, keeping company with one dimensional characters, who live their lives in novels where every problem, dilemma, relationship and conflict is consistently resolved, ending with—good people all living happily ever after.

Bottom line—I’ve gained the insight to see that having dedicated my life to offering love unconditionally finds me continually seeking out the clarity necessary to carve out a personal path where one change for the better leads toward the next so intuitively that my mind, heart and spirit remain strongly connected to the positive attitude of—never give up on yourself—ensuring that during those dark times when crises temporarily overwhelms peace of mind, my connection to inner peace remains as clear to me as a rainbow streaming across a blue sky that seems to go on forever … and though I can’t ‘fix’ the world or my body, I can rebalance my mind—and thank goodness for having gained insight into a personal strength as naturally self-empowering as that!

Annie