As Will's kidney stone has not yet passed, the urologist
Scheduled him for a ureterosopy laser plus stent to remove
Both stones on Thursday (A laparoscopic tube will
Scope them out, so as to withdraw each one, whole, and
Having keyed you in on the plan that will, hopefully, offer
Will relief, intuition is guiding the conscious portion of
My mind to remain productively occupied, today, by
Turning my thoughts toward spotlighting an attitude that
I consciously choose to adopt whenever
My peaceful state of mind finds it necessary to
Interact with a control freak (and perhaps
The control freak in question, today, happens to be
My retired fixer, who continues to live and breathe inside
My mind —and with that flash of insight shedding light upon
The path of patience that will hopefully be mine to tread until
Tomorrow morning when the urologist’s schedule highlight’s
Will’s name as being his next patient, who having been
Placed in a dream state will be wheeled into
The OR; however, that will not happen till tomorrow, so
For the rest of today, let’s observe my intuitive powers at
Work as I write, creating a train of thought that will
Calm the impatient portion of my mind that wants to
Fix Will’s problem STAT, which of course, I cannot, and
Knowing that my retired fixer cannot fix Will, guess what
My smart heart can work toward fixing, instead—
My impatience as well as my defense system so as to
Insure that zi react with compassion if Will gets
Jumpy, for sound reason, and with that said
Here comes my intuitive train of thought’s plan of
Action: I charge myself with remaining so calmly
Self aware of my desire to take good care of Will as to
Place any defensive or apprehensively self protective
Reaction in time out if I find myself confronted by
A person in pain whose voice proves to be as
Strong willed as I now know is true of my own—
You see, rather than feeling as if Will’s pain is
Attacking me (if his/her voice tones are harsher than
He knows), the intuitive portion of my think tank will
Guides me toward refortifying my calm state of mind so as to
Wholly embrace an expansive attitude of open-minded
Compassion that cordially invites the emotional reactions of
Others to relax in my presence while we each take turns
Expressing our opinions as if we are on the same side whenever
We find ourselves debating a point, thus detouring our
Conversation away from anxiety heightening so as to
Make us feel as if we are disagreeing so argumentatively as to
Dismiss the importance of listening skills that can readily
Separate experiential opinions that make sense from
Irrational imaginings that, if freed to escalate,tend to send
A pair of think tanks spirally toward a wildly
Uncontrolled emotionally unbalanced roller coaster ride, and
As this plan of action is not new to me, I can count on it
Leaping into the center ring at the first hint that that
Roller coaster is beginning to pick up steam inside
My head, and remaining aware of that reality, my ear remains
Open to listening for the pain or anxious reaction of
Another, indefensibly, and by way of attentive observance does
My thought processor’s connection to patience glean wisdom
From experiences that are not my own; in fact, I also
Find myself observing characters who people novels, which
Are so well-written as to stimulate my intuitive powers to
Direct my attention to consider which of my character traits
May prove as vulnerable and in need of change for the better as
Is true of the author’s characters, who, lacking in self awareness
Remain blind to their need to muster the courage necessary to
Set one’s ego aside, freeing an intelligent mind to
Ready itself to eat humble pie before striding toward
Self improvement becomes a possibility (suggesting that
Once your ego and mine stop standing guard at doors behind which
Our defense systems keep secrets repressed from
The conscious portion of our think tanks, that’s when
Your intuitive powers and mine are freed to emerge so as to
Invite our courageous sense of heightened consciousness to
Dive ever more deeply into events, long past, in hopes of
Surfacing with memories so enriched with insight as to
Make better use of hindsight to excavate deeper truths that
Our defense systems has distorted to protect our
Conscious awareness from feeling depths of pain too
Harsh to bear until such time a we have worked to gain and
Maintain such heightened levels of emotional
(Sself-disciplined) maturity as to re-examine
Situations that had felt far beyond our comprehension at
An earlier time when our defense systems had been employed to
Serve as gatekeepers until our intuitive powers sensed
Whether or not each one’s emotional intelligence had
Reached a level of readiness to uncover and consider a secret
Secreted from our conscious awareness, and not until
Both gatekeepers determine that readiness has
Ripened will a flash of insight magically melt away both
Self protective blindfolds, exposing conscious awareness to
A stellar moment of hindsight that spotlights
Deeper truth concerning a personal vulnerability, which
Proves in need of an attitudinal change for the better if
We are to brighten some darkened aspect of
Our personalities that has been shadowed within
A clouded sense of inner conflict for so long as to have
Distorted our spirit’s view of a situation, which can be
Thoroughly enjoyed once a permanent stance of
Mind expansion is yours and mine
You see, just as I enjoy sacred friendships with
Certain characters that people the novels, which
Line my shelves (causing my book collection to continue
To swell with favorites that I feel compelled to keep)
My heart craves the company of any real live person who
For sound reason, has become a treasured friend; in fact
My spirit actually feels spontaneous reason to lift each time
The windows to my soul glance up at my book shelves, and
I ‘find myself’ smiling at all of the kindred spirits who—
Welcoming my presence—seem to offer the humble yet
Courageous side of me a thumbs up that
Cheers me on each time I feel so self confident as to
Fling off the heavy mantle of yet another darkly shadowed
Self defeating inner conflict in favor of embracing
A highly personal sense of readiness to take another
Leap of faith toward absorbing a freedom that had felt
Trapped deep within my mind behind a solid brick wall made of
Self-conceived guilt in need of pulverizing or
Scooping out whole just as is true of
Will’s kidney stone, which, having caused ex nssive pain for
No good reason, has need of help to be expelled
(And once again, we come to see how, eventually
Intuitive thought draws everything that seems to be
Unrelated, together, as will be exemplified when
We consider the brilliance of an accomplished author’s
Strong sense of character development as
Can be seen, for example, within
The novel Little Fires Everywhere:
(My personal commentary concerning this page-turner will
Be italicized; all else will quote the author—and though I have
No clear idea as to where intuition is leading us next, I have
Faith in following with an open-minded attitude, because
Thus far, its batting average has been hard to beat ...
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