LAST NIGHT, MY PATIENCE CAME CLOSE TO COLLAPSING

This morning, let’s cut to the chase—
Last night’s MRI was overwhelming.

If my veins had cooperated that would not have been the case, but they’d been poked so many times in the hospital that it took 45 minutes and the use of an ultrasound machine to finally find one that didn’t collapse when the IV needle was inserted (yesterday’s MRI of my sternum and rib cage required contrast).

Though the MRI was scheduled for 6pm, by the time a vein near my wrist cooperated, I’d been sitting in an upright position for so long that most of my patience with discomfort was spent, and by the time I’d been readied for the MRI, tears rolled down my face as if releasing inner tension, which had been suppressed, was necessary before I could muster any reserves of patience, again.

Generally, I can manifest a sense of inner calm while the MRI machine is clattering away; however that proved very difficult, yesterday.  Although I’d managed not to move during the 45 minutes that images were being recorded, I was emotionally and physically exhausted by the time the MRI had been completed.  Upon arriving home at 9:15, my energy, having been utterly depleted, felt as collapsed as had been true of my veins.

Hopefully, today will offer up nothing more than peace and quiet.  Last night, I’d felt so fragile that I’d feared my pain level would be elevated, today; however, thankfully, that did not happen.

Last night marked the fourth time in a row that I’ve slept straight through without awakening in need of pain meds until about 7am.

Ever since July, I’ve been asking—is it September yet?  And today, each time that question slips out of my mouth, my smile appears, because I’m finally answered with a resounding—Yes! 🙋🏻‍♀️Annie

PS
Time for a retraction
I’d believed my pain level had not elevated, over night
However, that belief was stated before leaving my bed, this morning
Upon standing up to attend to my morning routine
Only half of it was done before my need to lie down felt profound
Generally, three hours after taking pain meds, I’m pretty much pain free
As that proved untrue as soon as I’d left my bed
There’s no doubt that I’ll be paying the piper for
Last night’s suppression of tension, today
When Will suggested an Ativan, I agreed and chose to
Lie back down and wait until ‘it does it’s thing’.