Andrew Wyeth said:
I paint my life.
Why?
Because that's what the artist feels driven to do, every day.
I say:
I pen my life—past and present
Why?
Because that’s what the communications instructor feels driven to do, every day
Why?
Because I believe it's vital to know where I've been so that with
Hindsight I’ll gain insight into how I’ve come to be where
I am, today, and since creating Change for the Better is
The name of my game, I hope to draw a clear picture depicting
How often intuition has guided my innermost thoughts toward
Mustering the courage to take leaps of faith, bolstered by
Positive attitudes, most especially when I’ve been given
Sound reason to ponder upon need to heighten my awareness of
Personal vulnerabilities in need of self improvement, and as
My friend Katie quests toward self improvement, as well
She and I have come to respect each other’s opinions while
Discussing any number of topics—take last weekend for example:
I had sound reason to respect how conscientiously Katie worked at
Shedding remnants of self imposed guilt which emerged when
She flew in to see me on the QT, because I, too, have
Experienced spikes of anxiety for that very same reason—
(BTW—any mistakes made during the editing process will be
Cleaned up after we celebrate Independence Day in the USA )
With lots of family (immediate and extended) as well as
Treasured friends living in close proximity to
Each other on the west coast, those I love number
Too many to visit if my stay lasts less than a week, and
While deciding who to call or not (so as to enjoy
Most of my time with my sons), my heart yearns to
Hug those who are so near and yet so far whenever
Time constraints prevent me from enjoying the intimacy of
One-on-one time with everyone—so though my love for
Many runs deep, my love for a few runs deeper yet—how deep?
Too deep to measure except to say that my pattern of loving
Runs every bit as deep as my processor tends to think, and
Past experience has offered me insight as to whose
Hearts will hurt if they hear (through the grapevine) that
I was in town but could not enjoy their company, so
In hopes of saving loved ones from feeling
Rejected, I choose to call only those whom I can see during
A brief stay, which cannot accommodate visits with one and all
And that decision, based in hindsight offers me the foresight to
Free my heart and mind to enjoy a relaxing get together with
A few without spreading myself so thin as to spend
My entire weekend calming down uprisings of
Anxiety while running from one loved one to another—in short
Over the years, hindsight has offered me insight into personal
Need to calm my mind so as to feel peaceful while
Satisfying my need to wholly enjoy intimate time with
Certain loved ones, knowing that during a lengthier stay
I'll be sure to include those who had been missed this time round, so
If I choose not to share my plans with everyone I love all of the
Time, my intention is to take care not to stir up defensive reactions—
Suggesting why I understand and fully respect
Katie's decision to secret the rarity of our personal trysts
While Katie was with me, our weekend, together, served up
A mixture of peaceful pleasures and unplanned strife offering
Me sound reason to see why my definition of extended family has
Expanded to include treasured friends of both genders and all
Ages with whom I do not share DNA, because the heartfelt
Presence of certain people is coveted when celebrating
Good times just as the soothing nature of their desire to be of
Help eases my way through trying times, suggesting why
Enjoying personal time with certain treasured individuals feels as
Necessary to my spirit’s well being as enjoying 'family time' with
Specific relatives who have grown to respect the uniqueness of
My personal needs just as I have grown to respect
The uniqueness of theirs—suggesting that all people's needs are not
Alike—which is why I expand upon The Golden Rule in this way:
I do not always do un to others that which I would have others do
Un to me based in this classic reality: If each of us is unique from
All others then common sense indicates that we do not share all of
The same needs, and if I limit my activities to serving the needs of
Others while setting aside, healthy needs, which prove unique to
My spirit's well being then my decision would disrupt
My inner peace for this reason: Rather than accepting and honoring
The uniqueness of my soul's personal needs I might
Charge myself guilty of wrong-doing, and if that mistake in
Judgment was mine then the self imposed nature of the
Inner conflict that would most certainly develop would prove worthy of
My think tank's reconsideration or else I must hold the narrow confines of
My mindset accountable for remaining stuck in a conflicted place rather than
Adjusting my attitude so as to free my processor to create change for the better by
Listening for intuitive guidance, which would surely suggest
Taking cautious steps toward expanding upon yesteryear’s
Thought patterns so as to free my smart heart to
Reclaim its rightful sense of inner peace, which is lost when we fail to
Consciously respect our innermost unmet needs, and with
That insight clearly in mind, tis true that only those who have
Shared certain experiences with one another may have developed
A unique set of inner needs that match each other’s, and
Now that you know why my quest for inner peace has chosen to
Expanded upon The Golden Rule, perhaps you may agree that
We, who have grown together by sharing the same experience, may
Eventually share an insight-driven understanding of
The ways in which experiential complexities reshape everyone of us into
The unique individuals whom we’ve grown to be, today, and thus does
Today's string of insights lead us to see why a mutually respectful series of
Similar growth spurts will ultimately connect two unique souls to feel like
An 'us' based in both having come to honor the uniqueness of
The self-respecting person, whom each of 'us' freely chooses to be within
The depths of our souls where deeper truth, concerning mutual needs
Assuages undeserved guilt so that inner peace dwells anxiety free—WHEW!
If, at this point, you think that last train of thought was so complex as to
Dizzy your mind—I, who challenged my processor to come up with
Words that would best express what I'm feeling inside—wholly agree!
And now that that mental feat has been achieved, let's ease our minds away
From thinking more deeply than ever before in favor of switching
Tracks to a train of thought that proves so linear in scope as to
Feel much more restful than proved true of the last, which, hopefully
Served to inspire your conscious connection to self awareness, along with
Mine, to dive for depth until our processors shared need to come up for air—
As to switching tracks, it occurs to me that you may want to ask:
So—what did the peaceful weekend planned with Katie offer up, which
Had most definitely not been planned? To which I'll reply:
So much happened that by the end of our 'peaceful' visit
I'd felt utterly exhausted on the one hand while on the other
I had sound reason to treasure every growth spurt that each of us
Has experienced, most especially over these past few years, because
The unplanned events of this weekend offered me insight into the fact that
Our friendship has cautiously risen from one plateau of respect to the next, offering
Us both a whole new level of conscious appreciation for our combined ability to
Work through conflict much more amiably, now, than had been true when
I'd felt need to respect my resistance to actively participate in each other's
Lives, causing us to separate for a period of two years—Why?
Because my power of intuitive thought suggests that strings of insight, which
Ease the stress of conflict resolution, did not inspire change for the better in
Both of us at exactly the same time—good thing neither of US gave up on
Our relationship, because, eventually our friendship resumed exactly
Where we’d left it to mature as much as did Katie and I, over time—
And that example of change for the better served to refortify
My intuitive stance, which continues to guide my positivity to
Never give up on achieving uniquely personal heartfelt goals, because
One never knows when intuitive readiness to embrace each next growth spurt
May take me and A by surprise, and if you picture me with
Tongue in cheek, dressed in red, white and blue, carrying a torch
You can see how today’s timely post serves to highlight
Each courageous leap of faith that has brightened my spirit’s smile with
Every insight-driven step I’ve taken toward celebrating
My personal need to enjoy self-liberation in a good natured fashion
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