I was close to completing and posting
My pictorial review, as promised, when
My computer went on the fritz
Oh no! Not again!
This revoltin'development has taken place so often that
I wonder if a portion of my hard drive is fried
Once again, all I get is a grey screen
Called my computer guru ... Twice
Followed each of her directives to the letter
Nada... Thus far
As you know me to be a die hard, who
Does not give up on anything of value
I'm not about to declare this ship sunk ...
At least not yet ... Why not?
Well first off, I know that stuck is not sunk
And since this computer, which conveys
My thoughts to you, is as complex as
The machine-like brains that exist within our heads
I'll call my guru for brain-trained guidance, again, before
My die hard spirit frees my thought processor to
Dub my computer Titanic
And though frustration yearns to flare
Intuitive thought suggests that
Time to muster a whale of patience is ripe
And as we have plans with dear friends, who've
Flown here from the North East to winter neath
The soothing caress of the desert sun
I'm short on writing time, so rather than
Working to resolve this mystery before sunset
My immediate plan of action is simple:
Leave a voice mail for computer guru
Then, having penned this post on my iPad
I'll nourish my spirit by consciously choosing to
Fully enjoy another sun-kissed day with
Treasured friends from college days
(Who, having fallen in love with
Our desert oasis, can't stop gushing happiness about
Having chosen blue skies over grey clouds), and
Knowing that tomorrow is Saturday, followed by
Sunday, comprising 48 hours, which
My guru devotes, each week, to resting her mind, thus
Warding off burn out, I'll fill you in
Tomorrow, as to whether my computer remains
Stuck in a grey cloud of mysterious goings on that
Continue to clog its ability to hum in a rebalanced fashion .. Or
Whether I've struck the right key that, in addition to
Freeing my computer's inner workings, will also
Free my mind of frustration that reality suggests
Must be coiling up deep inside the inner workings of
My brain, for this reason:
Frustration is a natural emotional reaction when
A coveted goal remains just beyond our reach, and
Even the most self disciplined mind is still human, deep inside
And now, having penned that insight, which tapped into common sense
Imagine me choosing to suppress feelings of frustration in favor of
Thinking thoughts that fuel my mind with feelings of gratitude, concerning
The fact that I'm about to enjoy the warmth of another sunny day, spent
With loved ones, offering my spirit heartfelt reason to challenge
Frustration to sit in time out, and thus do Iconsciously create
Brain space to feel as playfully joyful over my soulful good fortune as does
The peaceful mind of a well loved, well balanced child, whose
Mind still feels so safe as to freely satisfy her needs without
Fearing that if she disappoints others, she'll be banished, left to
Starve, emotionally, out in the darkly dreaded, cloudy cold, which
Blinds her mind's eye from seeing that, around a distant corner, life will
Offer her sweet natured heart the emotional clarity that
Proves necessary to frolic neath blue skies as freely as
Is true of ... Ravi, thus far ... You see, thus far, no giant, who
Has won Ravi's love, has confused her wholesome, well balanced
Sense of self by releasing emotional reactions that cause
A. good little girl to fear that if she is not
Perfection, personified, she will be deemed unworthy of love ...
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