Tuesday, March 29, 2016

1357 INSIGHTS ARE STUBBORN, STICKY LITTLE THINGS!

Last night, intuition whispered into my open ear while the rest of me slept so peacefully that strings of interconnected insights came tumbling out of my mind faster than conscious awareness could awaken, and since today's string of insights (offering glimpses into evolutionary religious changes) saw fit to land within post 1356—I see why these little buggers tend to be stubborn, sticky, little things that act as if they have minds of their own.

If you ask what makes me say such a thing, I'll reply:  Once a post is published, I choose to read it to absorb its main point more deeply than had been possible while my mind was engaged with the writing process, suggesting that irritation is aroused when my intent to be reading rather than rewriting feels thwarted.  In addition to feeling conflicted over irritating myself, I do not seek to irritate readers by recommending backtracking, repeatedly.

Though I respect the fact that intuition continues to direct my think tank to free insights to land wherever my sixth sense feels need to simplify layers of historical complexity, inner conflict causes my emotional reactivity to intensify, because I fear that you, like me, may become so irritated with suggestions to reread this post or that one as to stop following my blog ... And as you know, reacting fearfully or guiltily bugs me to no end.  In fact, each time insights emerge while I'm reading for absorption, forcing my hand to edit, yet again, I hear myself say:  Oh no, here it comes!  Another string of those little buggers, which are sure to buzz around inside my head until I agree to slide each one into this published post where it's most likely to strengthen the reader's absorption of clarity, concerning the main point that I'd worked to highlight, yesterday.

Thank goodness, thoughts, concerning clarity, trump fear, and as this change in my attitude resolves inner conflict, my mind musters the patience to trump irritation, illustrating this fact:  My brain, which serves as an emotional storehouse for unresolved abandonment issues, also contains a storehouse of knowledge, which empowers my decision-making process to listen up when common sense suggests the necessity of mustering the courage to sit my fear of abandonment in time out, freeing my smarts to remember to rouse a well-balanced view of my newly healed self image, and each time my re-adjusted self image remains clearly in view of my mind's eye, inner conflict resolves and inner peace is mine ... until the very next day when the same unplanned process of editing a previously published post pops up, offering my brain countless opportunities to practice enhancing my ability to differentiate between my little voice of fear vs intuitive thought, encouraging negative focus to embrace change for the better by empowering my decision-making process to consult with independent thought much more often than when my defensive attitude's wall of denial had blinded my conscious awareness to need to readjust my self image to match today's positively focused reality.  Whew!  

And so, each time intuitive thought (trumping a fear-based mindset)  compels me to edit a published post, repeatedly (as proves true of the one I'm rewriting, right now), My brain, working as a well-balanced whole, tells my irritation to see itself as an oyster, creating a pearl, and as that change in attitude wins my smile, negativity is quick to clam up.  Okay, I'm outahere before more of that sappy, cornball stuff seeps out, turning my gray matter into mush ...

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