LOVE CONVEYS EVERYTHING THAT REMAINS UNSAID

When the unspoken topic at hand is heart-wrenching grief, lengthy periods of worry, depths of disillusionment or any combination of that trio of heavy, dark spirited emotional reactions aroused by whatever life has unfairly metted out, so much is left unsaid whenever we’re with our loved ones that it’s obvious that we’re each doing our best to make our way, day by day, through a deeply distressing time for a variety of reasons.  And each time we express our love for each other, everything else we want to say (that gets stuck behind a knot in our throats) is intuitively conveyed, though we may remain at a loss for words.

Actually, I’m having a down spirited kind of day.  So tired of feeling unwell and short of breath, which makes everything I do an effort.

So, rather than moping, I decided to shake up my sense of inertia in hopes that by getting something done, my flagging spirit might experience lift off.

With so many spots throughout our house in need of cleaning out and tidying up, Will helped me to re-organize the table top where a variety of materials associated with Ravi’s love of arts and crafts have been in need of ‘keeping, donating or tossing’.  And now, for the first time in two years, I can look at Ravi’s little corner of our family room with a sense of a job well done.

Believe me when I say that nothing short of self motivated determination fueled my spirit’s engine, today.  Over these past two years, with all of my energy aimed at survival, my natural neat-nut’s connection to tidy organization was on hiatus.  And though my spirit feels sick of feeling sick, perhaps my current need to confront how much these past three years have sucked is meant to alert me to the fact that a small portion of my mental and physical energy feels able to concentrate on living, which is quite different from surviving.

Something to consider …❤️.

👩🏻Annie

PS 

Though my spirit may not be soaring, today’s intuitive train of thought has offered me sound reason to feel better, this afternoon, than was true, this morning.